soooo today, managed to finish the art hw which was meant for the weekend.
left school early, around 5 ish.
came home to 90210 and desperate housewives. oh, and a tremor lol.
the first two, awesome. (not like anyone who doesnt watch 90210 or dh will know what i'm talking about but heck! haha)
#1 liam got a recording of jen saying that they slept tgh. so now, he can let naomi listen to it. YES YES YES. i've been waiting for this, forever.
#2 susan and mike got married again. YES YES YES. i've also been waiting for this, forever.
(okay so my forever is exaggerated here, it really just means, a damn long time.)
also, felt some tremors, again. lol.
as you may or may not know, i live on the 20th storey so when an earthquake hits java or somewhere in Indonesia, we get to feel the tremors. fish tank water, moving mirrors, noisy animals (okay scrap the noisy animals part.) HAHAHA. yeahhhhh. so we just went down the blk for awhileee.
then went back up. nothing much really. kinda cool. but not so cool if its the full magnitude hoho.
okaaaaay. its my parents 20th wedding anniversary, i have art hw due tmrrrr and i havent had dinner :S best get going. ciaooo.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
moodswings.
pretty much prone to them. i know after coursework that its kinda bad to look forward to the end of things, because you neglect the process and overlook things in your haste to get it over and done with, but tonight, i am looking forward to the end of tmr.
the idea of reaching the end, looking forward to weekends, christmas, so many many many more things, seems so happy in contrast with the shit of things now. what i'm afraid of, is that when it comes, it will just be, normal.
and its also both scary and delightful to be looking forward to weekends now. cos they imply the impending As.
Friday, September 25, 2009
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:D so i am finally done with coursework, that is a damn good reason to smile.
though, on the other hand, i am shagged from studying every day. but whats new. its the rigour of the a levels and every morning i just have to remind myself of my aims.
this weekend is going to flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy by. that kinda sucks, but oh well.
i am looking forward to some things, including studying econs, for some weird reason. getting the hang of econs is refreshing, perhaps.
i also need more opportunities to wear smth else other then my college tee, college skirt and pink shoes. its getting boring. lol.
Monday, September 21, 2009
i want to go back to this.
okay so today,
i squeezed time for shooting at the zoo. it also turned out that my baby cousins from KL were down, so it was a good photog opp.
aaand tmrrrrr i am not looking forward to geog lect, and not looking forward to two hours of GP.
both lessons (sadly) have become increasingly mundane. hence the lack of looking-forward-to-them-ness.
i am weirdly, looking forward to wednesday, 6pm. (otherwise known as the coursework dateline)
though i fear that school will be thrown out of balance for me with a lack of art destressing or stressing. and this is what i am not looking forward to. though, come to think of it, sova looks to be a refreshing change (:
haha okayyyyyyyyyyyyyy so. whats new with me.
econs isnt as much of a drag thanks to mr tan kk. geog is getting boring cos i cant seem to PUSHHHHHHHHH my grades up despite heavy studying. maths needs more practise, i still cant so normal and binomial well. art is almost over, sova should be manageable since i like studying for it.
alrighttttttttttttttt back to making my study timetable, and uploading zoo photos.
Friday, September 18, 2009
somehow i like this song. its nice to do art with this song. i like it. and the music vid isnt too bad either. and i like ciara's sound in this vid.
i also always think of what the power 98 djs said, about the starting, when they call each other's name, its like making sure they're singing to the right person. (cracks me up)
so here's my pick me up-
so finally i am on mc.
life is being trying now, alot of shit happening. but wth, shit happens anyways.
haze related flu, sucks. it sucks also that the only thing that helps the haze clear up, is rain, which is bad weather to me.
econs time trial later, which i am not going for. i am after all on mc, no mood to study cos i feel so sick and sian with everything happening.
death is also an issue which has been brought up for me recently. and suddenly it seems so much more ominous then sad. life, in contrast, seems so much more fragile. and i guess i better understand how life is really really fragile. and why its an issue which artists like to harp on. because it is that important and crucial and yet, at the same time, fragile.
and also feeling pretty numb about it, somehow.
anyways i am gonna head to sch to get some art done, and hopefully be picked up from the sian-ness of almost everything else. the irony, since art gets pretty sickening sometimes.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
samantha ann says: breaks make me happy small breaks icecream satisfaction makes me happy making ppl happy makes me happy talking/smiling/seeing my ec msging my gdfriends knowing i;m thought of in small ways coffee horses unicorns pretty things rainbows ! 90210 friends (: study grps nice handwritten study notes new things smiles nice comments quiet sleep my pillow love
and i really could go on.
happiness seems simple on the surface, but i guess true happiness is harder to attain.
Monday, September 14, 2009
i need more f21 stuff haha. retail therapy.
okay so i need a new notebook, and i need to make it nice, so i will feel (even more) like making a study plan for the next 55+- days. and so i will adhere to it, strictly (more or less, preferably more)
i need a new notebook, likeee by THIS SATURDAY. (time to go get one..) i am so going to A'n'BC :D fav(and cutest ever) stationary shop
okay i am sleep deprived (isnt everyone?)
nights.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
(:
sooooo the sept term break is overrrrrrrrrrrrr (just like that, mannnnnn.)
life's mundane now, school and studying. timetable is looking pretty awesome, with no star this week till friday, gotta spend my days MUGGING(my ass off) for the econs retest on fri (though they're not marking, just its a gauge of timeeee.)
so yeah (: it feels like the june hols just ended hurrr. (: the past week have been spent spamming art stuff, as i would've alrdy mentioned (:
but of course, thanks to friends and family, it has been bearable (:
the new watch is a must wear tmr hehe. i'm looking to tons of omg sam!/bimbo much/uhhh abit too kiddy right/so cute/pinkyyyyy -ish comments. haha (:
i also havent seen sarah for what seems like eons (miss having you around yo)
(: i also am looking forward to the coming saturday (:
basically, tonight i feel pretty optimistic about the coming weeks, despite the countdown till As.
(: i'm also gna be collecting my book tmr, and yes, pretty excited. its like a holistic view of my coursework. !! (:
so yeah (: the As're nearing. its scary and feels more relieving at the same time. (is this even possible lol)
oh and its good that 90210 season 2 is outtttttttttttttttt :D yes! (: awesome, but i want more of liam ): and naomi ): and ethan ): and ty. where'd all the cute guys go man. lol.
okaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy i shall go hunt for 90210 stuff :D
Saturday, September 12, 2009
can i have ice cream please.
okaaaay so the hols are like, OVER.
more than 75% of it was absorbed by art, safe to say. my book's been sent for binding (: collecting it on monday! (excited.) dropping it off at the binders was like leaving a baby i had just given birth to at the hospital :/
soooooooooooo yeah i've got flu :/ hopefull i'll get better before monday. my voice really, really, REALLY sucks lol. ask the art peeps/chris/shawn/mr lau. haha yeah.
(: i also managed to spend some time with chrispy (: :D (happy only haha) :D :D
the flu has been real suckyyyy. but i've been okayyy. this is weird, but i wish i could have spent more time on econs and geog. prelim grades were just satisfactory and personally below expectations(siannnnnnn)
shall have to spend tmr spamming econs drqs to compensate the art filled hols. (i will not dread this....)
okayyyy (: so the balance out my stress levels, (again, i like to achieve balance (: ) i shall list some of the things in the past week which have made me happy. (in a non chronological, random order.)
1. New princess watch :D 2. Sakae sushiiiii 3. Prettyyyyy butterfly earrings 4. You following me to go get my book bound :D and being so patienttttttttt (: 5. Fried mars bars :D 6. Pink princess trolley bag sharpenerrrr and well, i guess thats all i can think of at this hourrrrr (:
aaand i think my dad can sense that i'm damn stressed or smth. he just said tmr he'll take me to a new art shop at City Hall. (: sounds nice.
alright, i best get some restttttttttttttttt.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
emma watson is damnnnn prettyyyy.
when i blog, i still cant really say what i want to say eventhough its private now. there's like no end to this. pfft.
okaaay so being the paranoid girl that i am over my art, i am busing down to SR just to carry my art home. lol. this is both funny, and retarded.
Monday, September 07, 2009
its 12am, i am craving ikura don from sakae sushi.
awesome.
okay, i feel sickkk.
okay so i am damnnn annoyed with facebook, which doesnt load properly on my screen. which leaves me with twitter.
i am not resorting to neopets. heh.
okay its not that i have nth interesting to blog about, but my sister is really, really annoying. sometimes she's just so, so, selfish. i shouldnt judge, but i'm beginning to think that all she ever cares about is herself. she is friggin annoying, and rude.
every day i dislike that i have to share a room with her, though i hope i'll get used to it gradually, or that she'll just grow up.
honestly, people say its just a phase, but i dont remember going through it.
so anyways, apart from that, i managed to rub all the words today (: cept two phrases (: pretty pleased with the progress, no longer feel as pressed by the dateline. but still gotta keep up the progress, hope to get my book bound by the end of the week.
i am also looking forward to shopping, sometime this week. i mean, you cant study/work ALL THE TIME rightttttt. i need something to be happy happy lol. SENTOSA. and ice cream perhaps.
(but who has time for those things now bleah)
so anywaysssss, looks like its full steam ahead for As. (: feeling pretty optimistic about this tonight, somehow.
okaaaay i want sushi buffet. and shopping. for now (: haha.
Saturday, September 05, 2009
kaleidoscopeeee. like when i was a little girl, and i had one. i cant find it ): need a new oneeee.
fastforward this tape please.
soooo i had a pretty normal day today.
went to school for artttttt, from 930 till 5. (:
managed to finish painting quite a fair bit. (: am pleased since coursework is almost done, save for the rub on words.
(: then i bused to meet shaaawn for dinner. haha, subway. (: aaand i had soyabean icecream againnnnn :D
there was also this bazaar thing, for hari raya, so we walked around and saw lotsa cool stuff, but it was way hot and i kinda ended up smelling like food haha. (:
bused home later, anddd came home to realise corpse bride's showing tonight (now actually) but i've watched it too many times i think aha.
(: i am looking forward to, the time traveller's wife, coraline, alice in wonderland, the princess and the frog 9.
some of the movies are showing next year only lol. after A's. and i guess all that i'm looking forward to revolves around A levels ending.
for now, prelim results were belowwwww expectations for GP (by 2 marks plus) and Art so far. pretty disappointing, and plenty of suck, but i'm getting over it and i guess the only way is to study damn a lot harder. (:
i'm beginning to think that people have like an emotion quota. like everyday, a person feels a certain amount of an emotion. something like that. i never really gave much thought to it, but i'm beginning to think its true, anddd esp for me.
so anyways, speaking of prelim results, i gotta get myself studying tmrrrrrr. i shall continue working for econs since the results are visible. i really hope i so pass the Case Study. otherwise ah bad.
okayyyy. apart from that, the past week has been a mixture of relief, happiness, sadness and disappointment. & sometimes i dont like realizations.
random- most AWWWW worthy part of corpse bride- "i was a bride, my dreams were stolen from me. and now, i'm stealing someone elses. i love you, victor, but you are not mine."
okaaay i think i should sleep by 1230.
Friday, September 04, 2009
Yiruma's River flows in you is really awesome to listen to, to wind down.
Apart from listening to that tonight, here're some updates-
1. prelim results are just okay. which means- either my expectations are too high, or i need to work harder.
i strongly feel its the latter.
2. art coursework is progressing (this is about the best news) i am done with inking, left with touching up and the words (ah, the words)
and of course the BINDING. have to call up ELEVEN shops tmr. most binding services i've enquired only do corporate type binding- like uncle henry's kind. which is so not what i'm looking for. the first shop i asked at Bras Basah told me, minimum 50 pages. (LOL ON THE SPOT.) -my book is only nine pages of watercolour paper + the hardcover
3. covering marc quinn's concepts/perceptions on life today, got much more real wrt certain family matters. it made me really dwell on life. and its fragility.
its really scary how you never know when you might lose a loved one. and thinking about it really does make me tear. (not cos i'm a cry baby) but because it scares me.
its one of the deepest fears i have. losing those i love. its smth that i cant bear. i cant really explain it, but i guess, its the whole idea of living without them. and even, having to live without them. the idea of losing a loved one is one i never really put much thought to, but today, the situation seemed so much more real. the pain feels so much more personal. and i guess the best defence against this fear, is prayer.
4. and again, i seem to be constantly reminded that nowadays, my happiness is derived from making others happy. sometimes i think this isnt good. its being dependent. but i guess, its better than being unhappy.
okaaaay, thats enough for a night. its friday 1215am. shall go catch some ZZZs soon.
OH, not forgetting- the word of the day(and every day till A levels) is DOGGEDNESS, friend (:
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
korea is stealing my bf for christmas. (you better sms me every day.)
these are the shades from F21 that i wanted eons ago, but alas, i couldnt wear them then, since i wore specs. but now, that i have contacts... :D its a different story. (though of course i still love my specs and wont be wearing contacts all the time.) (my specs seem part of my identity)
MAKE OR BREAKKK.
soooo today i survived with contacts! (:
here's how it went lol-
woke up relatively early to go with aunty vivian to whitesands where she works, and she checked my degree, then got me the contacts (i'm not that bad :D it took me less than half an hour to put them in and try getting them out aha.
the world seems soooo much clearer without specs now :D haha, i had a slight headache after removing them, but i guess i'll survived. i can only wear them for six hours tmr though- have to teach my eyes how to breathe in them. so i'm thinking whether i should wear them in the afternoon, or in the morning (: cos if its six hours, i only have till 1230pm, considering i wear them at six thirty. sooooo see how (: the thought of it is still pretty exciting, lol.
(: i am also glad to have spent time with chrispy today (:(: i bought FOUR pairs of earrings :/// (so much for controlling spending.) they're all awesome, considering in total i spent $7. haha. ear studs are the love.
aaand i also had my soyabean icecream (like finally yay) happyhappyhappy. had a lot of fun walking around and shoppingshoppingshopping. (now i just realised there's school tmr)
okaaaay (: so today was reallyreally awesomeee :D haha but its scary that we'll be reviewing econs and art stuff tmr :S aaand i really super hope i do fine, because its already prelims. (here comes the wake up call)
i've always said that its make or break. and i so badly want it to be a make. because i simply, just cant afford to screw up on my A levels. so its like ARGH. i really hope that i dont screw up on A's. basically thats just about my biggest fear now.
okay. today's worries dont do anything for tomorrow.
so i'm just off to do some art - left with outlining. (and damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn i totally forgot about going back to school today. ) (HAHA talk about a selective memory)