i think i forget, too often and too easily, what it means to be disappointed.
anyways didnt do much today, while it may seem like today was a flow of unfortunate events (the epitome of it, really) the watercolour painting of alice and the cheshire cat, the milk tea with vanilla icecream, the facial stuff on sale and the short trip to the library salvaged it from total suckdom (this word is made up)
that's really about it. pretty much everything else bout today sucked, so i guess tmr will be better in contrast, doubt it could get worst.
I CANT WAIT :D
Sunday, November 29, 2009
tonight
cant wait for prom :D not the prom king and queen thing though. pfft. ANYWAYS.
cant wait to drop by the nlb tmr and artfriend and all (: and dinner.
aaand i need heels for prom. and a clutch. pfft. not to mention accessories. and suddenly i dont feel like shopping. shrugs.
kay i have nothing much to post tonight, cept that i am looking forward to tmr, and yeah i need to do some christmas shopping. though, first things first, i need the $$$.
i've always liked and i will always like this scene from grey's.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
yo.
so today i accompanied hafiz at starbucks, and lol, after awhile, we headed to marina square (:
looked around for prom accessories, and i reallyyy reallyyy think the seashell clutch from topshop super suits my dress! cos the dress is like mermaid-scales-ish. pfft, its like $56 though. here's when i need a fairy godmother (or fairy godfather even)
had a hard time deciding what accessories would go, i'm thinking just earrings, since the dress is all scale/petal-y so any necklace or bracelet with details would clash. i think i just want smth simple. like just a dark blue or dark purple gem earring. BUT. i'm letting my hair down and straight, so it wouldnt be noticeable :S so yeah shrugs. pretty much clueless now, the lack of funding makes the decision more important. lol.
okaaay so (: apart for all that prom talk, i am looking forward to next week (:
hope to do some christmas shopping (: drawing up my lists now, and looking forward to making christmas cards (: gotta head to bras basah, daiso and the nlb in town sometime next week (: cant wait.
oh and i need to improve my sticker collection (:
preview.
(:
shopping ytd and today was awesome. got a new batwing-ish dress from far east, and i'm really loving it, though its too short in the front so i kinda need shorts or leggings with it. (: managed to catch mulan and part of g.i. joe with awesome company :D
so yeah, basically the past two days have been great. the whole prospect of hanging out, being at starbucks and not studying, shopping -even stepping into Orchard seems so surreal and yeah i guess the feelings overrated, but honestly i am just really damn glad the As are over.
tonight was one of my granduncle's birthday dinner at some restaurant at the flyer. the food was pretty awesome, 3 hours of eating, with 15 courses. needless to say, i need the gym lol.
(: it was nice seeing the cousins, they are too adorable :D
i'm kinda tired now though, havent had much sleep with all the going out, ironically. going to sleep in tmr :D
aaand i also picked up my prom dress today :D its looking pretty good, its not the glam kinda prom dress though.
its got mermaid like scales or petal like stuff lol. and its brown-grey haha.
i really like it though, cant find a pic of it online though its a sonia rykielll.
anyways my idiot sister is chasing me to go sleep so pfft, i gtg (:
have a good weekend :D
Thursday, November 26, 2009
:D
the a levels are finally over for me and i am just so happy that they are.
now its just shopping, catching up, watching movies, going out, chilling, painting, cycling, diy-ing and everything non study related.
I AM SO HAPPY OMG. nothing can make this happy feeling go away for quite awhile :D :D will blog when i have interesting stuff, for now i am just thrilled at the realisation that As are over.
GOODBYE EYEBAGS. HELLO SHOPPING BAGS :D
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
sigh.
i think the way these paragraphs are phrased makes me look at colours in kandinsky's works with a whole new sense of awe.
taken from wikipedia.
The first obvious properties we can see when we look at isolated color and let it act alone; it is on one side the warmth or the coldness of the colored tone, and on the other side the clarity or the obscurity of the tone.
The warmth is a tendency to yellow, and the coldness is a tendency to blue. The yellow and the blue form the first big contrast, which is dynamic. The yellow possesses an eccentric movement and the blue a concentric movement; a yellow surface seems to get closer to us, while a blue surface seems to move away. The yellow is the typically terrestrial color whose violence can be painful and aggressive. The blue is the typically celestial color which evokes a deep calm. The mixing of blue with yellow gives the total immobility and the calm, the green.
Clarity is a tendency to the white and obscurity is a tendency to the black. The white and the black form the second big contrast, which is static. The white acts like a deep and absolute silence full of possibilities. The black is a nothingness without possibility, which is an eternal silence without hope, and corresponds to death. That’s why any other color resonates so strongly on its neighbors. The mixing of white with black leads to gray, which possesses no active force and whose affective tonality is near that of green. The gray corresponds to immobility without hope; it tends to despair when it becomes dark and regains little hope when it lightens.
The red is a warmth color, very living, lively and agitated, it possesses an immense force, it is a movement in oneself. Mixed with black, it leads to brown which is a hard color. Mixed with yellow, it gains in warmth and gives the orange which possesses an irradiating movement on the surroundings. When red is mixed with blue, it moves away from man to give the purple, which is cooled red. The red and the green form the third big contrast, while the orange and the purple form the fourth one.
realisations & disappointments.
so i r that i have a whole lot of awesomestuff to look forward to. period.
i shall list these out chronologically :D
ending As on wed (tmr) far east and orchard on thurs movie and dinner on thurs :D diy shopping on fri prom dress and shoes on fri dinner at the flyer on friday j's thing on sat night
and thats just this week :D exciting.
i am also looking forward to a whole lot of water colour painting :D i wanna go to the botanic gardens. the beach (!!!) and so much more.
i am just so looking forward to picking up the brush again. :D
anddd of course, there's so much left to settle, though i have pretty much cleared my mind about it (: feels settled in me already, its just, between the two of us.
and when that's done, everything will be settled. and there will be so much to look forward to.
apart from all the hype from ending As, i have also found a new source of happiness. hope its sustainable. and i just like the way things are going now. really. (:
aaand okaaaaaay its my last chance to mug for SOVA (: best make the best outta it.
so i'm studying at ttsh now (:
and tmr's my last paper :D art. cant wait (:
then its total freedom, though i'm not looking forward to the post A's feelings of uncertainty towards grades. i always tell myself that what's done is done so hopefull i will be convinced lol.
ytd's picnic at the barrage was some kind of awesome. (: the company made it worthwhile as always.
(: its a really nice quiet place to chill, though i regretted not bringing a bigbig mat so that we could watch the stars (: (amidst the negative externalities we could see over the cbd)
so we gotta make a date to go back there, preferably when its not the monsoon season cos the grass was practically waterlogged (reached the infiltration capacity)
sam, tingyi and i were spamming human geog atmo concepts wrt urban heat islands etc. lolllllll. sorry for the turn off sarah! haha.
took lots and lots of photos :D including some unglam ones lollllll.
it was a holistically awesome night. and i am so waiting for As to end tmr, 90210 is waiting for me, amidst other forms of awesomeness.
exciteddddd ! :D
oookay back to studying !!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
PHOTO POST
i wanna try tying my hair like this, but somehow i cant figure whether it'll work with my layered hair. Then i'm thinking whether i should get rid of the layers. and then i'm thinking whether and how i should get rid of all the frizzzz ends.
i like this too, which is so not going to work with the layers.
plaits and layered hair cant go tgh. lol.
Okaaay so the prom dress i am pretty much set on is smth like this cept that the layers are less uniform and the material is more flowy like satin but not opaque more sheer, smth like opaqueish but organza (if you speak material language lol) then the petals are curved, not square, so its really more like in the skirt below. cept the material isnt shiny, its matt.
haha so i guess its the material that makes it more formal and less casual.
aaand the colour is likeeee brown with some grey. so its not like chocolate brown, but more dull.
so yeah (: i am pretty excited to wear it, though i dont want to end up looking like a fishhh. and its pretty hard to look really glam in such a dress, cos its pretty dull-y not the usual shiny prom queen material kind of glam
so i guess the reason why i like the dress is cos it makes me feel comfortable. (:
ah okay i cant wait for prom :D
Saturday, November 21, 2009
the song for the night is Bitter Heart by Zee Avi. This song always makes me think of derek and meredith from greys, for some reason (: and i really like it. and somehow the name Zee Avi sounds kinda pop-lady-gaga ish (i think), but she's so corrinne bailey rae-norah jones ish, i like the way she sounds, esp in this song.
listen (:
okaaaay so i just caught up on 90210, ate two packs of Roller Coaster potato rings (didnt have lunch)
aaand i am just waiting around the house.
after tabitha's confirmation tmr its just two days more of mugging at starbucks. and yea its just art left, but i really want an A this time around. aaand. i just figured that two days isnt alot to do the whole syllabus. AH GREATTT. i better better better get started. (and i have no idea which artists to focus on, anyone knowsa??)
you know i always want smth to look forward to, keeps me going.
now i'm looking forward to bex's party on monday. really hope the rainfall intensity tmr is damn high, so then on monday all we'll have is cirrus clouds and cloudless skies.
Friday, November 20, 2009
i think its getting harder to think of what makes me happy.
somehow, in light of recent events, i have realised that the new media has really resulted in the erosion of the value of verbal communication. and it has given rise to facades in the guise of self expression. and ultimately, it allows people people hide and not confront issues, which, without the new media in the first place, wouldnt have reached such a level of complication.
hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
It really feels like my As are kinda over, with it being over for my classmates. but like, miss kwa smsed the reality check right after the econs paper, saying that we have sch tmr at 930 am till like 3pm, madness. totally burst the bubble.
Ah so anyways today after econs.. I totally think that paper II was better. Felt that paper I turned out horribly. i practically didnt even manage to use case info esp for the big 8 and 10 mark questions. and thinking about it just now, while on the train home sucked. ANYWAYS. its over and i really mugged my ass of for econs. so hopefully that was sufficient to get me the grades i want.
after econs i chionged (literally) to the MICA building for the opening of the SWS exhibition (: seeing the talent was really awesome, though i found it weird taking photos next to my work lol. i was practically forced (: thanks for coming guys. :D
headed for dinner after that, then now i'm home. i still have a bad headache since econs this afternoon.
and the more i think about econs, DAMN.
okay i'm off to go do some happier stuff. (:
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
today i was happyyyyyyyyyy :D haha, strangely.
i was also freezing, who says long sleeves help. lol.
my poor hoodie smells like macs and the washing machine is broken down so i have to send it all the way to my aunt's place till the new one arrives :/
studies wise, tmr's econs paper 2, i am excited (weird) for it. i want to be able to finish all the parts of my essays, and i really hope i can come out of the hall beaming. (this is the paper i have been looking forward to)
then ah after econs i know i am going to freak out for human geog. still have LOADS to revise. :/ kay going to do somemore econs then sleep and continue tmr (:
Monday, November 16, 2009
today's just turning into a bad day. freak.
two names that i'm never gonna name my kids.
i study because i have to to get my grades.
today was a good day with sam (: (studying)
dinner was a bunch of laughs altogether, and i had an awesome time making the glass deco thingy outside kobayashi -been wanting to do that for eons, finally found the company to do it (: awesome.
i am now totally focusing on econs and humangeog. AHHHH not much time left :/ worried. okaaaay i am leaving my ipod to charge, then going to study.
i am honestly scared that human geog wont salvage my physical geog. and ah. okay. all the best, by the end of this week it will be practically OVER.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
today was spent studying, this is getting boring lol.
at the usual place, with sam and janice (: had a lot of random lame laughs too.
i am seriously looking forward to tmr, hope i dont get disappointed (: (thats about all i can say haha)
nevertheless, i seem to have this cheap-thrill-ish feeling coming from the fact that i am studying somewhere NEW tmr. i only hope i wont end up smelling like the place (though i prolly will) cos that would mean that my jacket would be stinky and would need a wash, and my new washing machine aint here yet :/
looking forward to tmr, looking forward to the end of As.
Marcus sent me this awhile ago, i think its damn funny. and it doesnt fail to make me cheer up even when i am damn sian.
THINGS TO DO IN AN ELEVATOR
1) Bring a camera, and take pictures of everyone in the elevator.
2) Move your desk into the elevator, and whenever someone gets on, ask if they have an appointment.
3) Lay down a Twister mat and ask people if they’d like to play.
4) Leave a box in a corner, and when someone gets on, ask if they hear something ticking.
5) Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.
6) Ask, “did you feel that?”
7) Stand really close to someone, sniffing them occasionally.
8) When the doors close, announce to the others, “It’s okay, don’t panic. They’ll open up again.”
9) Swat at flies that don’t exist.
10) Tell people that you can see their aura.
11) Call out, “GROUP HUG!” and enforce it.
12) Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering, “Shut up. All of you. Just Shut up!!!”
13) Crack open your briefcase or purse and while peering inside, as “Got enough air in there?”
14) Stand silently and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.
15) Stare at another passenger for awhile, then announce in horror, “You’re one of THEM,” and back away slowly.
16) Wear a puppet on your hand, and use it to talk to the other passengers.
17) Listen to the elevator walls with a stethoscope.
18) Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
19) Ask if you can push the button for other people, but push the wrong ones.
20) Stare grinning at another passenger for awhile, then announce “I have new socks on.”
21) Draw a little square on the floor with chalk, and announce to the other passengers, “This is MY personal space!!”
22) When there’s only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and pretend it wasn’t you.
23) Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock.
24) Call the Psychic Hotline from your cell phone, and ask if they know what floor you’re on.
25) Hold the doors open, and say that you’re waiting for your friend. After awhile, let the doors close and say, “Hi Greg, how’s your day been?”
26) Drop a pen, and wait until someone reaches to help pick it up, and then scream “That’s mine!”
Saturday, November 14, 2009
I NEED MORE DAYS LIKE TODAY.
today i studied, i was happy, and now i'm studying again.
:D okay fine maybe i was more than happy today, for a pretty shocking reason. haha.
I NEED MORE DAYS LIKE TODAY.
Friday, November 13, 2009
clueless.
somehow nowadays i prefer wearing shorts and darkblue tshirts. no dresses, skirts, jeans. and no heels, or flats. just slippers. and my pink hoodie. and my fav earrings. shrugs.
i hate to admit it, but everytime i come online, i'll check to see if you're there too.
(DISCLAIMER: This post is long and rambly cos i typed it almost without thinking about content while waiting for the connection to return lol)
so today i spent the day studying at starbucks with sam (: (more productive than ytd haha)
did some human geog, was pretty alright.
looking forward to doing some econs tmr :D and on sunday. and monday and tuesday (:
jon popped by around 5ish (: it ws nice catching up and stuff eventhough it was pretty rushed :D thanks for cominggggg (: we'll have more time next time yeah.
(: met my parents for dinner at 6ish, couldnt have laksa cos of my sore throat... so it was subway, chicken teriyaki, on italian, lettuce, olives and honey mustard. nice.
so thats basically my day. it gets pretty mundane since every day involves studying, just in some different permutation. i'm getting bored of drinks at starbucks, imagine that. shrugs.
i am also feeling so unfit, with all that sitting around studying and eating. i have been surviving on a ham sandwich for lunch for a week already, and a light dinner, so its pretty strange how i still dont feel lighter or fitter. (yes yes i know the starbucks sugar and calories) i really ought to be drinking more water instead. but sigh, this whole issue is bugging me tonight, not really feeling good in my skin, if you know what i mean (lol)
i am, however, enjoying the fact that my sister is away at camp this weekend. BIG SMILES here. (: so i get the whole room to myself and i totally intend to maximise tonights potential by mugging.
(: i am looking forward to the weekend, strangely, its as though i'm looking forward to a weekend after As, though it isnt.
i am also delighting in the fact that i am just left with econs paper 2 on wed, geog paper 2 on thurs, econs paper 1 on fri then art the following wed. i cant wait. its 11 days to the end yo. ELEVEN DAYS.
and i really ought to count the number of times i say i cant wait in a day.
all of the above.
be okay. (i made you a sandwich.)
Thursday, November 12, 2009
so todayyyyy studying at ttsh (: HAHAHA. (more or less)
HAHA (: anyways i've nothing much to blog about todayyyy (:
really looking forward to the disney movie marathon :D aaand i cant wait for the As to be over. (: (: (:
:D
gonna be doing econs and geog for the next few days. :D HAPPY cos i like studying for those two haha.
among other things, liam and ivy from 90210 look so cute tgh. really.
watching that show makes me melt a million times over. and at the same time it makes me feel shitty-ish. cos my life pales in comparison.
but then i realise, dude, its not real. (:
looking forward to studying tmr. (this is weird lol)
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
hi everyone ! i'm blogging from school :D
shawn's laptop lol.
gp today was fineeeeeeeeee.
it was about work-leisure balance (:
very accessible topic,
happy.
so nowwww i'm gonna study econs all the way and geog and artttt (:
somehow i am damn happy now, shrugs.
okaaaay so its study time!
all the best to the history students :D
Monday, November 09, 2009
cant you see, some people just cant pull it off.
Together we shall achieve.
today was geog paper one.
eventhough i mixed up the mekong and yangtze due to panic (PFFT) i wrote mekong on my paper but when i wrote the content for the essay, it was all yangtze stuff pfft. anyways FORGET IT. IT'S OVER.
(: moving on to the rest of my papers (: gotta be damn prepared for them.
with geog over, it really feels like its over when actually, its only just started. kinda a weird feeling, but i think the geog students should kinda be able to identify with that.
thinking about it and looking for a song to suit my mood tonight, i realize that though i'm looking forward to ending As, i am so friggin going to miss SR.
like seriously. i never thought i'd miss it. but its really one of the things with the greatest impact in my life. (: and i'm glad to have been here.
the song for tonight is the SR pioneer song.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
you know i always maintain a degree of censorship on my blog. i mean yes, blogs are an avenue to rant. but using it to try to discreetly post your issues isnt very discreet and sometimes, you may end up hurting people and friends whom you dont mean to.
and sometimes, you do it intentionally, to subtly get your message across and to save you allowance, cos you can always deny it.
but honestly, from my point of view tonight, you should confront the issue. instead of doing what you did.
i feel so stupid. you should have told me earlier. if i only knew, i would have done smth about it. THANKS A LOT. i cant believe this.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
some thought processes to show my state of mind.
stress. build up of stress in a rock. more joints and lines of weaknesses. could lead to pressure release.
panic. during volcanic eruption/earthquake/mass movement. need for mitigation. emergency preparedness programmes.
think i'm just having another panic attack and emoswing(emo moodswing) i am looking forward to studying in ten mins. and studying tmr. anything to reduce the panic. (like shear stress vs shear strength. in this context, shear strength=not panicking shear stress=stress (!!!) thus, studying increases the shear strength. by reducing the weight of pressure on the slope ....... mass movements info overload much.)
honestly.
ever since mr yea showed us the video on starvation, i feel bad leaving food behind like subconsciously i do tell myself that somewhere out there some kid could be enjoying this and here i am worrying about being fat. wtf is wrong. sigh.
emmy rossum's voice is amazing.
so yeah, been studying. nothing's new..... its exactly three weeks to freedom.
i cant believe it, really. overjoyed much.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
okay i'm not supposed to be here, but i'm waiting for the rain to be lighter heh.
okay this is damn random, but you know how people have an endearing quality about them, eg. some people are bimbo, but it makes them, them. some people are just ditzy at times, but it makes them, them. some people are cute and sarcastic, and that makes them, them its like having an outstanding quality which makes you, you.
and after observing peoples' endearing qualities, i have come to realise that unglamness, isnt one. HAHA.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
yeah, right. sian night.
okay i shouldnt be online, i am merely charging my ipod.
simei, ttsh, sch, pl been hanging around there lately.
catching up with a few friends, randomly and out of the blue, makes studying less sian.
you talking exponentially less makes it sian though i really am doing a very good job of not thinking about it. and i do this by focusing hard on other things. in this case, studying.
so there, its less than 10 days till geog paper 1- my most dreaded paper. sooo, gotta finish revising. yup.