so its fairly simple, to cut right through the mess
and to stop the muscle which makes us confess.



slept late last night and woke up sick.
went for pw at nine.
stayed till one plus.


bused home,
sarah came over for pw.
made a lego mock up of the hexagonal blocks- which was good.
though its out of colourful lego (: HAHA.


then we did some mean and funny stuff ;D


and now i'm feeling reallyreally emo and idk la.
hate it when it gets to me.
and no one knows.



i have to wait.


cos i've been taking the backseat.
with the both of you.

3:12am


i think i ought to be in bed.
(:
good night.

retail therapy works really well for samantha ann michaela branson.
:D :D :D :D :D


and now, pw.
mood killer.

shit?


i think i'm screwed for malay.
cos i've been doing op slides since just now till now and i'm just done.
my eyelids are heavy.
i need to pack for tmr.
and i havent read a single bit of malay.


on the sidelines,
i think you are inconsiderate because you dont think hard enough
about the consquences of your actions,
esp when people have an exam the next day.


as frustrated as i am with pw,
no, i am not taking it out on you.


from holding back tears to supressing anger and restraining volume,
i'm off to bed.
goodnight.

quiz
thanks to gina..
this should clear my mind from pw.


1. Do you have secrets?
yea.
you dont know the half of it..

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
never, but then again, you never know..


3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
ironically, yes.


4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
make myself happy,
and make others happy.


5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Perhaps.


6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
i think loving someone.
though of course, no one can deny that both simultaneous (and the same person) is ideal.


7. Who do you idolise?
Agyness Deyn!
haha, Liv Tyler?


8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
If i really loved the person,
I'd wait.


9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
yes of course, weeks ago.


10. Do you have any regrets?
definitely.
which is why i wish i could turn back time.


11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
with a stable career which i'm happy with.
and hopefully married.


12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
my parents and the friends i talk to everyday.


13. What kind of the person do you think the person tagged you is?
fun, wild ;D super pretty!and awesome.


14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich- can get married later?


15. What is your favourite colour?
to wear- black
to see- electric blue
to write/draw with- orange-pink
to dream in- turquoise.


16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yes.


17. What would you do if someone whom you hate ask for your forgiveness?
depends on his/her motive.


18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
yes.


19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
depends on how busy i am, whether i can cope with a r/s.
if i can, then i'd prefer a r/s.
if i was too busy than i'd prefer to be single.


20. 6 people I have tagged:
i cant think of names now.


i think you're _____.


i realised that affected is a lousy word,


get a hold of your feelings
and wake up.
life isnt fair.
storms make trees take deeper roots,
and screw you,
shit happens.


just wake up.


yes i am annoyed
no i am not a sore loser.
i havent lost.
you make things confusing,
you know?


on the brighter side.
daddy bought me the six clip i've been eyeing.




It's a love story
Baby, just say yes


So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while



i wore my zebra today :D
so i was happy.
had lunch out,
i was earlyearly.


found myself at the sengkang library
dont know how i ended up there really
borrowed a couple of books
then headed home, kinda emo
but the zebra on my tshirt cheered me up hurr.
(:
can i tell you i miss you.
cos my heart is wherever you are.
and even if you tried to make me forget you it wouldnt work.

you dont know the half of it.


in fact, i feel terrible.
i want to go back to a month and a half ago.


i keep wanting to turn back time.
i'm killing myself silently nowadays.


i dont know why i'm doing this.
i needa find a way to lock my posts.


this post is so incoherent (but whatever.)



sit, and stare at you.



*MAGIC.


i think i amaze myself sometimes.
i think today,
i can really say
that i'm stronger than i thought.


but still,
i cant help thinking how much easier if it'd be if everyone loved who they loved and it so happens that whoever they love is the person who loves them anyways.



i'm not hiding from you (:
cos i'm perfectly secure.

to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you



so today's a holiday,
i am free,
but not doing anything much.


did op slides,
checked proposals,
made just five postcards.


not feeling too good today.
watched kungfu panda earlier,
it was retarded and funny-
i mean,
Po's dad was a duck!
hahaha i found that reallyreally funny.


other than that, didnt get much done today.



i miss you.

forget.


i know what i'm gonna do tmr-
i'm gonna go to popular,
get postcard paper and pens,
find paint stickers magazine cut outs whatever.
and make them nice and awesome.


because art makes me feel better.
and i feel so helplessandshittyandfuck-y now.
and maybe when i'm done with the designing and drawing,
i'll forget how much i need miss love you.





this is the way you left me,
i'm not pretending.
no hope, no love, no glory,
no happy ending.

i wasn't playing.






rewind,
& slow down.



(: so today was pretty awesome (:
had good fun with part of the 21st :D


dragon boating was awesome!
didnt get much of a tan,
and i got very wet.
lol.


headed to suntec for lunch at,
KFC (of all places right ! i know.. haha)
(:
zinger, cheese fries, pepsi (:


walked to some shoe sale place :D
had loadsa fun trying on kinds of shoes :D
which all happened to be like, MY SIZE.
lol.
it helped that i was wearing slippers (:
so yay i had fun ! hahaha.


we went to cotton on :D
i was in such a shoppingshoppingshopping mood!
heh.
saw the skirt that i reallyreally wanna get,
(next weekkk!)


walked somemore (:
toys r us was fun, haha.
then we watched glennard at the arcade :D
hahaha, so funnny.
i was laughing alot cos of the lack of logic in the games,
but aiya, its just a game :D


we took neoprints !
can you believe it (:
so funnnnnnyyyyy.
trrying to fit ten ppl into a booth is so hard.
lol.


then we walked around somemore,
and headed to the mrt-
resisted the urge to go into SIX.
haha.


:D
i was running a fever hurrrrrr.
so i had to stay home.
havent been getting enough sleep, and definitely overworking.


anyways, sighs.
i'm gonna miss those who cant stay in the 21st ):
but guys, i know you're going to be so so much more awesome next year.
(:


whenn i think about it,
about next year,
without some of my friends,
especially those from 1A04, art and council,
its just ):


its like, eventhough i can promote,
it really isnt the same without everyone.
and i hate that there's no turning back.







cos if i could rewind,
i reallyreallyreallysuperfucking would.







today was fun (:
blog more when i get the pictures.


having a fever now ):
gonna sleeeeep.


bought a pair of vans earlier (:
retail therapy works.


wow, right?


commendation day was pretty alright,
emceeing was good considering i was on the verge of zhao xia-ing the whole way.


didnt sleep for the whole of last night.
cant believe it.
i will be devastated if i get anything less than a C for PW.


i am so glad that the wr is submitted !


dragonboating at kallang tmr yay.
okay i need to sleep now.
yawns.


fuck,
i admit i was in the wrong.
but this doesnt mean you can tie my sincerity to getting back together with you.


it doesnt work that way.


i realised that i'm happy today,
despite everything.


(: happiness is a feeling that's different from the norm, and i'm happy.
:D


jewel box case laughs.


today was pw day.
haha, and it was surprisingly productive, to me at least.
pretty pleased with today's progress.
the jewel box case thing really made me laugh inside.
it was the touch of light hearted humour that i needed.
(:


had heart to heart talk with mosh.
she is the most awesome ct ever.
cant emphasize on that enough.
and she is just so out there with everything.
i know she really loves us and cares about us.
and she sacrifices for us.
i have a lot of respect for her.
(:


things are looking better (:
i feel so sorted out
(the irony with pw being a madrushrushrush but yea)
somehow pressure drives me?
its kinda screwed up, but haha, it works for me i guess?


Tmr there's the commendation day rehearsal, CLC Meeting, CCA time, SAJC Art Showcase, PW WR Submission 2, Orientation delegation and OP slides.


and i'm still happy (:


:D


i stayed back to do pw today,
till 9+ when it started raining so heavily.
i had an umbrella but i was still soaked.
i bused home, cooold.
dinner was fast.


read some things.
found out somethins.
and now i feel so screwed up.
fuck this shit la.


song of the day: You Picked Me by A Fine Frenzy.
colour of the day: Grey

Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one.



promises;


what are they,
people make them,
keep them,
or break them.


sometimes, we ask people to make promises,
cos we're afraid of the consequences that might happen if others found out,
most of the time,
we're just scared that things might change if others knew.
cos we're so happy with how things are at the time.
and so, we make people promise.


there's the link to why we get angry when people break promises.
we're angry because now that the promise is broken,
we risk others finding out,
and that links to the reason why we made the promise in the first place, right?


and when people keep our promises,
they become secrets.
secrets between two people.
cos they're the only ones who really know what happened.


secrets (:


random notes,
i love my family :D
no starbucks this weekend,
you and i both by jason mraz is stuck in my head,
bored to death with nothing to do,
i feel like eating the seafood spaghetti from white tangerine,
and i want you to be okay.

One, two, three
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four, five, six
The two of us a perfect fit
You're all mine, all mine
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me


today was a crazymadrushday.


spent the morning hiking at macritchie from 8-10am.
did about 4.8+km times two.
cos halfway i realised i had to be at cityhall at 1030 for the biennale tour.
so i trekked back alone and rushed home at ten,
bathed and changed and left within fifteen minutes (record timing..lol)
reached cityhall ten minutes late,
LOL
chionged to the old parliament house and yay i met them :D
had fun,
saw some really amazing works.


(i'll post the photos when i get them from nad (: )
camwhored a bit along the way haha.


then headed to foodrepublic with gina and nad (:
chendol and dim sum!
then headed to taka,
pull and bear !
-got my zebra top, yay!
and mango (:


then i rushed for choir (:
had mass,
then dinner (:
which was pretty unexpected
(:


then home, and here i am :D




finally, done.



tearstime to sleep.


Brown eyes and lungs are filled up with smoke
Fast lives are stuck in the undertow
But you know the places I wanna go
Cause oh oh oh
I've got a sickness, you've got the cure
You've got the spark I've been lookin' for
And I've got a plan, we walk out the door


You know you wanna
Just let go
It's time to roll down the windows
Sing it oh oh
Yeah all we need so here we go
Cause i need you more than just for tonight.
Almost done with the written report for submission tomorrow.
Grad day for j2s tmr, and i'm not looking forward to it.
Done with Orientation Proposals.
gotta make changes to the script, wrap up PW.


hearts all over the world tonight.

1. i have feelings too
2. i have been too nice to you
3. you make me wait
4. its not up to standard.
5. fuck dont give up
6. i am sick and tired of excuses
7. forget it
8. i'm sick
9. i hate waiting
10. dont make me edit it again.
11. i hate having to get over you
12. you rubbing it in
13. i'm not being selfish
14. i'm hurt.
15. i need sleep
FUCK TONIGHT.

now that its all said and done.
i cant believe you were the one.



so today started out alright.
i was initially very pissed.
i think its highly annoying when people dont stick to datelines.
anyways i will address this issue later so there's nothing much that can be achieved by ranting about it now.


pw is a triple bitch.
i've been putting a superbigload of effort into the wr now,
its 40%.
and even if half the group doesnt give a fish about what grade they get,
fish them cos i do.
and its selfish and unfair, what they're doing,
but i guess since nothing else i do helps,
the most i can do is deal with it.


in case you cant tell,
i am in a fishing bad mood.
i dont like the thought of having a whole lot of work to do.
and it sucks more that it all depends on me and that if i screw up,
there goes one A for A levels.
deep down,
i'm scared of disappointing again.
i want so badly to score in pw.


which is why is pisses me off that the bulk of the burden of the wr is pushed to me.
fuck la.
and the best i can do,
is deal with it,
and work hard.
right now the thing i hate the most is people who are useless.


you were right when you said,
SHIT HAPPENS.


its not over.
idfk.

your song on replay.



i think i need to stop this multiple-blogposts-within-a-few-hours thing.
i was just thinking bout ytd,
and all the promo results.


i dont want to think of it this way,
but a lot of people whom i, among many others, relied on,
are walking away,
forgetting their commitments.
i'm not sure if they regret it,
cos i dont think they do.
they dont care about what they're leaving behind.
they're indifferent.
and that really pisses me off.


cos you're screwing others up without a thought.
without an apology.
and there will never be an excuse for that.




in an attempt to feel better and less bored
i shall look for the stardust disc and watch stardust after a shower.
wish you were here.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me
trying to get you off my mind but i cant.

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.
you wrote this first, iwannakissyouagainandagain.


& get myself together.


today is one of those days where i hate my life.


i'm on MC cos of a slight fever and a sensitive nose.
i initially wanted to go the docs cos of a migraine.
but then heh my nose was giving me shit.


so i told him about it.
turns out i have a sensitive nose.
which explains the continuous sneezing.
so in the end, i'm on medication for that.
and i hate medication.





there's something bout you that makes me wanna step up.
cause you keep me from falling apart.

love and closure.


love
its about making sacrifices for a person.
its about caring so much about a person that you accept their flaws and love them for who they are.
its not about being selfish or possessive.
its about caring so much about a person,
that you want them to be happy.
and sometimes, its even though you cant be the one making them happy.
thats how its about making sacrifices.
loving is sacrificing.
and because it is about sacrificing,
love is not about being selfish or possessive.


You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if you're not part of their happiness.


this is THE last post i am going to blog ever about me and andrew.


why we broke up is between us.
so for everyone who knows the both of us,
we'd really appreciate it if you could respect our decision
and leave things to the both of us.
its not that we dont need your help or appreciate you guys trying to help us patch,
but the both of us know what we're going to do now.
and thats that.


so please.
lets forget the issue.


To build me up and tear me down,
like an old abandoned house.



My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do


But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over


I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die






sometimes i hate change.
eventhough its the only constant.



met the girls at vivo starbucks today!
it was nice slacking there.


went to pullandbear (:
and tried on my zebra top yayyy!
i'm an XS lol.
and i'm so gonna get it after my allowance comes on the 15th :D
(i hope they'll still have it omg.)


headed to daiso after that and got mummy her soya sauce thing,
which is yummyyummy.
(:
after that we went to foodrepublic and i got to eat my chendol yayyy.
that made me happy happy happy.
played locoroco, so cuteeeee.


after that we all trained home tgh,
haha, and laughed alot.
lol.


i'm home now.
manage to do quite a number of recordings in the morning.
my muscles ache less too.
i've got butterflies in my tummy cos tmr is like, D-DAY.
AH.
anyways,
i feel good today,
my voice feels good,
my hair feels nice,
and i feel happy.



in contrast,
i think tmr's gonna be a ): day.
and friday's gonna be a ): day too.
cos the j2s are leaving.
and i dont want themyou to go.

second best.


met jason at starbucks for awhile.
caramel frap was too milky.


bused to church.
had the test during choir.
nicole, yenyen and i were tested Be Thou My Vision.
it went pretty well i guess,
managed to hit everything haha.


had a fever though.
felt pretty sick.
headache all the way.
rushed to meet the girls at the singapore flyer.
took 174, instead of 171,
got lost.
ended up in chinatown.
cabbed-nine bucks.


had dinner,
got very pissed at the people in the queue in front of me and some idiotic woman on the bus
"Are you untouchable? Cos when the bus moves, everything moves."
WTF LA.


walked around after dinner,
laughed and lamed.
so funny laaaa.
hahahaha.
sarah and her black boat neck top.


anyways i have a fever and i need to sleep.
night.




If this will last forever.

wake me up.


woke up lateeee today.
cip was good good good !
the residents were so lovely.
reached home by around 11 plus, way earlier then expected.


going out to starbucks as usual.
not gonna study though.
just going to relaxxx.


i have a bad headache now.
i neeeeeed coffee or icecream, or a sundae pie.
and you.

looks like its set to be a boring weekend.
cip tmr from 8am till 2pm.
then its prolly home and choir.
i am so tired and my muscles really really hurt.


salonpas stinks, but the 'hot/cooling' feeling is kinda nice.


can i take a break?


feel not-so-bad today even though i'm mood-swingy (:
first smiley in awhile i think?
night.

reply this message
so i know you're safe.



realised that in my post last night i said-
'this is my 303rd post for today' hurr.
shows how off i must've been.


anyways school today was alright,
training proved that my right calve muscle is totally tight.
and aching every time i move.


anyways there's council later today (:
so i gotta be getting back to school.


just watched csi new york.
amazing how they trace the killers.
the murders are so gruesome, but yea.



anyways,
today i feel, irritated?
nothing you do makes me feel jealous,
and at the very least i dont want to be.
sorry, but try to rmb that please.


Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something, somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but nothing's turned out how you wanted.


"Yea. I hate this."



this is my 303rd post for today.


i feel good now, somehow.
despite the diverse muscle aches.
its like post killer-training feel-good vibes.
or maybe killer training is just, cathartic
and i really need that right now.


training again tmr morning with 2.5kg weights.
should be good.
only problem is i wont have time to shower and i really really want to.


i just realised that getting over someone, be it by force or by choice sucks.
and i guess i suck for only just realising that.



and in the end,
i lost you both.
fuck.

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it


on a random note,


i think people who tag boards with comments on the ppl whose blogs they read are retarded.
because sometimes the things they say are so un thought through.
its like, they're just saying what comes to their mind without considering the deeper reasons behind why the person to whom the blog belongs to said what he said in the first place.
its like, you're giving your two cents worth for smth thats worth a dollar.


i also think its pointless to argue with these people,
even in defence.
because you really shouldnt have to prove things to anyone,
as long as you and your friends are comfortable with it,
thats good enough really.
just like how a misunderstanding between A and B should be Z's concerned,
even if he's still in the alphabet.
but i guess there'll always be friends who stand up for you.


and sometimes irritating annoymous taggers who we dont even know are a blessing in disguise because they help us see that our friends love us,
even when we've taken so much shit that we're numb to the shit the anon tagger's giving.



and i think i might open my blog up again.
see how.

lucky to have been where i have been.






Just because something changes, it doesn’t mean that it is lost.
Like melting snow, it simply becomes somehting else.



today was a rather relaxed day
-most days are now, but i guess they wont be for long.


vietnam trip meeting was productive.
left school round 8pm.
headed home, and here i am.


random-
i dont feel like doing my I&R tonight.
i think i need a new email.
i have to work out the agenda for council time tmr.


but i dont feel like doing work now,
so i'm slacking and reading my old blog.
its good to lookback and see how i've changed.


i feel like watching Corpse Bride too..
This is wrong, Victor. My dreams were stolen from me, and now I've taken somebody else's.
I love you Victor, but you are not mine.

exco meeting today was alright (:
econs was alright too.
i've been sleeping round twelve am,
so its been relaxing.


on the bus home,
i suddenly thought of the zebra top from pull and bear and i think i wanna get it (:
haha, vivo or taka?
:D
i can be such a see-like-buy girl.


anyways i'm home now,
but i have to be back in school at 5.3opm.
haha yea (:
think i might go take a nap.



teh tarik ice cream and milo nuggets are the love.

i'm blogging too much :/


anyways i forgot to say that i cut the tip of my tongue, somehow.
the cut was there when i woke up this morning (like wtf?)
and it hurts like shit for awhile everytime i eat.
its disincentive enough to not eat la, seriously.


today i ate,
two slices of fruit and nut bread
one scoop of teh tarik icecream
one scoop of chendol icecream
two plums


and i'm still feeling fat.
hurrr.


anyways i think i shall be like Jamie from A walk to remember and make a list of things to do before i die.



come stop your crying, it will be alright
just take my hand, hold it tight
i will protect you from all around you
i will be here, dont you cry.








i feel like a hero,
you're my heroine.
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?




school was good today,
though i didnt get to see you, again, haha.
gp and geog two-hour long lectures only,
though i think i screwed up geog damn.
feel worried about results but no use harping on it since there's nothing i can do about it.


ended early at 1230,
headed to Island Cremery with Tingyi and Fon.
sarah and sam didnt wanna come bleaaaah.
they missed out on awesome icecream!
i had teh tarik and chendol-
so Singaporean acc to fon haha.
it was beyond yummy really! beats ben and jerry's in my opinion.
its the best ice cream i had in quite some time really.


i'm home now,
who knew i lived fifteen mins from island cremery?
anyways,
imogen heap is seemingly dominating my top 25 most played songs.
i feel pretty emo nowadays when i'm alone,
i guess its cos realisation dawns upon me,
that i gave up on you.
and you left.
what i'd give to go back three weeks ago.
fuckthisfeelingcositsucks.

You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy,
even if you're not part of their happiness.
and the part that sucks for me (there are so many) is that i cant tell you what i want to.
why do things have to be hard for me.

Speeding Cars.


Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violins
just run with me through roads of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck


There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah


Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any


There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah


it's ok by me..
it's ok by me..
it's ok by me..it was a long time ago
it's ok by me..
it's ok by me..
it's ok by me..it was a long time ago


There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah


There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

and yay there's no freaking pw tmr.

fuck this feeling.


today i miss you and i miss Zenith II.
and i miss so much.
how'd it come to this.
fuck.


Say goodnight and go.


Read Brisingr at the usual starbucks after mass and lunch at a very noisy mos.
Kinda feeling moody now.
Thank goodness for Germaine.
I miss so much.



Skipping beats, flashing jeeps
I am struggling
Daydreaming, been sitting, the corner cafe
And I'm left in bits, recovered tectonic, trembling
You get me everytime






Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay
Maybe you'll leave
Maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
Maybe we'll grow
We'll never know.


Met up with germaine at vivo earlier today and it was good (:
caught up at starbucks and i forgot to eat my chendol at food republic :(


but nonetheless it was awesome !
when i got out of the mrt and up to the tangs level,
amanda and germaine were both there ! :D
cos amanda's out with her mummy at vivo.


awww and amanda was so sweeeeeeet.
she got me a double pair of earrings from six to make me feel better cos of everything that was stressing me out 10 on the stress scale.
so cute.
a rainbow and ice cream :D
thanks so much for everything bestie, ilu.


and germaine and i went to diva later (:
they've got awesomely pretty accessories !
pretty colours and designs and stuff.
i wanna go shopping properly soon soon soon
gotta wait till after the 15th when my allowance comes in...
then she had to leave so we left and i headed home (:
bused from potong pasir.
i like the NEL more now.


anyways, i'm sure that i've sorted things out now,
and everything's going to be fine from here.
(:
glad for this.
feel so relieved.
even though things turned out this way.

dear andrew,


i'm sorry.
i read your blog.
and i guess things cant get worst than this.
so lets leave them here and move on.


for your sake and mine,
get over me please.


i just want to forget,
close this chapter and move on.


i'm one step closer to that with this decision.
so please.
try.




superpissed8942398@hotmail.com.


the post promo timetable is so bad.
i'm going to rant so bear with me.


tmr i have a break from 1030 to 2.30pm.
four hours.


next tues i only have one lecture from 8 - 10am then i have a
meeting at 5.30pm.
GREAT.
i dont even wanna know how long there is in between that.


next fri there's only one and a half hours of MALAY
then there's cca.
so its 1030 to 3.30pm
WTH.
i dont wanna count the hours again.


the other days,
there's only pw or malay.
so its like going to school for one plus hour.
then waiting till we can leave.



i am just very irritated and annoyed.
cos yes i know i need a break,
but in school?
not a very conducive break environment.



and freak i have to do my EOM now.


GREAT.
pre-occupied without you




disturbia


Happy Children's Day (:


Mummy got me a horse figurine from The Better Toy store (:
so cute.


they went to the natl museum
and i'm not too keen on going.
so i'm slacking at home for awhile now.
then i'm loading new songs to my ipod.
gonna shower and meet them at ps.
cotton on shirt please (:


i am happier cos i'm sorted and happy and things're looking better, but thats just for me though :/

and the upcoming month looks PACKED for me. hello schoolwork.

have a good holiday.
take care.

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