okaaay it's 12am

woke up at 11,






sooooo today!



i really like this song.
only i get sick of it on replay haha.
cos it's repetitive i think (:

okaaaay having trouble planning for sat,

YAY I FINALLY POSTED THE PICTS.

yay i'm home early today- it's 820 (:

okaaay this blog has been devoid of photos,

day 1 of ICIP Conference went pretty well (:

todaaay

some sort of secret sadness.

Heyyy i havent blogged for two days.

It's 1.36am,

i'm try to focus on work now,

work time before post about bake day time ):

heh so it's 940,

reading old posts is funny.

yawn.


had fish soup for lunch.
the weather's turning now,
like it does.
i'm so boreddd.


dont feel like doing all the photoshopping.
keep procrastinating with this.
it's really appalling.
i WILL get down to it tonight i promise.
pfft.


i just want to get it over and done with and then i dont have to worry about this.
ugh, i should have done it ytd.


i havent even taken my driving license yet,
but this car is too cute omg!

You can never have too many cardis or pullovers,
even in singapore :D






and ah these miumiu clutches are too pretty omg.
TOO PRETTY.


i dont usually shop online cos it's inconvenient in terms of payment and because i only got my own acct this year.
normally i window shop at f21 and topshop online,
then if i see smth i really like,
i'll go to the store to check it out.
otherwise i'll just window shop at the store instead,
i mean, it's so different being able to see the real thing,
rather than just a picture of it..


today i gave OSF a visit and awh, this dress looks so awesome! i prefer it worn the loose way,
but the colours are so bright and happy and it's so flowy ! and it's $27!





anyways my mum'd prolly scream if she knew i bought something AGAIN,
since i am almost broke,
cant wait to be restored to financial stability (if i can call it that)
on the 30th lol.


aaand i keep sneezing non stop it's so annoying!
it's making my nose feel all sore.
i think it's cos i slept late and woke up late.
heh.
arm muscles are also aching from the pseudo work out ytd, heh.
haha.


andddd if i didnt just fix my nails ytd,
i so would be at climbasia today,
but oh well :S


looks like i'm working from home againnnn todayyyy.
shall head down to check the mail at 5pm.
(!!!)


till then,
i'll prolly blog again haha.

i think i'm having a headache cos i'm hungry.
anddd my stomach is churning,
so i dont know what's wrong.

soooo it's 10pm now,
went to macs for dinner with the bro,
that's all he ever wants and i always end up giving in.
cant wait for him to get over macs.


nails are still not chipped so i'm happy with that heh.
nothing at all happened today that's really worth blogging about.
apart from realising the fashiontoast's rumi uses the same nail colour heh,
but then so do a whole ton of people.


thennnn yeah.
nothing much going on.
i want OPI's Jade is the New Black !! :D
so that i can do this - (even though its more blueish then greenish haha)




okaaay apart from that,
due to some recent argument my sis had with my dad-
i have this whole thought on arguments between parents and their children.
somehow parents always have the higher ground.
and it's so funny how kids always try to win these arguments again and again.
and i wonder how it will be with my own kids next time.


and whether we'll be on the same page and draw the same line between right and wrong and what's the moral thing to do.
it's so scary,
and i hate it when arguments end up in tears.
i just hate the sound of it.
and even if it's not my argument,
from the sidelines it's so hard to try to solve it,
i dont know how much more pressure there would be if i were one of those involved in the argument.



yeah.
it's all easier said than done.
and all this war is depressing.

soooo today
(have to start on the persona templates, still havent :/)
painted top coat on my nails just, heh.
i'm determined to make them last till college day lol.


oookay i dont feel like blogging i feel like bathing.
i shall go bathe and feel more fresssh
(woke at 11 heh)


then see what i feel like doing.
haha,
if only i could continue every day of my life deciding what i felt like doing,
and doing just that.
one day that'll happen hopefully,
when i'm happy and married.


(edit)
gotta get dinner tonight.
so annoying.
sometimes i'm really like a second mum.
no wonder st anne is my patron saint - patron saint of mothers, hurr hurr.


i feel like eating smth unhealthy and feeling satisfied with something salty.
(i'll regret this later)

best quote of the night/morning-

"Go sleep soon! Just cos he went to China, doesnt mean he likes pandas."


even when i dont get to see you or talk to you on the phone every day
even when you dont text me cos you're tired/busy
even when you fall asleep halfway


favourite tee of the moment !!!



littlest petshop platypus, cuteeee.



yay for taupe nail colour and diy manicures !
(and the pretty puma laces !)




i dont mean to post soooo many photos of myself,
but i wanna show you what i mean,
when i say that being in council, and around the 21st
has been one of the things about JC life,
that has made me so happy.
you see, all these smiles, they're so real. and so wide.
not like a fake and forced.


i just realised this,
and it makes me miss council ALL OVER AGAIN.











nothing really much to blog about today,
pretty tired mentally from all the rehearsals,
26 in a day,
kinda think that i should've spaced it out moreeee.
yeaaah.
had this the wholeee day from 10-6.
including two whole hours of peak period travelling
one hour in the morning and one more hour in the evening.


i cant imagine having to brave the working pop every friggin evening.
(happy i live and work in bishan now)
it gets so crammy in the train,
and some guys are so damn stinky.
their sweat is damn pungent seriously.
i was fighting for fresh air like some fish in a tank with no oxygen filter pfft.


apart from that,
yeah like i said, nothing much.
finishing up aaall the 26 persona templates tmr yayyyy (finally)
need to be disciplined abt this !
thennn send them for printing by wed.
i think my EYES are going to die by tmr.
all the magic wand-ing and magnetic lasso-ing of stuff on photoshop
is killing my eyes pfft.


laptop and camera were killing my right shoulder !
but i still insisted on getting KOI since the queue was amazingly short today,
i waited like less than 5 mins ^^
and made it in time for the bus too.
haha.
i must say, its reallyyy damn sweet, even with like 70% sugar !!
should ask for less next timeee.


dinner was goodddd.
i love that stringy mushroom,
i dont know what it's called haha,
but its my favourite favourite favourite.


nails are and awesome shade of taupe !
(:
its dull and dark and shitty and i like it :)
for some reason i feel quite high now
(i suspect its the sugar from the KOI)


okaaay nothing much else to blog about soooo i think i'll sleep early.
(the rest of the family is asleep and its 11:15 lol)
orrr maybeeee i'll upload photos from today.
(nuhhhh lazzyyyyy, tmr lol.)


the yay awsm cotton on tee which the boyf likes too !
(i'm not a coupleshirt person though lollll.)

the niceeee puma shoes !!
looks nicer in real life :) haha.

soooo today,
started out pretty rough,
but as usual things ironed out and now it's all awesomeeee yay.
(never happier)


met amanda to get his bday present (:
(yay finally getting down to a dedicated day for this)
met at PS and we got our OPI nail colour ! (:
i got You dont know Jacques (YAYYYY TAUPE.)
and she got the Blue glitter one from the alice range,
and the OPI suede in pinkkk
:D just remembered about this so i'm gonna paint my nails yayyy.


theeen.
i remembered the Cotton On tee i saw in the display at j8
(so i guess window displays do work lol)
so i went to check it out at PS (:
haha its a guys tee btw.
but it's so awesomeeee.
so i got it for myself.
HAHA XS.
(:


guys tees at cotton on are awesomely comfortable !!
(and after a whole day of looking at guy's stuff,
i really think guys have so many choices for fashion nowadays- more on this later)


so after Cotton on at PS,
we walked to 313 (:
and we checked out Billabong (:
spotted the first potential bday pres.
(we skipped f21, didnt wanna end up leaving with anything, lol)


then after Billabong and Uniqlo, AND PUMA,
where i ended up seeing this awesome print-
from their collection range - collaboration with Kehinde Wilde for this PUMA Africa range and it's really awesome !
the shoes and laces at least (:
(check it out here (: http://africa.puma.com/#/artist/?source=marketing_pumacom_INT_en_kehindeafrica_homepage_mainpanel)
and it's like 69 ! (:
gotta think whether i'll wear it to uni and stuff before getting it (:
yup.
i got the shoelace in the heron print though.
COULD.NOT.RESIST.
(too pretty haha)


then we walked to taka and ion (:
checked out topshop at Ion first
the guy's stuff is seriously so wearable !!
(:
found so many awesome stuff,
it was so hard to choose !! (:
so there ended up being more contenders for the best bday pres for the boyf.
lol.


the tees there are too nice,
and the polo tees too !
sooo cute.
not forgetting the blazers.
and some of the designer tees !
(:
there were also awesome this cut off berms from this season.
TOO CUTE.
total awesomeness seriously!! the colours they had were awesome,
and the designs too !!
haha, i dont mind being a guy for a day seriously,
some of the fashion options are too nice.


haha, then we went to Pull and Bear,
only to discover more awesome guys tees and styles
and cardigans.
and SHOES.
omg.
found the number one contender for the bday pres.
lol.
pondered over it while checking out springfield and new look and getting yami (:
anddd after checking with the boyf - to be sure
(and i tried to be discreet !)
ended up getting it yayyy.


:D
went back to topman to check out some the guys stuff again,
sooo cute la.
and we popped by river island too.


saw some pretty awesome dresses! and judging from there and accessorize,
like the "ethnic" style seems to be in.
loadsa ethnic-tribal ish prints that look so IVY(from 90210)-ish (:


Accessorize was the last stop ! (:
couldnt find any brooches there,
and i'm officially on a saving spree now (:
so yeah (:
left the place feeling happy.
four buys for the day!
-OPI You Dont Know Jacques
-Cotton On Tee :D
-THE bday pres :D
aaand
-the shoelaceeeee.


okaaay shall post the pictures of awesome stuff in another post,
where I'll type less so my nails can dry better.
HAHA.


:D
reblog again later prolly.

today was awesome. (just didnt feel like blogging about it earlier..)


mummy's bday so we went for lunch at Jack's place at bras basah (:
we always go there... lol.
had a ribeye steak for once,
it was pretty good,
considering that i'm normally not a steak person at all (:
daddy had the lobster which was awesome too.


then we went to 313 to change the size of the top i got mummy for her bday (:
theeeen walked around f21,
didnt get anything, it was too crowded i suspect.
lol.
wanted to get a tote for my laptop, but decided not to cos i wasnt sure if it would fit and mummy said it wouldnt :S


home at around 6 and i slept for like an hour i think?
then dinner, we had roast chicken wraps and saladddd.
i wasnt even hungry anyways lol.


evening isnt going too awesome,
so many things to tell you but you're..sleeping?
:S


tmrrrr church then prolly heading to town to get smth with amanda.
i have this shitty mood feeling.
i think i'm going to end up splurging on that OPI nail colour i've been eyeing.
its the loveliest shade of taupe- which is grey mixed with brown (:
its awesome dull and i think its nicer than nude which is too girly-ish for my fingernails i feel.
so yeah (:
i hope they still have it lol.


for nowwww, i think i'm just going to zzz and hope everything will work out as usual.


i'm not the easiest person to love.

i think when i miss you i get grumpy.
and sad.


alexa obsession on blogger.

todaaay was good.
rehearsals were pretty good (:


so fast it's friday night and it's so damn boring.
fb is taking AGES to load on my laptop,
no idea why :S


not having plans for friday night is so ):
haha.
friends are overseassss. (come back soon)
and others are sick.
or studying :S


):


i also realised that i shouldnt shop alone so much
haha i come up with all sorts of lame reasons to get things for myself.
which is bad !
haha, though i need to go get the boyf's bday present (:
soooo yeah.
looks like shopping is inevitable ;)


work is piling up for me.
(it's procrastination all over again)
still left with sooo many of the persona templates, freak.
i think i need to camp at starbucks tmr?
(but it's my mum's birthday :/)
thennn there's the supposed archi test in the morning,
which i am having second thoughts over.
i mean, my heart isnt there.


speaking of heart related stuff.
sighhh.
there's this total i miss you quite terribly feeling going on,
and its prolly instilled by hellogoodbye's Here (in your arms)
but in any case, to think that by now i'd have been used to not seeing him for days. or weeks.
i would think that by now,
i would be feeling all okay despite not seeing him for days because -- cue Baby it's fact - also by hellogoodbye.
but oh well.
it's still all awesome and sweet and everything so its not depressing (:


although i still wonder whether absence makes the heart grow fonder.
maybe that explains it.

i also think its a strange phenomenon that i keep joining these semi lovey semi sweet fan groups on fb.

see what i mean :S

pretty happy to wake up today
check my email
and find that i'm shortlisted for ntu comm studies.


now just gotta hear from fass, pleaseeee.



work today's at 3 at SP,
last round of first rehearsals (:
then after work it should be home sweet home.
to work from homeee.
(need the internet, you see)


thinking what to wearrr.
i wanna wear the grey fleece-ish pullover butttt its kinda hot today :S
so idk :S
cant wait to wear it !
i think its smth awesomely huggable to be in.
haha.


and i heard one of the weirdest dreams ever last night, lol.
shant go into detail about this. haha.


just showered so i'm feeling fresssh,
not sticky (yet)
i would be so happy if the weather in singapore was just ten degrees cooler !!
or maybe even 8 degrees cooler.
then i can totally bring out the pullovers and cardigans more pfft.
but okay this is never happening
(even with global warming lol)


unless the sun totally moves out of place or smth.
then rays wont be hitting the equator at almost 90 degrees,
but yeah haha.
not happening, i suspect.


sooooo now,
supposed to be getting lunch.
(but what's there to eat :S)
and then heading to SP
LOOONG MRT RIDE :O
better bring a magazine or headphones or smth. zzz.

i think when i'm upset,
or feeling empty,
i sort of subconsciously resort to shopping.
whether i get smth for myself,
or for other ppl,
or nothing at all.


what would i do without retail therapy?
what would girls do without retail therapy?

funny how when it was j2,
all i wanted to do was fastforward time.
now, all i want to do is rewind.

people say you're a phase. but i'm telling you.
i know you're not.
and what keeps me in this,
despite how seriously (SERIOUSLY) hard this is,
is you and the way you ♥ me.

i'm falling sick, again.


i think it has something to do with waking up early,
sleeping late and
not eating properly.
heh.


interview at smu went pretty good i thought.
it was on euthanasia,
so didnt really need to dig deep to find an answer.
could have argued better but i guess at least i could speak coherently.
i only recall using the word "like" more than three times.
and also the word "stuff"
just figured it sounds pretty slang.
lol.
the profs i had were pretty alright so i guess it's good.
hopefully?
hoping that i didnt come across as ditzy.
i have a tendency of doing that.
not too sure why :S


spent time at 313 while waiting for the bro for titans.
f21 is a major weakness for me now,
i gotta stay away from there store.
I ALWAYS END UP LEAVING THERE WITH SOMETHING.
got a grey fleece long sleeved sweater,
with circle studs on the shoulder.
it's oversized, i got L (:
and its fleece lined i think?
once i tried it on, it was so supersuper comfy,
i couldnt resist getting it heh (:
cant wait to wear this out !!!
(cant find a photo of it on the f21 webbie)



anddd an orange diamond printed inside out tee :D
considering i normally really dislike orange,
i decided to get it for a change,
since nice orange tshirts are sooo hard to come by.
LOL.
(and when i checked the f21 website, turns out it comes in grey too !!!
would have suited me more, but i guess some orange would do some good to my wardrobe haha.)


(:
titans wasnt so bad luh.
those who said it was really bad must have pretty high standards?
i thought some of the scenes and ideas were shot very well
film wise,
like how hades was conceptualised, i liked that.
and olympus.
i didnt like the Gods armour very much though.
since they're all powerful, found it very extra.
and too glaring and shiny.
how the three witches were conceptualised was good too,
and i liked that perseus didnt end up with andromeda although thats what Homer writes.
(:


managed to get mummy her birthday present,
which she really liked (YAY)
now just need to get for the boyf.
which is tough.


things in brackets are thoughts.
(school is stealing the boyf pfft. and it sucks but i cant do anything about it. sad.)
(sometimes you hurt me and you dont even know. so i pretend its not cos of you, but really, it is.)

okay i think i need to drink more water now.
aaand going to see a doctor bout the ulcer tmr,
cos i think its quite infected ):

so today,
woke up lateeee (and i mean, late)
haha like around noon :S
then quickly got online etc.


(: caught this week's 90210 (YAY)
stupid liam.
he should be with ivy.
though i'm happy that naomi said that she lied before it got even further (:


so what else am i up to today apart from workkk? (which is photoshopping for now)
wellll.
prepping for tmr's interview i guess.
i havent been reading the news,
since we stopped subscribing to the straits times :S
read the ST online ytd,
there's so much stuff though,
i cant possible absorb everything.
and then they could end up asking something personal?
so i guess i just gotta think through answers tonight...
its going to be conversational, i heard, so hopefully it all goes well
(since i can talk lol)
yeahhhh.
okay enough bout this.... (havent been for an interview in TWO YEARS)


today's the first month.
but it doesnt feel like any milestone or anything, now that its here.
weird feeling but yeah :(
not too sure why.
maybe its still the after effects of monday's disappointment.
but yeah.
hopefully it'll get better by later.
not even sure of what i feel like eating if i even do.


gurgled with listerine last night -got me tearing man.
but it honestly feels better today, like its healing yay.
listerine (and the tears) again this morning, but i can sense it's healing so all's good (:


been on fb more recently,
and twitter as usual..
and i think its really funny and weird
(in an i-dont-understand kind of weird, not quirky weird)
how some people (in their profiles)
choose to define themselves by educational qualifications.


i mean, i've always thought that educational qualifications are important,
because to a significant degree,
they do determine what you can do in the future in terms of career options (traditionally, and normally speaking for the majority)
but using educational qualifications to define a person?
i really think its about character and the person's relationships with others.
and even the person's view on things generally.


i dont think its a fair thing to judge people by their educational qualifications.
you may have no education qualifications,
but that doesnt mean that you dont have the biggest heart.
and although character and educational qualifications do overlap-
like someone who does really well would likely be disciplined etc,
its still unfair judgement.


and to take this even further,
i think singapore's education system mostly makes it such that you are what your educational qualifications are.
but hey, thats all meritocracy i guess.

my throat's feeling kinda wonky now,
gonna drink more water,
smu interview on thurs morninggg.
(excited+anxious)


rehearsals today at sp went well again (:
cant wait for final rehearsals on monday !!! (:
from then till now, there's the 26 persona templates to fill (hoho)


halfway through rehearsals i got the call so yay.
was trying hard not to smile,
cos of the horrible ulcer that is KILLING me.
i totally cant smile on the right side
or laugh or sneeze without it hurting :/
please go away soon.
i guess its slightly infected cos my cheek's swollen.
as long as there's no fever it should be fine though (:
so yeahhhh (:


cant wait for tmrrrr (:
and i hope thurs goes fine too!!!
so relieved about getting the call.
now i just need to get the mail.
yes, i check the mailbox everyday now.
letters from srjc make my heart skip a beat for all of one second.


this week's going to fly byyy.

i dont know what i'm doing wrong,
but it feels like i'm not doing it right.


some random thoughts revolving around some issues.
in no order, just random phrases.
(dont try to piece them together,
it wont work)


nobody said it was easy.
it's so upsetting.
dont stress.
just sit back.
cos i want this to last.

todayyyy.


rehearsals at SP went pretty awesome,
i think i stressed out last night over it.
typical me being a worry bug so yeahhh.


met aunty mich and nana for dinner at Aerin's at Raffles City,
had an awesome dinner (considering i survived on a bottle of water and a pao for lunch)
(:


having gastric (hurr) and there's the horrible ulcer i got on my gum AND inner lip
cos i accidentally scratched myself while wearing my retainer
my cheek like near my mouth and nose is swollen.
i smile lopsided now.
and laughing hurts like shit.
so yeah :S
(PLEASE HEAL SOON OMG)


more rehearsals to come tmr,
looking forward to finishing these up.
then workwise, there's all the persona templates to clear by friday (nightmare)
should be pretty manageable? I hope.
I need starbucks for this. lol.


still need to get my mum's and the boyf's birthday present by this weekend.
think i'll try to do this tmr?
i dont really like shopping during the weekends much
cos its just so crowded?
(although i must admit, i prefer trying clothes out of the fitting room and in front of just a mirror over what i'm wearing, its SO MUCH EASIER)


okaaay feeling pretty shagged,
missing the boyyyf.
ought to sleep soon.
nights yo.

spending time with you,
is like seeing a rainbow after the rain.
we only get to meet up for considerable lengths of time after exams.


i think i'm really beginning to get used to this, and you.
i'm not sure if being immune to certain things that i make me sad is a good thing.
but for now, i think it works.


and lol,
i just saw lightning,
its going to rain.

i think this is like the third time i'm blogging today?


still waiting for 10 out of 26 students to send me stuff.
feeling better after texting them abt being punctual for tmr (:
cos a number of them replied.
quite excited about meeting them tmr!
though i'm so unsure abt how rehearsals will turn out....
lol better not expect anything then (haha)


i wonder how they will feel,
(i think i'm tired- i typed at first, i wonder how they will feeling)
meeting me tmr,
and finding out that i'm like a young girl.
HAHA.
that should be interesting.


i think i sound older over email.
hahaha.
(cheap thrill)

currently listening to the script and thinking about things.
(like how much of what we say to console people do we actually mean?)


ANNNND
I'm feeling less bored (somehow)
considering all that i've done since the previous post is remove the OPI suede grey from my nails and trim them.
i need some jade or rose quartz on my nails
(unfortunately they dont have that in the chanel nail colour anywhere here
aaand opi doesnt have anything similar that i can finddd)
so yeah.


among other things which i was too sian to mention earlier,
i wore the pastel cyan-turquoise batwing-ish top from f21 todayyyy :D
it makes me feel happy cos the colour is so happy.


it's an awesome mix of the perfect shade of sea blue in acrylic..
then adding a soft creme colour to it.
i can picture myself mixing the colour in acrylic.
and so its a really lovely colourrrr (:
its a nice change from the usual darkblue-black-grey that i wear haha.
and its about time that there's colour in more things than my accessories. lol.



here's the top i got :D its speckled and acc to f21 the colour is MINT. (:


(:
there was this other striped textured top that i wanted to get,
and i was so sure abt getting it !
but i decided to give it a try
and the sleeves were the poofy type
(which super doesnt suit me.)
so yeah didnt get it in the end
(and i cant seem to find it on the website)


haha yeaaaah.
i could live in that f21 outlet man.
its so hard to go in there and not find something that you really want to get.
mhmm.
(:
it was also filled with couples,
which is kinda annoying? cos there's nothing for guys there?
haha but i guess, one day when i perpetuate this, i wont be complaining...
lol.


among other thoughts,
i've been thinking about the past.
some things you get over,
but somehow, part of you never really lets go?
like you still bother how they're doing.
and you still check their blogs lol.
its also funny how i read and i'll be thinking,
no wonder its over.
but yeah.
haha.

MELTING.


Been finding ways and means to occupy myself,
be it getting onto a new sport, retail therapy or small things like painting my nails
and even work.


:/
work's been pretty stressy lately,
chasing ppl for replies before monday isnt as easy as it seems :/
its annoying when they take sooo long to reply but yeah,
no choice.
its so ... when ppl dont reply emails, sigh.
anyways, moving on.


the weather today is pretty awesome,
i like it like this.
all i need is to be at the beach/botanic gardens or some park.
and with you? or someone fun that i can just kill time with, doing nothing.
it's been so awfully hard to find someone who can just hang out with like fifteen mins prior notice haha.
yeah, most ppl need like a few days notice or smth.
i think this is a sign that i'm too free?
i need to get busier but yeah at the same time i like the slacking :/
dilemma.


some days i just want to leave all of this behind.
and just do whatever i want
but i guess
that isnt somethin sustainable,
in fact, its pretty crazy, so it's like, never going to happen.
yeah ):


nothing much keeps me going now.
it's so trying.
i wish i found more purpose in what i was doing.
i hate the idea of just doing something,
for the sake of it,
or for money.
it doesent keep me going.
it.
really.
doesnt.


and yeah.
right now,
i'm just melting in my own pool of boredom.
(every day)
just living for the sake of living.
and i honestly feel like i have no purpose,
apart from loving those i love and caring about those i care about.
its like i'm just, existing.


okay the weather is turning gloomy,
dont need such a gloomy mood hereee.

love this song,
as much as i like maroon fiveee.


okaaay.
the weather is turning :/
i think i shalllllll do somehthing random like make a card or paint my nails.
will prolly blog again later tonight (:

(COS I'M BORED)
How bad/good am I?


1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the opposite sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
TOTAL: 3

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else’s prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL so far: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
TOTAL so far: 12

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL so far: 12

1. dressed “gothic”.
2. dressed “girly”.
3. dressed “punk”.
4. dressed “grunge”.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
TOTAL so far: 14

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex’s house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else’s toothbrush.
TOTAL so far: 15

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. gone to the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL so far: 20

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police’s presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
TOTAL so far: 21

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drank and driven.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL so far: 26

Grand Total: 26

If you have less than 10, write “I’m a goody-goody”
If you have more than 10, write “I’m still a goody goody”
If you have more than 20, write “I’m average”
If you have more than 30, write “I’m a bad kid”
If you have more than 40, write “I’m a very bad influence”
If you have more than 50, write “I’m a horrible person”
If you have more than 60, write “I should be in jail”
If you have more than 70, write “I should be dead”


HOHO I'M AVERAGE :D




cousins came overrrr this afternoon :D
that adorableee baby girl is daniela (:


(:
felt shitty in early afternoon when i got up,
slacked around..
had a good bathe then decided to make a trip to 313.
i checked the time and it so happened to be 3.13 (really!)
so i decided to head there HAHA.


(:
there was this stripey top that i likeddd.
but when i tried it on it didnt suit me.
got this other blue-green batwingish top :D
the one i mentioned in some other recent post (:
and a black spag top, thats long enough to be a dress lining.
was really happy with that cos they both fit pretty awesomely, yay.
then after one and a half hours of pure, uninterrupted retail therapy,
i headed back homeee.


and yay the cousins came over (:
took pictures with dani loveee.
she's sooo cute
my heartmelts every time she smiles!
(: yeah.


among other things,
i think sometimes i miss you too much,
and i dont know if this is good or bad :/

i hate how unhappiness and self doubt and so many other issues hit me when you're asleep.

sometimes i think it's so silly but i hate how things get to me.
i hate it when there are deadlines to stick to, and i have to end up rushing to stick to them,
cos i didnt foresee this earlier.
it makes me feel all kinds of inadequate. ):


i also cant take it that people all around are getting their letters from the unis.
but not me ):


i also cant take it that i want to talk to you about all the ): i'm feeling,
but you're not there.

Day 01 - Your favorite song
AH i have so many favourite songs, but i think has got to be my favourite for the longest time (:
About you now by the sugababes.


Since i feel kinda bored now
(dont feel like photoshopping so much now and the rain is keeping me in cos i hateeee carrying an umbrella out and i hate the wet weather pfft)
I'm gonna try to complete the 30 day song challenge.
So every day starting today,
i'll be posting a song based on this-


Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

yay managed to roll out the first persona template, awesome.
:D


okaaay now i'm like sneezing non stop.
must be the weather and dust or smth.
its annoying.


think i'll go take a shower then head to 313?
or something.
lol.

thirddd day in a row not going to the office,
it's so boring at home.
but i guess in ways it better cos i can save on travelling costs,
and i have the internet at home,
which i need for sending emails.


only con of being home is that there's some damn noisy renovation works going on below.
i live so high up and i can hear the works which are going on at the carpark?
pfft, lucky i'm not living on the second storey.


anyways today's my bro's birthday,
glad that he likes the present we got him
(he'd better)
going out for dinner tonight,
and after feeling all the bloatedness,
i have resorted to honey bunches of oat cereal with the strawberries
with milk and fresh strawberries for lunch and breakfast.
(combined haha)
its pretty yummy,
lets see how many days i last. HAHA.


[yay the noisy works stopped]
[okaaay spoke too soon]


so yeah, its all yawns at home,
itching to get out of the house,
but that also means spending $$
:/
aaand i dont want to end up overspending this month.
though i am itching to make a trip to 313's f21 to check out that light blue batwing top that i've been thinking aboutttt.
i really like that cutting,
shoulda tried it on that day!!
the material's kinda thickkkk though, so yeah idk.
(then again i get cold real easily..)


okaaay.
maybe i'll head to 313 around 3.
nowwww i have some work to roll out.
photoshopping :D
yay.


shopping and photoshopping.
nice.


somedays i feel so fat and ugly.
today's kinda one of those days.
when i feel so insecure abt myself.
i know i always snap out of it,
but it doesnt mean i wont feel this way again.

so i made a trip to snip avenue at toa payoh,
recommendation courtesy of limwoan (:


finally decided to give hair colour a shot,
chose a mix between 4 and 5, with 5 being lighter.
haha, hair colour ended up really quite dark.
hopefully it gets lighter after a few washes more.
it's pretty brown under the sun though (:


overall, i'd say its pretty okay for a first time hair dye,
the colour isnt too shocking so i'm taking it quite okay lol.
its not drastic, so you cant really tell the difference much,
but it is a lot browner than usual,
so yeah (:
it would have been better if it was slightly lighter? now i cant really tell the difference much under normal lighting.
haha well, next time i'll be more daring to dye it lighter (:
i also really like the smell of the hairdye (heh)
anddd the texture of my hair ! lol.


i'll let the photos do the talking,
i took them under spotlight so you can see the colour better,
otherwise with normal lighting, it looks pretty much the same cos of the flash.
(:









being uncertain.


i think i slept too much during the day cos i wasnt feeling well :/
now my eyes feel sore (from sleeping???!)
and i dont feel like sleeping.


with that said,
(i wish you were here.)
work is crazy now.
deadlines are horrible, horrible, horrible things.
but if there werent deadlines,
procrastination would be dominating some aspects of my life,
i suspect.


i'm just ranting non stop now,
cos i'm feeling a little moodswingy and i think the boyf's asleep.
i hate myself too much
when i dont think ahead and end up runnning or backing myself into a wall.
it's a terrible feeling,
knowing that you're too late,
and i dislike it so much,
when i have to tell myself-
"why didnt i think about this EARLIER."
it's also such a horrible feeling,
regret.


if i could erase all the regret in my life,
i'm sure i would have so, so much less baggage.
but i cant.
so its just left there, buried somewhere.
ready and i guess, waiting? to resurface some day.


despite all these negative thoughts,
the thought of you is the only thought that counters all the negativity.
which is probably the logical reason why i think of you so often.
(though at times it is a source of doubt and worry)
and at the same time, i cant think enough of you.
i feel so, attached in so many ways,
and yet so disconnected in others.
it's really weird sometimes.


and sometimes.
i just feel so lost in life.
like with no direction.
i feel like i'm just, drifting.
it makes me cry really,
not knowing where i am.
and its so stupid to cry over such things i know,
but i still do.
its just happens for some reason.

we dont get to meet very often,
but what matters is that every time we do,
it's worthwhile,
and i'm never happier (:


TO DYE OR NOT TO DYE.

New hair colour ? To dye or not to dye? Dyeee (: Don\'t dye please. view results

going to sleep early tonight,
by early i mean twelve.
usually its two
(no wonder i'm a panda)


feeling fatttt.
when i'm really just eating what's necessary?
hate the bloated feeling :S
(must be the buffet last week)


conclusion, i need a pair of running shoes asap.
cant wait for tmr,
think i dont need to head to the office so that's good,
then evening should be great.
okaaaay i need to zzz.

:/ havent received anything from any uni and people around me all seem to be receiving stuff.
not sure if i should be freaking out or just waiting patiently.
its only early in the second week of april so i think i should just chill?
okay i shouldnt worry cos of what others have posted hurrr.
i know i shouldnt feel like this and be happy for them,
but really.
you wont be that happy till you know what's ahead for you.

FISHY.
photos taken at qian hu today, they're all of fish- qian hu is a fish farm....
(: (not going to add captions heh)

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