Friday, December 31, 2010
also today at topshop at tampines1
i saw a fur headband that's going for $33
i know i said i wasnt going to shop,
but i havetohavetohaveto get this.
imma wait a week or so cos i have a feeling it'll go on sale.
but after that,
HELLLLOOOOO.
so it's about two hours till the new year (:
it doesnt feel like it's going to be 2011
and it doesnt feel really special or whatever
(cos i cant share it with you hoho...nevermind next year)
i'll be spending the new year at my godpa's place with the rest of the family.
and i'm currently online because i'm waiting for the boy to get on fb chat soonish
since i'm waitingggg
i should blog the standard retrospective goodbye 2010 post.
i cant recall whether i do this every year
(i think i dont?)
but perhaps i should start.
i guess those whom i've come to know will surely know what (or rather, who) the highlight of my 2010 has been.
needless to sayyyy.
before i go on to that which takes the spotlight,
of course the whole concept of uni and staying in hall and making new friends,
takes the cake too.
i'm glad for the friends i've made in uni
and i'm glad for the freedom of hall life.
it's definitely one of the bests experiences i've had.
and then there's wallace.
like i've said, those who know me,
would know how important the dude is to me
and how he makes me feel so much more of me
and so special and everything.
i havent been so comfortable and happy with anyone
i know this is something awesome
that's going to be going on for a damn long time
and i'm so excited for everything that's ahead
cos there's tonssss.
things are gonna be more awesome.
my new years resolution for 2011 is:
Make Things Happen.
I think i cant afford to sit back and wait for things to happen,
it's too, (for the lack of a better word-) painful.
not being able to control what goes on in your life,
not being able to get the things you want or
do the things you want or
achieve the things you want.
it's oppressive (if i can be slightly hyperbolic here)
and i wanna change this with 2011.
i wanna do what i want, what i can and what i should be doing in 2011
and i dont wanna be held back by any constraints,
whether their just my perceptions or others.
imma make things happen in 2011.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
also i realised that i tend to blog more when i'm bored.
feverish still
and i can accredit this to the following
-the weather
-lack of sleep (i'm catching up)
-bad appetite
and also,
hope yangon is treating you well~
dinner at nana's new place tonight should be pretty epic.
looking forward to this
happiness.
thinking about myself in a very reflective way,
i realise i have this innate tendency to protect myself.
(people normally do?)
i've been through alot (if i can say so myself..)
where relationships are concerned.
and i guess i know how i react,
how i deal with things.
so i protect myself.
i face everything by choice,
so that i dont have to suffer the misfortune of facing it by accident.
i would much rather confrontation.
i dig up everything, and then build a new layer on top of it all.
(this concept is inspiring me to paint,
perhaps after this post.)
storms make trees take deeper roots,
and i really believe that
from everything that makes you feel like fuck,
there's some sunshine after it
and it makes you a lot stronger after you've survived it
you never really know how long you stay in it,
but when you emerge,
everything's okay.
and this time around,
with you
i am me.
i have never been more of myself
and i have never been happier.
this whole feeling is amazing, happy, chill, awesome and insanely incredible all at the same time.
it's like melting marshmellows over a cup of milo.
fireworkssssss in the sky
and it's just everything happy.
i can barely describe how it feels (i attempt to)
to have my heart beating so in sync with yours
and to be so comfortable in every way.
people say nothing's perfect
but this,
this really feels like it.
and it's weird how it feels alright even when you're overseas.
it's like absence does make the heart grow fonder.
and i dare say,
forever and always.
i read your blog and i try to read you.
i try to know you.
so i can try to make you better.
i've always had this conscience,
it's nothing new.
i wanna fix you
because it's kinda my fault that this happened.
not that it's a bad thing for me.
i am perfectly secure about this whole thing.
we are perfectly secure.
i read what you had
and i'm numb i guess
no, not numb exactly,
but i accept it.
it's all happy on this side now.
and it's going to be this way.
i'm not worried or shit.
this is going to last.
i dare say, forever.
this is how i feel about you.
it's amazing.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
so the last time i blogged was like, last monday
which makes it more than a week since i've blogged.
i'll try to make this a good one.
i've been insane busy though,
mostly prepping for christmas and hanging out.
things are less hectic now though,
(or so i hope)
spent the week when exams ended getting christmas presents in town
and shopping with wall :)
painful for him,
but it worked out fine lol.
the boy also got his myanmar visa
which makes him exponentially happier LOL
(:
speaking of which, he's left for myanmar todayyy at lunch
-cue the one big awww-
yeah (:
i'm stoked for him
though (duh) imma miss him tons
i would be there in a heartbeat if i could.
what else is going onnnn...
went for fish spa with the cousins today (:
which was awesomeee
anddd then lunch with my bro before coming home to rest.
i've a ton of kino vouchers to spend now,
so imma prolly make a trip down soon (:
i also havent been feeling well,
prolly because i've been sleeping after 3 the past three days and i woke at like 8am today
(yeah insane)
wall seemed to have made up for the lack of sleep on monday and tuesday,
my body's kinda caved in to falling sick now i suspect.
(nevermind can lose weight this way hurr)
i spent the past few days at his place,
movieeeeesssss.
watched Gladiator, Case 39 and Prince of Persia (:
Case 39 at 1am was insane scary,
but good that way.
also i like how both wall and i arent horror movie types.
tuesday we caught prince of persia
which was oookayyy but cheesy ish.
helped him pack for the trip too.
nowwww it's 120 and my wrist is achinggg
i will blog more tmr morning (:
Monday, December 20, 2010
exams are over!!!
i am insanely happy.
it feels like now i can do whatever i want
and there's so much to look forward to-
christmas, hanging out w the cousins, meeting sarahquekruizhen, wall coming back and my birthdayyyy.
looks set to be awesome.
i cant wait.
but for now,
i'm gonna do some drawing to wind down.
hiii so my paper's in like less than three hours, considering i need to shower before leaving.
and i am on tumblr, facebook and twitter-
all at the same time,
like i have no paper.
i deserve a whack.
i think it's okay because it's 120 multiple choice questions,
and i'm just going to whack.tikam.chiong
but i am secretly stressed.
i think, however,
that i want the exams to end so badly
i cant really be bothered about this last paper.
i will regret this later,
but for now,
it's christmas
and i cant help but feel that i'm going to be lost.
sunday was pretty normal.
church then town.
didnt really get anything from town cept a pair of khaki-green slacks
anddd an army green tee.
mummy got me the wallet from topshop too.
but i have to wait till christmas to get it.
and then i left for hall
and (: wall came to have dinner with me.
i swear these exams are totally killing the christmas mood for me.
that and having to move back home and share the room with my sis.
that and me not going overseas with you
that and getting annoyed by my sister every day.
i am somewhat dreading this.
the thought of it really does make me cry
(this plus the moodswing)
and somehow i prefer the semester to this break.
sigh, i know i'm just saying this now, but really.
it's given me this whole comfort in routine (and with you)
and now it's going to be all disrupted and
i cant help but feel that i'm going to be lost.
a falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes.
you have been awesome in ways that i never imagined.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
so it's 2.42am on saturday
and yeah exams arent over-
there's ear801 on monday
which i have no mood to mug for
but i guess i have no choice but to get into the mood tmr after mass.
it's the 4th sunday of advent,
and i figured i had better go.
since com201 on wednesday,
i have
1) Gone shopping on Thursday w Wall
2) Chilled out the whole of Friday
3) Tidied the room in hall and went shopping on Saturday
I havent shopped in quite awhile-
and i mean like, shop, shop,
not just seelikebutcantbuy kinda thing.
so thursday was pretty awesome (not so much for wall, haha heh)
but he was pretty awesome
he helped pick out like most of the stuff that i got from forever 21
which was
-a floral loose flowy shirt (favourite thing to wear now)
-a loose grey-green top with a curved hem
-a brown and blue plaid shirt (i call this the kristen stewart shirt lolllll)
-a grey-blue U-front and back tee.
-a pink floral sequinned headband
i also got a black sheer cropped top from cotton on.
and Jan/Feb Frankie.
i'm still hung up that i didnt manage to get the nov/dec issue.
PEEVED.
but oh well life goes on.
spent friday watching How to Train your Dragon, Citizen Kane and The Art of Travel.
it was good.
Today i spent the later part of the afternoon at vivo,
shopping mostly for Christmas presents for my family-
i only managed to find something for my sister
(tsk)
spent most of my time observing people
and laughing and thinking to myself.
so i learnt a lot of things today
1) I am not going to spoil my kids, until they are obese.
okay, scratch that. I'm not going to spoil my kids.
2) When i bring my kids to the playground, i will let them fall and hurt and not fuss about it.
Okay that's just two of it, cant seem to recall the rest, lol.
Also popped by PageOne after wall met me today
anddd they have quite a load of toy cams there.
pretty pricey though,
but i guess it's convenient enough.
checked out some random shops here and there
then headed to jing's to hang for a bit before supper at thomson.
and now homesweethome.
tmr it's church,
and then back to hall to studyyy.
but i like hall.
it's like home now.
apart from what's been literally going on.
i feel there's this whole overriding sense of happiness in my life now
and it's pretty amazing how this feels so permanent.
i have really never been this happy.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
i reallyreally like how she looks here.
maybe not the shades,
but yeah.
awesomestuff
also it's time to indulge in some annoying facessssssss.
as a disclaimer,
i'm attributing this to stress and thus,
retardedness to counter this.
Also
this amazing underwater photography needssss to be checked out.
i cannot encapsulate how beautiful most of the shots are.
it's so magical, graceful, eerie, melancholic, lovely, sweet, sinister, happy, light and floaty all at the same time.
seems like i havent blogged in a million years,
when actually i think it's just been a few days.
(it feels like forever, lol.)
three papers in a day is NO JOKE.
seriously.
plus this fever is cccrazy.
figured it's cos i'm not getting enough rest,
and my body (and mind) is all stressed out.
tried sleeping early ytd
but i only managed to sleep at 3
it was awwwfulllll.
amazed that i survived today.
203 wasnt too awesome.
but the rest were fine.
dinner at mr teh tarik was good,
and nowwww i'm in school halfway through re revising 201.
i put in the most to studying for this,
since it's so much concrete theory that is studyable,
so i hope it works out fine.
i will be happy like my exams are over,
when i end 201 at 11 tmr.
on the contrary,
i still have a killjoy paper on monday.
plus point is that it's geog.
and it's 120 MCQs.
so it's going to be hardcore geog reading....
and i think i'll start...on...saturday.
(it's 5pm on monday) CCCRAZY.
on a random note,
(i cant remember whether i typed this earlier in the post even hurr)
i've been having a fever since friday :/
it's kinda horrid,
my nose is insane
and it's giving me headaches every now and then.
and my head is in a mess.
i'm dead sure my first few thoughts when i woke up were-
1) Situational Theory of Publics- Active Latent Aware Inactive
2) Are any of my crops in Smurf Village ready to be harvested
3) I need to bathe
all at the same time.
headacheus.
also,
it's one week till christmas
i need to mail my christmas cards.
and do some christmas shopping,
both of which i am looking forward to (:
okaaaay chapter 7: Creating Communication Climates.
(yawn)
Saturday, December 11, 2010
simply put,
i cant wait for exams to be over.
and i am pissed that i will have no time to shop for christmas.
Thursday, December 09, 2010
sometimes i question why i bother when i get annoyed.
and it makes me question why people bother with people whom they're annoyed with.
i think perhaps it's because they havent been bothered enough?
like they can still tolerate it.
or the annoyance is offset by other things.
whatever the case i think it's quite silly to put up with someone you find annoying.
i mean, why bother?
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
you can do this.studying's been okay.
somehow not as painful as studying for As.
which does make it better.
for some things,
i think it's good to have experienced something really extreme sometimes,
cos everything else in comparison is more normal.
it's like how whenever i have to bathe with cold water,
i'll think of when i had to shower in vietnam,
when the water was like ICE water.
so yeah, it's like you tell yourself-
you've been through worse before,
you can do this.
on a random unrelated note,
i'm starting to like the bravery more.
oookay time to continue and finish up 201.
i think i'm secretly postponing completing it because i like studying it best out of the 3 cores.
and thinking of the research i needa do for 203 is quite......daunting.
i'm also going to start on gv12 yay.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Monday, December 06, 2010
exams in a week,
so yeah i might not be blogging much.
i'm also coming to realisations that December is for Christmas not exams and studying.
Sunday, December 05, 2010
some random thoughts.
i want to sleep soon.
i cant wait to get back to hall.
it's my haven.
home is where the heart is.
you are awesome.
i will miss you when you are away though i am preparing myself for this and trying not to.
it'll be fine i know.
(:
i wanna go get that top i've been eyeing from f21
and check out the topshop bracelet that i saw online.
tomorrow perhaps.
saturday salvaged the week.
awesome rainy stay in bed weather
stayed in bed
woke up late
ikea for late lunch
new ferret soft toy yay
baby cousins came over
christmas tree
pretty christmas lights
so yeah that's in summary.
exams are in a week.
which is really quite insane.
so this coming week's gonna be just studying and sleeping.
and eating (lol)
it's going to be christmas really soon
and i dont like how exams kill the christmas mood
but i guess i'll step into it when exams end on the 20th.
i'm kinda not feeling the whole christmas mood
though i'm glad i'll get to spend christmas with you.
:)
Friday, December 03, 2010
there is one thing on my mind at this point in time-
i want to wear my ribbon sequin rainbow hairband.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
so last night i made a trippy video of wall,
thanks to the photoediting app that alan told me about.
it's cccrazy fun
and that was my highlight
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
somehow i get this feeling that one day you're not going to know where i am.
today was normal.
highlight of the day was the 206 screenings that i caught in the afternoon.
feeling pretty psyched about it now,
wanna take it next sem.
(:
among other thoughts
i need to get started on some of those projects that i've had in mind for quite awhile now
i've been wanting to do something david hockney inspired
but i think right now maaaybe that's quite a leap, but i really wanna try.
think i should start at home with that photowall we have
i just need a push of inspiration and purpose that i havent quite gotten
i think if i dig deep enough i just might find it.
but i havent had time to myself or the carefree-ness to think about these things
it's sad and a bit frustrating
but the optimist in me says that i'll get there
so yeah.
among other things,
i dont know when i'm going to get to watch harry potter.
i have a chinese test tmr (fishcakes)
and a test on friday (not looking forward to this)
this week's turning out a lot shittier than i wanted it to be at the start of the week.
i guess it's cos i didnt get to do all the things that i sought out to do at the start of the week.
that means shitty most of the time
there were eight things and i didnt do anyyy.
so yeah, awesome week.
i think this week might just be suckier than last week.
