Today you realised smth when you were talking to wei jie, or more like, you acknowledge smth you didnt want to before. you realised that it's better to accept what God gives you then to wonder what you did wrong upon not getting what you wanted.
it's about knowing what you aim to achieve, but accepting it if you didnt get what you want. and at the end of the day you'll find yourself much happier (:
Today i'm happy (: I'm ready to embrace the challenge (: i wasnt expecting what i got honestly, but i'm glad to be given the opportunity. thank you everyone who's helped me grow (: i wont let you down (:
Redefining leadership, Envisioning success (: 21st all the way!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
ytd was awesome,
last day of exams :D
met andrew after my paper (:
to sum it ALL up,
the day was well spent,
:D
ilu!
today was great too !
(((:
after mass in the morning,
we went to aunty dorine's place for tea,
and we helped her with the goody bags
then all 14 of us headed to Spizza for dinner !
(:
yummy yummy.
i was with the girls (:
cos each of the families has an average of two girls.
so there were 6 girls !
and they're so cute.
the restaurant gives like dough for kids to play with,
so i was sitting with Ashley and Gabby and we were making animals with the dough (:
really awesome (:
and so fun!
and when the pizza came,
they were all being fussy (so cute)
so i felt like a mummy helping them,
cos the six parents were sitting at the other side of the long table.
and the kids were at another end (:
so cute la.
and they're so adorable!
i felt like a real da jie.
haha.
i'll upload photos of all the dough creations when i can (:
after the lovely and fun dinner,
we headed home and here i am now (:
I just realised that i have five periods of art in a row tmr,
ending school as late as on the last slot on the timetable,
and exco results will be out at 5.30pm!
(!!!!)
excited and nervous at the same time (:
still,
i cant wait for tmr to come (:
plus there's pe (:
(which i've come to love thanks to andrew)
looking forward to the coming week,
though i anticipate i will be highly busy
(ah i just remembered that i have A level MT oral tmr !)
Friday, June 27, 2008
you're my pick-me-up. i love you.
(: off to have my (very late) dinner now (: then start mugging (: for art history (: which is going to be fun, hopefully.
(: on a random note, i feel like eating a cinnamon sugar pretzel :D
happy things that happened today. 1. Finished my art essays and two sketches. 2. Dialogue went well.
unhappy things that happened today. 1. Said byebye to keagan. 2. Havent finished the sketch of the indian woman 3. I'm sick. 4. The GCE thing. to go or not to go. 5. Unnecessary comments which make me roll my eyes and go wth. myob. 6. I need to study and i havent had dinner but my head hurts so i just wanna sleep but i cant.
I guess that pretty much speaks for today. On a less dismal note, jcts'll be over for me by 10am tmr, YAY. and i'll have a lot to look forward to next week, with the release of council exco results. and school'll start normally again (: which is a comfortable pace and i can relax in the busy-ness of school.
i know i sound crazy, but really, life for me is more directed and focused when i have work to do nowadays. it's worrying (and yes i know i'm rambling) but that's how it pretty much is for me.
Life seems easier without having to have an unplanned life where i dont know what's going on. What i'm saying is, i'm more comfortable living it being busy (notice i said busy, not stressed) with schoolwork and maintaining relationships at a fast pace. rather than going at different speeds each day and seemingly going on a roller coaster. cos honestly, having to rearrange schedules or not know what i'm going to do the next day just makes me feel so undirected, it makes me sick.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
i like this photo very much. :D
ytd evening was spent at vivo with andrew (: had fun! (: (haha, we were spotted by jeremy, jonas, junlong and shawn)
school today was spent sitting at the gallery, sketching. while he was playing soccer with the guys. played a bit of basketball with jonas, jeremy and andrew (if it counted, lol) and then continued drawing. left school to relax before 5 (:
iloveyou.
sam LOH had this convo with sarah and she posted it on her blog, i laughed out loud when i read it, an i just had to post it-
SARAH! says: oh yea, i dreamt that fonteyn and i were at some bar. but it was very brightly lit, like daytime like that. and i was looking through the menu. then i saw this alcohol drink named fonteyn. and i excitedly told her and i said to the bartender, i would like a fonteyn please.
SARAH! says: and fonteyn was like, whoa! exact spelling leh! it was green in colour, with a slice of LEMON [like what else]. and fizzy. she said it had a high lvl of alcohol in it but i couldn't taste the alcohol! then i drink and drink and drink, felt very high and dizzy.
Sam says: HAHA
Sam says: wth!
SARAH! says: like totally weird and random dream.
Sam says: i need to blog about this la!
SARAH! says: then got you alll also!
SARAH! says: you all made me walk to the washroom with you all, and it was super super far. then don't know who said it was east coast.
SARAH! says: then you some sort of led the way la.
Sam says: wad the!
Sam says: hahahha.
Sam says: wad does it mean?i'm a natural leader.
sam says: =)
SARAH! says: it didnt even look like east coast at all!
SARAH! says: wth...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Smilish.
tra la la la laaaaa (:
all my papers are o-v-e-r,
with the exception of art !
haha but i like art history so yea (:
:D
i am going out to meet andrew after this,
so i'm happy (:
okay i dont have much to say except that i cant wait for later (:
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
malay was normal, maths was pretty good. couldnt do one question which left me annoyed but i think i'm just anal and i should shut up now (:
i'm proud of andrew for studying so hard for math during the three hour break and for not giving up (: i know sometimes i sound more like a mother than a gf, but you know its cos i care about you (:
well i havent started on geog ! though i dont know why i'm not stressing out about it... i guess i will when i see how much i have to cover ! gonna start in ten mins (:
exams're almost over ! second last paper tmr yayyyy ! i cant wait :D
RANDOM- for every girl with a broken heart, there is a guy with a glue gun. - i think this is cute.
Monday, June 23, 2008
What do you do when you dont feel like practising maths on the eve of a math exam? Cos i dont. Bleah. And the fly (HEHE, dont kill me for this) is not replying me ):
i am a happy girl today, both papers went better than i anticipated (: Gp was pretty awesome with Competition is always good.
I practised smth similar during the hols so yay (: i had enough points and examples (: i wrote five full sides (: most ever.
studied at macs with tingyi and leslie and andrew (: who was being very sweet (:
Econs was pretty manageable, completed more than usual for drq (: loss about three marks cos i only did the last question halfway. essay was joy (: Elasticity of demand :D
had a fever after econs :/ i guess it's cos i was sitting under the blast of the aircon. and the change in temperature didnt agree with my body. i'm extremely tired and i dont want to do peribahasa for malay ): i dont wanna practise maths either. fell asleep on the bus on the way home earlier.
i hope tmr goes well too (: malay and maths tmr, geog on wednesday - and then i'm pretty much done until art on saturday.
i'll be happy until then (:
Sunday, June 22, 2008
this is just a random rant, i am very much a happy girl (:
i think something which scares me is how boyfriends say always and i say always, and i do mean always, otherwise i wouldnt says always, and i want it to mean always but when things fall out, always seems so short lived, really. and this time around, i need it to mean always.
cos i aint gonna make the same mistake.
How to Play 1. Put your music player on shuffle. 2. Press forward for each question. 3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating. 4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions. 5. Tag 5 people
How are you feeling today? Everyday I love you - Boyzone For Andrew (:
Will you get far in life? Together - Evelyn Tan uh. lol.
How do your friends see you? Braveheart themesong - Enya like braveheart ? whoah.
Will you get married? Keep Breathing - Grey's Anatomy OST i hope it means yes?
What is your best friend’s theme song? Lonely No More - Rob Thomas teehee, cos she's got Him.
What is the story of your life? Time Stands Still - All American Rejects HAHA, not really.
What was high school like? Looking through your eyes - Quest for Camelot awwwwww (:
How can you get ahead in life? Dhoom Dhoom - Tata Young LOL, no link.
What’s the best thing about your friends? Running on Sunshine - Grey's Anatomy OST totally (:
What's in store for this weekend? I can go the distance - from hercules yea, with mugging !
Describe your grandparents. Falling or Flying - Grace Potter and the nocturnals
How’s your life going? Ever the same - Rob Thomas (:
What song will they play at your funeral? How we operate - Varios LOL.
How does the world see you? Our lips are sealed - Hilary and Haylie Duff HAHA my life's a secret?
Will you have a happy life? Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
Do people secretly lust after you? Strangers like me - Phil COllins Strangers like me. HAHAHA. okay, lame!
How can you make yourself happy? Reach for the stars - S Club 7 True (:
What should you do with your life? Friends theme song Be there for others (:
Will you ever have children? I Me You - Grey's Anatomy OST We all will (: ? lolll.
What song would you strip to? Just so You know - Jesse McCartney LOL WTH!
What does your mum think of you? Any other world - Mika um, no idea what this means.
What is your deep, dark secret? Move Along - The All-American Rejects LOL.
What is your mortal enemy’s theme song? That thing you do - The one hit wonders
What’s your personality like? Since you've been gone - Kelly Clarkson HAHA, omg. this is funny. if you know what i mean. (:
What song will be played at your wedding? Pirates of the caribbean themesong LOLLLLLLLL.
okay so most of it has no link (: haha. okay this afternoon has been shopping for pens and talking to andrew (: evening is mug time. oh joy !
All the best for JCTS (:
miss tan's wedding (:
Friday, June 20, 2008
today i just wanna scream that i still have an exam on saturday morning!
everyone pretty much seems to think that exams end on friday for everyone, but no! h1 & h2 art have their art exam on saturday !
(: anyways the past few days have been amazingly productive. been going back to school to study everyday. the only thing i'm thoroughly done with is econs :O i know, gasp. but yea.
anyways, it was happy 18th birthday to jason and james on thursday night (: went for the bbq / chalet with andrew on thurs. haha, it was pretty fun (: (:
went for a family lunch with kongkong today, and shopping at ArtFriend :D it was a-w-e-s-o-me (((: got a new sketchbook, and new graphite and pens and colourpencils (: inspires me to get started on the art assignments! (eventhough i dislike drawing people)
which reminds me that i need to go to ij to collect my prep ! and i'm gonna go fill up my new sketch book with smth nice now :D just spoke to andrew (:
which makes me a happy girl(friend) (:
Thursday, June 19, 2008
i need to stop being late.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
weathering.
i'm in a particularly shitty mood right now, which makes me really off colour and lethargic. and i really dont like being like this but it just happens.
reading laura's blog almost made me cry because i miss ij. and what struck me was smth her mum said - "why won't you admit it, you can't cope right?" and sometimes i feel i'm like that. i expect too much from myself. it's how i push myself. and at the same time it kills me inside. but i cant admit it, and even if i did it would be so pointless because it's self inflicted.
and on a random note, i've always liked this song.
i've been mugging in school and it's been pretty productive yay! gonna meet tingyi soon to mug again (: i'm late i'm late i'm late :/
posts are going to be dry and boring, cos that's how studying is, no?
and studying makes up a large percentile of my life at the moment.
Monday, June 16, 2008
reading your blog reminds me of what i gave up on, and highlights what i've gained.
today was a wonderful day (:
i studied, spent time with andrew, and was happy all at the same time (:
cant beat that (:
okay so maybe studying at kovan macs wasnt the best idea, LOLLLLL. (andrew blushes :D aww.) haha, but it turned out pretty alright (: the singles club contributed to alot of laughs and smiles (:
and of course, needless to say, all the sweet+cuteness was from him :D
i had an Awesome day, with a capital A (: thanks to A for Andrew(: (hahaha, i'm retarded like you, I KNOW :Dilu ♥ )
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Dear blog,
i am a very happy girl today because andrew is (finally) b-a-c-k (: but i wont get to see him, until sometime next week ):
but it's okay (: cos i get to hear his voice everyday (:
he's going to be a good boy and study hard. i'm so proud of him. -smiles really widely and genuinely.
ohhh, and happy father's day to all daddies :D
love&hugs, Samantha.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
it's a lazy saturday morning (: and last night was an awesome night spent with my family (:
i have really cute and funny parents, haha. i got a new bangle from Forever21, and tabitha got a jacket thing from Cotton On, daddy also bought us FamousAmos cookies :D -Zachary finished his whole pack by the end of our shopping trip, LOL. tab and i got new tops from Flesh Imp, thanks to daddy :D
then we had yummy hokkien mee at Food Republic, and i had my favourite drink, teh peng from Toast Box :D
we went around shopping somemore after dinner :D headed to taka (: there wasnt anything much to get around there. haha. daddy and mummy were looking at pots and pans, and i found it pretty amusing that all the lids were reflective. seriously as good as mirrors! i told mummy it'd be so retarded if someone carried around a mini pan lid as a mirror in her handbag. imagine that.
andrew messaged me when we were at the household section :D which of course left me smiling (((:
we headed up to the toys section where mummy, tabitha and i got caught up choosing really cute mini stamps. :D zachary chose a few t-shirts and shirts and then we paid and left. Art friend was closer by then so we couldnt get the stamp pads ):
we headed back to food republic again after all the shopping- for a drink :D then we headed homeeeee.
it's 11am now, and i'm waiting for andrew to come back (:
and when he's back, i need to get studying ):
Friday, June 13, 2008
it's my second official studying day today (:
gonna get two art essays done :D (aim to at least)
mummy said last night we're going shopping tonight :D and daddy said he'd let us each get smth we need (: i'll be heading for the Cotton On sale :D reason to smile, haha.
i'll also get to change my specs lens this weekend yay! (no more blurry lt screens)
and mummy's buying back LJS for lunch (:
which means i'll get to eat my hershey's sundae pie, yummy yummy (:
(which means, lets go running next week at the canal at my place when you come back next week dear)
* here's something i'll be smiling about for the whole of today :) :) :) -
Andrew'll be back tmr :D ♥♥♥♥♥♥
Thursday, June 12, 2008
i am done with my very very long gp essay. it's not very well done though, but i spent a very long period of time on it. found it difficult to prove the side of the argument which i was going for, which sort of swayed my own opinion.
i had honey milk tea from opposite mummy's school which made me a happy girl (: i am also happy because i finished my gp essay and i'm done with research for my art essayS, which means i can head out somewhere to do it tmr. i am also happy because i finally sorted out the gpp and all. i am also happy because i had 14hours of sleep :D which makes me a very well-rested and happy girl.
but that doesnt mean that i miss you any less ))):
okay i need to do my gp essay omg.
i love photoshop & A (:
and ah it's one of those the cold wind is blowing the sunsilk shampoo smell from my hair days it's one of those days where the walls seem to be closing in on me and i feel alone even when i know that i'm furthest from that in all actuality (random: i like the word actuality) and i miss so much.
i miss the recess bunchers, i miss amanda, i miss germaine, i miss melanie, i miss scip esp the exco and my dearest ever E! comm, i miss all the seniors - cadence, ziko, jon, josh, chester, aisyah, swee liang, michael, i miss the 30/08-ers esp vibsy, germaine, chiaps, almas, i miss the angels&mortals - zt, eug, jon and marcus, i miss the AEP girls esp Laura tan, and SU ): i miss nathalie, and ian and melvin and i guess i'd be lying if i said i didnt miss the times i had with sean. i miss A.
things're different now. marc surprised me with a call last night, which made me realise how much i've changed as a girl. i've grown from experiences and i've sorted out my feelings.
last night i realised how grateful i am to everyone for all the experiences they've shared and been through with me. if it werent for them, i would definitely not be who i am today.
thank you.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
a well-deserved break (:
had choir camp on monday and tuesday. reached home at twelve am last night from the camp. choir camp was fun (: the food was so good, it turned me into a P-I-G.
talent night was the highlight of the camp, which was pretty awesome (: the paint war game was super FUN. praise and worship was great too (:
managed to talk to A all the way in between yay (: it was also awesomely fun in a really bimbo-y way to be staying with the sops :D
it only sucked because of the million and one mosquito bites which i got. ):
today, woke up really early, (eventhough i was so so soooooo tired) so that i could catch A before he leaves ): and i had to be in school at 8am for council invest rehearsal.
talked to him randomly here and then whenever we both could during rehearsal and in the morning when i first woke up. missing him loads.
though i'm not the same gf i used to be (obviously) i dont intend to make the same mistakes again. (: cos everything's going to be better this time around. which means i am less corny. and just, more spaced. haha, if there's sucha word i feel it aptly encapsulates what i wish to say.
today was awesome for the fact that all my dates for the holidays are over, i have time for myself; to take a break, finish my homework, get studying.
to sum it up, today is awesome for the fact that i get to start working intensively towards doing well for JCTs. it makes me feel secure knowing that from now, till next, next monday, i have time for myself.
i have time to study. do my work. uninterrupted.
it is awesome because i have space to govern my own plans, not have to go for this camp, or that camp, or this rehearsal or that tutorial.
i am happy because today i can be independent. and being independent is that important to me (:
tried out some handwriting analysis thingy earlier, here're the results-
Samantha will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Samantha believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Samantha will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it
Samantha is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Samantha basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
it's true in a scary way but still true.
(: this post is awesomely long i think (i mean, i havent blogged in days :D) and because i think i still havent posted a photo properly of myself without braces-
here goes :D
haha, i know the sunflower totally outshines me, but nvm la :D
it was derek's birthday sunflower which was so awesome!
taken in the art studio.
much love.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I'm at choir camp and I've got like, 27 mosquito bites! :( It's fun here though, at Aloha Changi chalet. The girls are fun and noisy ( as usual :) ) and I still get to talk to A occasionally. He video called once, haha! He's so retardedly cuteeee :D
He's going off to church camp tomorrow though, to KL Berjaya Times Square, and he'd only be back on Saturday :( I'll miss him. I wanna hold his hand, lie on his shoulder, just look at him with his signature ' I don't know what you're saying but I love you so much ' smile. Coming back from camp tonight, hope I get to see him tomorrow morning. :)
talent night now, cya^^.
BTW, THIS SONG'S STILL STUCK IN MY HEAD! (and his too) :
Just because everything's changing Doesn't mean it's never Been this way before. I'll come back When you call me No need to say goodbye.
P.S. hope I succeeded in trying to sound like you, sam. haha.
Sunday, June 08, 2008
oh i'll be away till wednesday at choir chalet (:
wah, 28 facebook friend requests. where have i been. lol.
because i like this photo (:
i'm doing this thanks to joshua, haha.
Instructions: Replace one question from below and replace it with your own.
1. What's your favourite food? - It normally depends on my mood. I argue that i can live on Caesar Salad with Smoked Salmon though.
2. What is the one thing you would change if you had a chance to go back into the past? Not sure, nothing really (: for now.
3. What's going to happen tomorrow? - Choir chalet :D
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes? - Never hate, i may get irritated, but how can i hate my friends?
5. When do you wish to die? - I wont wish to die, ever.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? - Definitely (: i grew up on fairytales.
7. What impossible things do you would wish to do? - Nothing is impossible (: haha.
8. Do you believe in eternal love? - YES.
9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide? - No way.
10. Where is your favourite holiday destination? - Depends who i'm going with. LA for Shopping :D
11. Describe your other half? - Retardedly cute (:
12. What feelings do you hate most? - Insecurity.
13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? - Naturally.
14. What are you looking forward to in the upcoming weeks? - Studying hard so i can do well for jcts (:
15. The most important thing in your life? - My family and friends.
16. What makes you happy? - Knowing that i'm loved (: and other things like icecream - the ultimate comfort food, in my opinion..
17. Do you find life meaningless? - nuh-uh. I'm an optimist :D
18. Have you ever loved someone? - (: of course.
19. List one thing that you are scared of. - Losing the ones closest to me.
20. What's your greatest wish? - For everyone in the world to be happy.
21. What if one of your loves betray you? - Find out why, then move on.
Tag 7 people, list them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their chatterbox that they have been tagged: 1. Tingyi 2. Sam 3. Rebecca 4. Fon 5. Thomas
and samantha's a big girl now, she's stronger again, and last but not least, she has a camp until wednesday afternoon.
this has been a camp-filled holiday, man.
): and what can i say, i miss group three. and vivienne and bill and all the other 21st councillors. and the group i/cs. and all the random new people i got to be with at camp aspire. the group 4 i/c who i felt was a good i/c. and everyone.
thank you jonas, timothy, lewis, nadiah, valerie, vivienne and eveline (: for letting me use your phones throughout the duration of the camp. thank you guys, for offering ever so often to help me message (: you could tell when i was busy, when i was stressed, when i needed my comfort back (: and you helped me. thank you so so much. i really appreciate everything. -group hug.
camp aspire wass awesome with a capital a. i love srjc :D
things are different now (:
caught narnia again ytd with A (: it was lovely. i cried again at the ending. sighs. i hate goodbyes.
love this song, from the last bit where the four of them had to leave narnia ): i can imagine that awful feeling of having to leave somewhere you really want to be.
It started out as a feeling Which then grew into a hope Which then turned into a quiet thought Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back When you call me No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing Doesn't mean it's never Been this way before
All you can do is try to know Who your friends are As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon And follow the light
You'll come back When it's over No need to say good bye
You'll come back When it's over No need to say good bye..
Now we're back to the beginning It's just a feeling and no one knows yet But just because they can't feel it too Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back When they call you No need to say good bye
You'll come back When they call you No need to say good bye.
sighs. feeling pretty emo. i think it's pretty funny, this feeling. knowing that someone loves you so much. the way i did.
and i know i chose for things to go this way, somehow it doesnt feel like its worked out though.
ah wth. forget all that, i'm happy with the way things are.
i've just experienced camp aspire. it's been a really strong experience. i know i've grown, and i'm proud of myself (: facing all the challenges at camp was no easy feat. and i'm saying that having made it through. (:
then there's him (: :D enough said there (((:
(: then there's all the school work (: (i know i sound like a workaholic but i'm really a workafrolic and i cant wait to get my work done) which as of now, i'm looking forward to :D (in a really yay it's almost jcts after that's invest way :D)
(: gonna head to church soon :D staying happy, always.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Dear blog,
I've been away at Camp Aspire in school and at pulau ubin, but i'm back now, and this is a quick post because i'm going out after this (:
camp aspire was awesome. yes, i strained my voice, pushed myself and did alot of pushing others. screamed alot, supressed frustration and exercised tolerance, got things done, and made it through along with 221 other amazing student leaders.
camp was a great experience. even greater than council training camp. camp aspire was like being out there. it was all about being out there; and doing what was necessary.
all the numerous group i/cs please report to me with attendance. groups 2,3, 4, 6, 9 please report to me at the hut now! everybody listen up, this is important, for those kayaking tmr blah blah blah.
never had to handle so much, orientation was smoother, because everything worked out pretty well, and there werent sudden situations like having to chiong to another campsite one hour before it becomes dark, in the midst of us cooking our raw dinner and we had to unpitch our tents, carry kayaks, everything.
and we did it student leaders. we did it (:
makes me look back and smile and its the whole experience that makes everything worthwhile.
today's the day i truly realise that making it into SR is a blessing in disguise.
going to meet andrew now :D oh and did i mention he was really sweet cos he met me after camp :D and came with my group for dinner :D made me a really happy girl (((:
i've gotta chioooong outta the house now (: after wed, thurs, fri, i guess i can say that chionging is pretty much second nature for me.
