i realised i was so excited for tmr, that i didnt blog about today (:
choir practise from 10 to 12 at the chapel in sjii, followed by choreo from 1-3.
i think the combined choirs sound real beautiful. the concert's on the 19th of dec, 8pm at VCH, let me know if you want to attend, and i assure you it wont be a waste of your $20 (:
(: and we just put up our christmas tree (: its so lovely.
breakaway.
So yes, i will be leaving home for Lao Cai, Vietnam at 6.40am tmr. and the flight departs T2 at 10am. (:
I am really excited ! cos this is my first overseas trip without my family. so yea (: i will be in rural villages for eight days, and in a hotel for one day (: which means i will be pretty much, uncontactable (: I will miss everyone here, but its just ten days (: so yea ! haha. :D i'm more afraid of the cold actually. and yeaaaaa :/// hope i dont turn into an ice sculpture.... anyways (: to satisfy your curiosity wrt the trip, -here's the itinery.
first day, we'll be at the friendship village, interacting with the kids there and performing for them (: looking forward to this ! :D
then we'll be taking the night train to fansipan(where we will be going on the climb) so we'll be on the fanxipan express overnight. and then we'll start the climb at heaven's gate! (thats what its called.) just some trivia on fansipan- Fansipan is a mountain in Vietnam, the highest in Indochina, at 3 143 m. So yea :D we'll be climbing for three days, two nights! (no bathing lol.) here's how fansipan looks (: full of dense vegetation!
and here's the view from the peak!
after our descent, we'll be heading to the minority village to stay, where we will help the villagers out by doing some cip work (: i know i'll be painting the schoooool :D we'll be having a campfire there toooo!
we'll also be visiting the market there! which is going to be really crowded by the looks of it-
after all that, we'll be heading to halong bay for the night (: (hotellll!) and we'll have somemore shopping at another night market, if i'm not wrong (: i am looking forward to the towerkarsts and cave formations at halong bay. and the seafood lunch on the boat.
We'll be spending the last night in the hotel, then its back to Singapore the next morning, YAY (:
okayyyyy (: thats about it! i will be having a break, FINALLY! pray that it doesnt get too cold for us there (: i am so exciteddddddddd. (:
thanks for all the concern (: I'll be careful there, naturally (: and I'll be back on the 9th at 6pm (:
and when i'm back it will be -choir practices -orientation planning -homework chionging -CHRISTMAS
okayyyy (: see you all! (: oh and one more thing, snow white ytd was beyong funny, and meeting keagan and sarah was beyond awesome.
you have close to no idea how much this break means to me.
Friday, November 28, 2008
my last post before i leave will be on sundayyy. but yea, (:
i am the kind to miss people easily. i am sentimental. and i hate goodbyes. and i hate it when people have to leave, eventhough i deal with it.
so yea, its only ten days, i'm optimistic, but i cant deny that it'll be a long ten days away from home.
i am going to miss my family, esp my parents. (i think i will tear at the airport on monday)
i will miss the 21st ! we're all going to different places, but yeaaaaa! must take care of each other okay. dont touch the insurance! (: come back safely please y'all.
i will miss amanda and germaine who will be far awayyyy. i will esp miss the usual people i talk to on msn.
i'm not leaving yet though! the flight take off's at ten am on monday (: so yea (:
i hate this part right here. song of the day;
(: packed and practised cip for vietnam (: so glad and i cant wait to leave really (: looking forward to it omg, so excited (:
i am free for the rest of today. gonna go hang at starbucks prolly (: i feel liberated :D somehow (: happyyyyyy. (:
anyways, i shall do this for fun, lol.
Rules & Regulations: 1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. 2. People get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little facts as well as state this rule clearly 3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names*NO TAGS BACK!*
1. I take malay as my mothertongue, even though my mum is chinese cos she's peranakan-chinese and my grandparents speak two diff dialects. So no mt is my mt, so they picked the easiest for me - malay.
2. I cant hide my feelings for nuts.
3. I prefer shopping with just one person, cos i dont like the idea of making people wait, and in a bigbig group that is bound to happen (:
4. Making other people happy, makes me happy.
5. I used to be the president of the english chess club. (:
6. I think the promo period was less stressful or busy as NOW.
7. I think i am getting lazier (which is a bad thing!) I am however, working on this (:
8. I can listen to the same song, ten times in a row. LOL.
9. I think blogging is somewhat like talking to yourself ? haha yea, i mean, it is supposedly an online diary.
10. shopping makes me happy.
haha okay so maybe you know most of the stuff i posted already, but nvm la. i am itching to leave the house so yea (:
have a great weekend (: i've got choir retreat and the pantomime tmr. and theeeen choir again on sat, for like, the whole day, HURRRRRRRRRRRRR. okay i shouldnt complain. just work harder ;)
next post'll be titled- i will miss.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
you dont even need a rhyming dictionary (: (song of the day: simple by katy perry, and i have that line stuck in my heaaad. and because deep turquoise is the colour of the sea between sentosa and vivo)
today was an awesome day out, it was simple, and relaxing (eventhough i did a littleee bit of work)
spent the late morning doing a bit of shopping alone at vivo, retail therapy workkks for me (: even if i dont get anything. though i did get smth today :D hahaha, tsk.
took the express to sentosa it was so quick (: i havent bee sentosa since like, last yr june hols? i cant even remember, HAHA. (i was so suaku lol. ask sam loh. HAHA, embarrassing.) (i was alone, you see..)
met up with the girls and played some soccer, and volleyball (which i sucked at lol) didnt feel like playing much later, just wanted to relax at the beach.
didnt get much of a tan, but its noticeable i guess (: there were random showers, but the weather was generally kind.
so yea, it was a relaxing day. good for me to get my mind off things, and just, refreshhhh.
(: headed back to vivo and shopped at candy empire for half an hour then rushedddd to meet nad to get the pe tshirts andddd speed shopped at cotton on body (haha.) met isaac to train home, had a yummyyyy dinner and i PACKED.
i officially majorly dislike packinggg. still missing some stuff, and unsure of what to bring for the climb so yea, will continue some other time. feeling somewhat insecure cos my check in luggage looks unbelievably empty.
anyways there's trainingggg tmr omg. so yea, need to catch some ZZZs.
hope i am not sunburnt :/ though i think i am. anyways i am a happy girl todayyyyyyyyyy :D
cos i enjoyed my one totally free day! (-inserts a big smile)
i am looking forward to, 1. VIETNAM 2. Shopping with nad! (and GINA, comeeee also okay!) 3. 1A04 class bbq! 4. CHRISTMASSSSSSS. 5. More random shopping, starbucks, beach dates. 6. OH, Snow White on saturday (: 7. Pre orientation training camp! (and hopefully, the bbq!!) 8. MY BIRTHDAY 9. ORIENTATION :D
okay i am procrastinating my sleep. nights :D
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
wishlist
1. Nice shiny grey-black studs from Accessorize 2. Cupcake pendant necklace from Diva 3. Random silver-y grey bangles from Accessorize 4. Flower key ring and ipod jacket from borders 5. Books from Borders
thats about it for now (:
the happy, but i'm gonna miss all my friends who cant move up to j2, me
the blurrrr, are you sure this is the right side, me.
the ex gf, me.
sam. the me who takes h2 art, enjoys art museum trips, and is busyyyy on the phone.
the choir-girl me.
the student councillor me :D
the kanchiong spider classmate and pw leader, me.
the daughter, me.
the doesnt look like me, me.
the me that doesnt get enough sleep.
the emo side of me, that just, wants to run from everything.
the retarded me.
the go out alone, me.
the-emcee-and-student-who-takes-malay, me
the girl who reads magazines, me
the distracted, cum emo, me.
the genuinely very happy, little girl-ish, loves horses, me.
the lame, do-you-want-moisturiser, me.
the happy go lucky, i like the hearts, me
i'm going to be happier from now on kay (:
really.
cos from here on, its all sunshine.
art wasnt so bad after all, abstract art is looking more anyhow, but yea (: its cathartic to a large extent, and being with sarah nad gina wei jie grace derek qijun makes it worthwhileee.
(: just got home from cycling and climbing steps. feeling good, but i've still got a tummy bleah. beach tmr hopefully.
right now, i am missing the clique dinner ): so tired. maybe i'll drop by later. but right now, i am so tired.
tmr being my first free day ever, i really just want to spend it well (: somehow now, i feel very realised, like, i know the different types of me. photopost coming up.
:D i am so glad its resolvedddd yay.
i'm happy we're through.
goodbyeee.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
note to self.
Dear sam,
you have to pick yourself up. because no one is going to do that for you.
Monday, November 24, 2008
(I WISH.)
amidst the clutter
i still wish.
lifes been a rollercoaster ride,
its a cliche of change
and yet there are no solutions.
if i had a wish
things would be different
i am beyond convincing myself that i'll make it through
i have reached;
preoccupion.
till you come back.
i hate seeing myself like this,
but to forget you,
would be forgetting the dream.
the weekend has been homework free, which explains why i have so much work to do now ):
the weekend has had its ups and downs, but i guess the sun's been shining on me (: in ways, but not how i wish (I WISH.)
and on a really random note cos i know you wont read this, i always thought you were cute ;)
Sunday, November 23, 2008
you know I do.
so today is a boring sunday. just like how ytd was a boring saturday. i dont like that my mum's not around. no lunch, no dinner.
i am bored, and lonely i guess. i dont talk to you anymore. and the person i want to be with doesnt want to. so whatever la.
whatever, because i am sick of doing this fuck.
so here's an update if youve missed a few pages.
i have been really busy lately, and tireddd. tired emotionally. and sick, physically.
thats a bad combi if you ask me, cos its leaves you feeling terrible about yourself but having to deal with it yourself too.
so basically its about, having my own set of problems. having to deal with my own set of problems. being involved in your set of problems, and having to deal with your set of problems- (like they dont add to my set of problems, i know, wth right.)
well, i've been coping well based on a set of criteria 1. i am still alive (duh. as much as i'd love to escape these problems.) 2. i havent got that accident i've been needing to get a proper break (i dont want ppl to worry hurr, or do i, maybe just one) 3. i am still going to school 4. i have bouts of happiness here and there (and eventhough they dont last, they still happen.)
i guess what sucks is that, no one else understands. and i cant forget you, YOU.
so for now, status is, i am still hoping that one day soon, you'll remember how you loved me. and its pathetic to a certain extent, but it beats hating you for what happened. (i think you wont read this though)
it's what i tell myself says: when we know we will never be satisfied with just that it's what i tell myself says: because of what we had before
and on a brighter, lighter note, i'll be leaving after next week yay.
i also have the following to look forward to- 1. Tuesday's meeting with OGLs and Games Facils 2. MarcusTan's BBQ- catch up with GERMAINEEE (: 3. Wednesday 4. An entirely free wedneday afternoon 5. An entirely free thursday (CAN YOU FRIGGIN BELIEVE IT.) 6. Vietnam next monday.
so yea i cant wait to leave this and be happy (:
i wanna hang out with you like last time. and i wanna do what you used to say. sigh. what a role reversal. its funny in a sad way.
time machine.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
better off alone.
fuck this cos i'm through. i'm sorry but this time around, i have to stick with this.
please help me do this.
YAY YAY YAYYYYYYYY OMG. my mum is in KL and she managed to get me the September issue of 90210 :D i am a happy happy happy girl :D
but my left arm is still aching and i am feverish :/
chasing promises.
i think people always chase promises. like how, someone promised us something once, and now that things have changed for the worst, we still continue to chase those promises.
partially because we cant let go, but i guess, its our loss anyways so we might as well hope.
the choices we make somehow get to us, as regret.
and when its too late, we really cant do anything about it. but that's just the way it goes.
thats just how life is (: its unfair a lot of times, but when you've taken it all in, you'll realise that complaining aint gonna help and that you gotta live with it (:
and once you get that into your head, everything seems better.
my left arm is achinggggg super badly. i thought it wasnt pain. but last night, i couldnt lie on my left. go figure..
i am boredddd. and i am so lazyyyy today, but hey, i managed to roll out all four days worth of action plans (:
on a balcony of summer air.
today was a good rest cos i was on MC. i went for an injection, alone. HAHA, like i was telling dudley, it makes me feel like a big girl. :D hahaha.
so now my left arm is a little soreeee. but i think ever since braces, my threshold for pain is higher.
orientation planning has been picking up (: and its got me really excited (: orientation is like, the 21st's babyyyyy (: hahaha in a weird, awwwh way.
council is love (: you guys never fail to make me really really happy. like what i was telling some of the 21st, when i look at the photos in our album, the happiest photos of me, are taken when i'm out with you guys! like at toys r us, the pe recce, outdoor pe, even during normal council time ! (:
dinner was with the family at foodrepublic (: hokkien mee and chendol, yayyy. and then borders (: which adds more things to my wishlist (: which i guess i will post soon (: i feel unusually happy (: in a warm and fuzzy way (:
and this weekend is my first entirely free weekend (: which leaves me smilinggggggg. its starbucks and orientation planning for me :D looking forward to that.
today's song is love story by taylor swift (: whenever it comes to the ending part of the song, my heart almost melts, like seriously, what a fairytale ending (: (which will like almost never happen in reaaal life)
okay i cant believe its almost ONE AM and i'm still blogging !
anyways! the OGL and Games Facil list is out :D go check the notice board at the Good News Cafe ! (its as you walk to A2-1 classroom) and if you have any queries do let me know (: if you're an ogl or games facil, i really hope you're looking forward to a smashing orientation cos its gonna be awesome ttm! :D see you on tuesday, 2.30pm at LT4 (:
On a really random note, its 32 days till CHRISTMAS :D
and hey you (: take care, you're in my prayers.
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
we could be. permanent headache.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
today i'm just really tired. and sick of doing this.
About a girl.
Yesterday was a bad day, I thought today would be better, but i guess its the same.
i just wish you'd come back. so we can forget all thats happened and be happy, sigh. but the tighter i hold, the further you go. i love you.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
because i cant solve my problem and i still miss you super effing alot. and you, you dont even understand me.
with all the shit i cant deal with,
this term has been the worst ever.
and if i could just die right now,
if it werent for my commitments,
i would.
today i rushed and cabbed to school and reached by eight, only to realise econs was cancelled, and the first lesson was at nine.
90210 episode 10 tonight (: looking forward to that. just that.
Monday, November 17, 2008
speechless.
there are so many things that'd make me happy, too many things that i like, and i still cant seem to get to the isle that is happiness.
and my eyebags are damn bad. (and they're not photoshopped) dont need to guess why.
well, i'd never wanna see you unhappy.
so the weekend was mad, as usual. didnt get much sleep. but it was good (: i seem to be drowning myself in appointments, but they're feel-good.
went over to nana's hse ytd to get the clothes for the trip, and she has like four cats. me and my sensitive nose. i'm like sneezing non stop now. which explains why i'm not in sch. the doc's medicine aint working for me :/// anyways i got awesome new clothes now :)
i went shopping with nad in the afternoooon :D for like, the longest i've been shopping in the term, four hours minus! (: walked so much :D like three major malls. haha.
started out at Raffles Place, (: there's so much i wanna buy ;D retail therapy does wonders for me hurr. i need a wish list column hehe (: and i think i wanna change my blogskin soon perhaps? though i like the hearts on this one. i'll think about it..
(: anyways so we went to Accessorize, Topshop, River Island at Raffles Place and then SIXXXX (which is seriously, the love.) and theeeen, wintertime and (some other winter clothing shop) and Divaaaa at Marina, fourskin (: at Suntec- Cold wear, Cotton On there were loadsa other small shops we went into, but these were the ones i wanna get stuff from ;)
so anyways (: it as greaaat fun hanging with nad (: haha. yeaaaa (: we saw alot of really bigbling rings and jewellery haha. anddd haha because i am resting at home, and i am only gonna start on studying and essays later, i think this post is gonna be looong.
i really liked a grey cardigan from topshoppp. and there were other nicenice stuff (: haha. but i'm lazy to go fnd all of them to blog..
gap had some nice cardigans too ! (:
nad and i found this nice star with pink and black zebra prints on it (: super cute (: i ended up getting that, and a pin with jewel hearts (which were on SALE) at SIX (:
then we went to Diva and found more NICE stufffff (: which of course we couldnt get ): haha, i mean, if everything was see-like-buy, i'd be in major debt, LOL.
we tried on beanies at wintertime! hahaha that was funnyyyy (:
oh we looked at guys clothes toooo (:
the marina area neeeeeeds a pull and bear ! (:
i headed to nana's place for dinner (: reached home at eleven, and had a rest, till earlier todayyy.
(: i seem more smiley than normal (: prolly cos ytd was a happy dayyy. eventhough ytd as an emo night before falling asleep, HURR.
anyways i think i shall head out to get some productive work done (: -please dont raiiin. (okay wait, damn it already is :/)
i shall get dome work done out today, since i am sickkk of home. (: though i hope i dont get lazy cos of the rainrainrain! i have orientation proposals to vetttt (: i cant wait for orientation yo.
alright ! i'm off to get some work done (: 90210 tmr, yay.
rain, rain, go away.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
(: better.with you.
this is not my heart.
outdoor pe was fun. cycling was fun. and i am at a loss when it comes to adjectives right now.
took a long bus ride home. the travelling really drained me i think. running a fever and i feel so so sick.
i dont know where i'm going with things. being the girl that i have grown to be nont having direction really scares me. sigh.
i dont know la. its like i'm starting to lose grip. and there's no one to help me grab a hold again. sometimes i think i cant do this anymore.
i read fon's blog, and yea i really miss a4 already. its just the five of us now, and sigh, it aint the same. period.
you have no idea how abnormal it is not being able to talk to sarah in class and amuse fon with lameness. or just, laugh at jeremy's jokes. how he always makes the class happy. jun long's sotong-ness and amirah ): i will miss you so much esp in malay class.
fact is it'll never be the same. maybe i'm just being emo. but i was never good at letting go, when i wasnt given a choice.
so this is from fon's blog.
I'll miss being in the class with Sarah cause she's so... bimbotic.. and does the funniest things and how light will be reflected off her braces (just kidding)
And Sam Bran's super cold lameness and how she gets into Thakin Mode. And how she's so emotional and her fetishes for ponies.
And Sam Loh's braces problems, her post-its and cute drawings and random writings all over my lecture notes.
Ting Yi's weird dreams, her "exciting hair", all her OA, NA and Candle Boy.. HAHA.
Hui Min's unlikely character of being quite perverted (I'm serious), her sudden bursts of singing. And the stuff she says is damn funny. Complaining over lardball..
Amirah's bright smile, getting dizzy over mr kok and just being nice (:
Ling Hui's random touches and "beatings".. Urh.. not quite sure how to phrase it.
JL's stoning out randomly, being the super sotong he really is, his excitement when talking about cars and sometimes him being irritating? Okay not really that.
Jeremy's topless half just randomly popping out, him just jumping and bouncing around like a small monkey.
Jonas just being annoying.
QJ's aunty bag.. LOL his weird hair growing on his neck.. Ok, not really that either..
Haikal's horny expressions.. His stupid antics during PW.. Rmb that time he tied his shoelaces to his knee and it got stuck for a while. LOL.
Boon's silence.. and OP speech.. HAHA. I'll be missing that.
i'm speechless.
Friday, November 14, 2008
i think when things dont go my way, i get annoyed. then i try to fix things. when i give up trying to fix things, i get fed up.
and sometimes it just takes a little push to start trying again, and hopefully, get a different outcome.
(: cos it never hurts to try.
outdoor pe the whole day at pasir ris tmr, TAN (:
all that it takes is one more chance dont let our last kiss be our last
kill me last night please.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I'm not inlove, this is not myheart.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.
but we aint been there for awhile
it helps that the supp classes arent really heavy, so school has been bearable. went home to watch more 90210 then headed back for trainingggg. (: training always feels good AFTER. like seriously (: haha (: plus the cheater shirt helped with the feeling-good.
had a yummy dinner, some random conversations.. and now i have to get started on econs essays. cos i havent even finished HALF of one yet. lolll. i think i'm just gonna do three tonight, get one done after training tmr morning, yay. haha, suddenly i'm all alright with training early tmr. guess i have to stop being a pigggg when it comes to waking up and getting myself off to sch on a bus. haha.
i think 90210, especially episode 4 puts me in an awesome mood. like, i stayed up till 3am last night watching 90210, and i didnt feel sleepy at all during classes today. weird much.
i think i shall wait awhileee more before starting on the essays. my eyes have been so sore the past few nights. and i feel so ugly.
the past few days, have just been days, i havent felt the satisfaction of work YET, though orientation planning is midway.
sigh.
my only free day in nov is the 27th. and i really am looking for it to be a day where i can really, really, really breathe. and i really hope i get to spend it with someone.
i miss you more than i never told you.
i could watch the first part of this over and over and over. and still sigh.
i think annie and ty are the sweetest ever (: sigh. like seriouslyyyyyyy omg. i am melting for annie, totally. sighhhh a million times over.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
i'd like that.
that sort of messed up feeling just got emphasized. i'm just gonna watch 90210.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
i am so annoyed with blogs that play songs automatically.
tell me how i'm supposed to breathe with no air?
today, the slc was as awesome as ytd. survivor race wasnt really about surviving.. but it was enjoyable and definitely fun.
we took alot of photos, group four rocked. it as great seeing everyone, as per ytd.
and for a day, i realised what i miss in tj (: and how things were and stuff. got the zenithII vids from mel :D and a mardi gras shirt. so sweet (: LOVE YOU MELLLL :D reason to meet up soon (:
with that said, i was in a happy mood the whole day. but now i'm just sick and tired and fed up. in other words, i am i feel inadequate and messed up.
i shall list random stuff.
1. i dont like supplementary classes. i simply need a break. really. but i cant take a break. cos the work, piles up. MC days arent even breaks. sometimes, SOMETIMES, i really wish i get in an accident, so i end up in the hospital where its quiet. and i can have a break.
2. i think sometimes, people get what they deserve. and i think when they make a big deal out of it, its so ironic- for the lack of a harsher (or is it more harsh) word.
3. i dont like rewriting essays, but yea oh well. i kinda like writing. i need to go into kc spider mood again. starbucks is the fuel, for me.
4. i can only work productively at starbucks. somehow. SIGH. starbucks brings fond memories (: 5. i dont like tidying my stuff because i am tired when i get home. and the only time i can tidy my stuff, is when i get home. so there.
6. i should stop complaining. and work harder. sometimes i hate myself for being sucha workaholic. then i think about not making the same mistake as before.
and everything, everything changes.
Monday, November 10, 2008
i think now i just wanna cry myself to sleep :(
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do And with every step together, we just keep on getting better. i wish.
about the times that i wont have to say oh kiss me and smile for me;
when you dont get what you want, experience is what you get.
the student leaders congress today was awesome. just the zest i was looking for, nothing beats immersing yourself among other student leaders with the same if not more passion to serve, learn, lead.
group 4 is awesome fun, all the lameness (: and the jobhunt was new and amazing.
it was also great seeing everyone! scip exco and other scip members and everyone i know in tjjj (: talking to ms nor was great too. happyyyyy. it was like reliving an old fond memory. catching up with jon was great tooooo :D
so i am really looking forward to tomorrow! (despite how tired i am now)
(: i had a nice nap on the bus home, havent had one of those in ages. which leaves me happy like a little girl who just got a balloon. and thats kinda how i feel now (:
Sunday, November 09, 2008
baby just say, yes.
madagascar was retarded. matteo was so adorable omg. the sofa was hot.
walked up ten storeys and exercised upon reaching home. i am so looking forward to the congress tmr morning :D now i am off to bedddd.
goodnight. love.
we'll find a mountain top and some moonbeams to sit under.
we're going over to aunty bevy's for a swim. how unlucky, pfft. today is a sucky day. i just need one wish.
i am wearing my cheater shirt. thats gotta be the only feel good thing about today.
camouflaged.
you dont know the half of it. and damn i wish i could tell you.
i hate the ways things changed for you. i'd do anything to make things better for you. only problem is, there's nothing i can but be here for you. love.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
every grey. when i think about it, i miss you. when i think about it again, i want to show you i reallyreally care. when i think more about it, i'm too afraid to risk it. cos i cant risk losing you. dont you see?