Sunday, February 27, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
sometimes i have this very uncertain feeling
because i just want to do my own thing
in any case today was a total bum in hall day.
i am slightly disappointed with myself for spending it like this
not using it to get any work at all done.
very disappointed actually.
on a very it's-just-on-my-mind note,
i hate to use the phrase sick and tired.
because when i tell someone i'm sick and tired,
i really actually mean i'm fed up and close to giving up,
instead of just sick, and literally tired.
so yeah.
i dont know why but it's just a culmination of things i guess
i feel very shitty and i want sunday to come and stay
and i dont want school on tuesdays.
i hate tuesdays.
hello desktop
today's one of those rainy
stay in
hope to get something productive done
end up bumming the day away
do a bit of drawing
catch up on sleep
days.
i need to be somewhere that sells this kind of shit
sometimes,
a lot of times,
i treat dilemmas too much like life or death situations.
i ought to relax,
follow my heart
and not procrastinate.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
this is one damnnnnn hot tattoo.
if i can ever shoot a fox in the wild on film
i will be overjoyed.
i'm somewhat convinced that i need this.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
today was awful in the form of
a blank first roll of film,
an ez link card error,
the lack of coins resulting in me having to pay $2 to get from jp to cs,
no food till dinner.
i am very hungry but the dreadful rain is keeping me in school.
also wall is doing up his presentation so i'm waiting.waiting.waiting.
i dont know why sometimes to try so hard to find happiness in new places.
today i realised if i'm happy, i'm happy, i dont have to worry
Sunday, February 20, 2011
this is going to be a rant
and i am telling you now that if you dont want to read my complains then you should just skip this post.
when i'm angry or annoyed or frustrated it makes me type damn fast so that i can keep up with my thoughts and not lose anything.
so whenever i am stressed about something
that i have no choice but to make work
and it already feels somewhat shitty because there's no time
and if there was more time it could be more awesome and all that
it really gets on my nerves when i see people complaining about any trivial money related i cant buy what i want issue.
i know to someone else worrying about something bigger
and having some bigger dilemma than i am,
and to someone else who has more important things to worry about instead of worrying about not having enough time,
my own problems are nothing to them and even possibly annoying to them.
but yeah!
this is how it is,
it annoys me so much.
and this post is just for me to wind down on that issue.
it didnt really help
but i'm going to use this stress to drive me to do my homework.
this week.
there's -
gl photoshoot
sa recruitment
mb 103 presentation
prep for gv11 ca1
202 group essay
i'm going to remain absolutely positive about getting through this week
(sounds hard at the moment but yeah)
to reward myself this week,
i will also
get my first roll of film from my fm2 developed (at jp perhaps)
and go for the icecream buffet if i can squeeze the time.
i have also been having recurring thoughts of how things would be like if i was single and i had my own shit to handle and to not have to share it with anyone.
it is a scary thought
because we all roughly know how these thoughts have become reality in every past experience
but i know i'll get by this time around,
this is one thing i am certain of
and it's kinda an empowering feeling,
knowing that you have control over some things when everything else seems so fluxive.
i guess this is my solace for tonight.
aaand now i'm onto writing leads for 221
and then imma reward myself with wherethelovelythingsare
and possibly some art.
i need to de-stress.
(ps. i came across the most awesome long brown flowy thin pleated sway-in-the-wind skirt today and if i owned it i would be happy for at least 30 days)
Thursday, February 17, 2011
sometimes when you're already feeling shitty
you play the songs that used to make you feel shitty.
so the memories associated with those songs would be what makes you feel shitty
instead of what really makes you feel like crap at the moment.
makes sense?
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
right now i feel that my life will be complete if i had this ring.
a dose of awesome from wherethelovelythingsare.com
makes me realise that i really need to draw paint shoot more.
i dont know how i'm gonna get there
and i dont know for sure what i'm gonna end up doing in the future,
but i wanna live in a very nice house and it will be home
and we will live there when we arent travelling.
i will go home to it and to you
and feel more at home than ever.
i always thought that if you want something badly enough,
you will do whatever it takes to get it
even if it's eventual,
you'll make sure you get it.
this is one of those things that i really want.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
okay i think i'll take a nap first hehe
zzz
i recently discovered designworklife.com and wherethelovelythingsare.com
it's been pretty amazing,
so i've been spending hours on that website.
there's ton of awesome art on those sites.
and it's really been inspiring me to draw and paint more.
i also kinda wanna start on some photo projects with drawings and stuff
but i cant seem to be able to focus
(and i keep telling myself, slowly, no hurry)
apart from those two awesome sites,
school's been quite a load with all the fundraising and meetings.
my favourite classes have got to be com221 and gv11.
everything else seems pretty blah and everything else isnt by my choice apart from mb103
which is just alright i guess.
today was mostly selling more balloons,
and then mb103 later in the early evening.
i feel kinda loveydovey
(must be overspill from all the pink white lilac red balloons)
so imma do a mood post with just pictures, yay.
coming up
Monday, February 14, 2011
list of good or okay things that happened today
woke up in time for 221
221 was alright
got to use a helium tank
got to blow nice heartshaped helium balloons
gv11 was good
managed to sell a ton of balloons at a good price
had my pink hedgehog in class with me
had the awesome boy in class with me
list of not so good things that happened today
i didnt have time for lunch or tea and now i am very hungry
i burst a few balloons, they popped in my hands
my fingers hurt from tying balloons
my fingers smell of balloons
my nails smell of balloons
the sandals that i wear to school every day broke
i am having cramps
i have to prepare a speech for 205 tmr
and i cannot miss 205 tmr
i have to sell more balloons tmr
the time that i dont have to sell more balloons i have to go for class
somehow i'm pretty objective that it's valentines day,
it's just another day i guess?
and do we really need just one special day
when every day is awesome?
(:
happy valentines day
in cursive sans serif italics
Sunday, February 13, 2011
fuck you
i know what i'm doing
Saturday, February 12, 2011
one fine day i will be able to use up all my saved up surprise ideas
because i will be able to do whatever i want whenever i want.
i will make my own choices, determine my own commitments and create my own expections.
and everything will be good.
i will be with you unconditionally
and you wont have to drive me home
because home will be with you.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
who doesnt love nail polish?
OPI & China Glaze Spree
If you havent heard ~
It's an initiative by WKWSCIFOC to raise funds for our FOC.
Each OPI will be sold at$11.50 and China Glaze will be sold at $9.50.
Click on the url below for more details and order form!
Do take note of the payment methods and details too.
thank you! ♥
deadline is 18th feb, so order now (:
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tra la la
i cant wait for my opi ds extravagance to arrive !!!!!
i honestly cant remember the last time i was stoked about something girly swirly
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
hair length like this, soon
whoah so i havent blogged in an entire week.
i guess it's cos i havent been online or even on my laptop for the whole of cny,
up till sunday.
and then i was busy with foc stuff.
mon was 221 and gv11, gotta be one of my fav days of the week.
ytd was crazy-
two lectures and two tutorials.
today's been okay,
just 221 tutorial, which is pretty crazy on it's own,
but i kinda like it the way it is.
tmr's like the last day of the school week already so i'm all yay inside.
i've been drawing and painting more frequently now.
among other thoughts
i cant wait to finish this roll of film so i can get it developed and see how it turns out.
i also am secretly looking forward to valentines day,
maybe cos for once in two years i'll have someone to share it with,
not that valentines day really means much anyways.
i also feel like i'm getting fat though i really didnt eat that much this cny,
i barely had an bakkwa and barely any pineapple tarts.
(come to think of it, it might've been the crystal jade on sunday :/)
so i have no idea what's going on with my body and it's kinda annoying cos i started out cny better
oh well.
i also havent had any yusheng yet so i'm kinda bummed about that.
other than these details
things are pretty much the same.
life's at this stable
almost boring phase now.
it's like i'm just in transition sometimes.
but i guess everyone goes through phases like this.
we all have to travel to get somewhere.
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
it is pretty amazing to see how people you havent talked to in ages
can have lived their lives perfectly normally
and it's pretty (i dont know what the word for it is) when you start talking to them again
and everything just falls into place.
sooooooo i didnt blog for a whole weekend.
been pretty much busyyy
spent the weekend frying keropok for dnd
and going shopping with mummy
plus hanging with the usuals for adam's birthday.
it's been okay.
nothing much going on that's really worth blogging about
(or that i can really remember in detail even, hurr)
i havent had the time to update much cos i've been sleepingggg alot.
thanks to this dreadful awful cough that i've been having for really quite some time now.
and yeah, looks like it's here to stay for cny.
not cool.
>:(
among other things,
i popped by town with wall today to get the nikon fm2
and i can now proudly say that it is
mine.
got it for a pretty good price without bargaining so i am kinda pretty pleased.
now i cant wait to get my first roll of film
36 sounds like a lot of shots suddenly,
but yay i super cant wait.
imma bring it around for the whole of cny (:
that's pretty much the highlight of my week so far.
90210's been good
i'm just happy that annie and liam are (finally) together (yay)
okaaaay (:
imma do some drawing and painting
and maybe update our book.
and then imma post some photos too.
(:
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