going out later today, yay (: and so i needa go prepare some stuff now.
okay so this is a crapppy post. haha, well, i spent ytd late afternoon, sketching a photo of myself being happy. today i will attempt to log a happy day- following ms kwa's suggestion. so yea (: i'm on a lookout for all things, HAPPY.
Friday, January 30, 2009
my hair feels all soft and light today! and it makes me wonder,
is it possible for a girl to be anti-bimbo?
cos i guess every girl, even the most headstrong one has her bimbo moments, i'm sure.
and haha i'm not refering to myself! i have way too many bimbo moments. (lol, dont remind me)
anyways yea (: that qn just popped to my head cos i was blog/lj hopping and i was thinking to myself, thats so bimbotic :/ and then a second later, that question popped into my head. anyways! it aint a big issue or anything. (i'm rambling)
okay i am rambling, and i have to get started on sketching. yes, sketching! i'm going to be on a part time hiatus, till orientation is over, unless i cannot resist the urge to blog. mind you, this is highly likely, knowing me... but first ! SKETCHES.
SEE YA.
with you.
(: ogl briefing went pretty well (: haha, i think maybe they think i'm a little retarded for like the whole 'what's in that box?' thing (: but it was nice and creative right !! HAHA i didnt want the briefing to be information overloadzzzz.
then after that i grabbed my stuff from my locker and chionged outta school before assembly (: so its art intensive day today. i am so fried for the deadline on second feb :/ barely have ANY sketches :///
okay i should get drawing soon, only i hate drawing people :/ much less, myself !? oh well, gotta force myself to get down to it.
(:
Thursday, January 29, 2009
i need to go to school tmr and my parents arent letting me. not even just in the morning!? wth.
now i'm in a superbad mood. and i really miss you.
and i just weirdly felt like putting this picture, heh.
edit: just done with the slides for tmr's ogl briefing (: i need to go give the briefing tmr. so i shall go, then leave school before assembly starts. haha, how retarded is that right. lol. oh well.
(:(:
when i'm angry, you listen, make me happy, its your mission and you wont stop till i'm there.
(i've got pieces of me stuck in my head) i'm sickkkk.
so yea, i'm having that superbad viral infection. which warranted me a two day MC :/ bad timing, considering orientation starts.....NEXT WEEK, AH. and the medicine is terrible :/ i hate antibiotics cos i have to finish the whole cause. not to mention the tablets are panadol sizeddddd. ew.
but well, its good time for me to rest, and take a break before charging into Orientation (: and hw is easier to manage this way too. lucky i can be pretty independent study wise..
still feeling very like, woooozy. haha, thats the word that came to my aching head.
managed to get some stuff done :D which makes me happy and excited (: yea.
(: anyways, if you dont already know, but i think and i guess you should, you're really the best & i love you supermuch and i really miss you.-hugs.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
inkheart & twilight. (:
so cny has been great, cept perhaps for the fact that i am down with a viral infection, that makes me sound hoarse, and my nose is constantly out to force me to breathe through my m.o.u.t.h. (:
dinner was at pohpoh's ytd, and awww (: i was a happyhappyhappy girl :D (God knows why) and we watch Eden Lake! which made me scream alot. (considering i rarely scream! i screamed, ALOT ) sorry if i made you deaf :X
(: todayyyy is a new day (: i intended to wake up early to do hw, but despite my neighbours liondance (so loud omg) i managed to sleep through till, 10 plus am (: HAHA, i know, i know, sleepyhead. lol.
anyways (: today i'm happy :D (haha whats new right.) and i am going to wear BLUE today (: somewhat cheap thrill, but as you can prolly tell, i'm all happy and bouncy and high today (:
;) happy chionging hw, friends ! :D
Sunday, January 25, 2009
18
so i'm eighteen (:
last night was sweet (: thanks everyone for the birthday wishes (: (: there's too many friends and loved ones to thank. you know i love you guys (:
and thanks to everyone for coming, love much (: it was fun, eventhough now i'm sick :/ viral infection..
there's reunion dinner tonight (: and instead of the usual steamboat, its a bbq this year (: (looks like my throats gonna get worst -sadface)
so yea back to my bday (: its really been the happiest ever this year, i guess its cos of :D and perhaps maybe so because its in contrast to previous years? either way i wanna stay this way (:
:D and i really like the photos from ytd (: waiting for more from regina (:
oh and the tiara from ytd is so cute,thanks fon, sam, sarah, tingyi and keagan (: and all the stars omg so sweet. loveyouguyssomuch.
and and and, my favourite present, is still from YOU.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
(: this 18th birthday has been the sweetest ever. and the happiest. (like you)
its like this is the smile i've been searching for, for so long, and i finally found it. (:
and i am so happy. love you.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
almost 18!
and i aint spending the first minutes of my 18th birthday online :D
i wonder if its insecurity, or just, a lingering fear of losing my loved ones?
cos no matter how old i am, i think i can never harbour the thought of leaving my loved ones for a long period of time. be it to study overseas, or to live there.
i'm like that. i love where i am. i love the people around me.
and i wonder sometimes if people leave singapore because they want to start anew? and at the same time, i'm puzzled as to how they can bear leaving their loved ones behind. maybe i'm puzzled cos i myself cant possibly imagine that.
and i know that if someone who was dear enough to me, left the country permanently, i'd be heartbroken.
and i know that because of that, i'm going to do whatever it takes to make them stay.
(i was just thinking- not that anyone dear to me is leaving the country of anything yea (: )
We're flying through the night We're flying through the night Way up high, The view from here is getting better with You by my side
GASTRIC+ART.
on MC today for gastric :/ hope i wont be as sick tmr :/
anyways, cant believe i'll be 18 in less than 24 hours. it aint sucha a big deal, but yea (: 18!
(: i think today i'm in a we-the-kings mood. i've got skyway avenue and check yes juliet both stuck in my head. heh.
and, ytd i was so angry. never felt that angry in quite awhile :(
but well i guess i felt better after talking to chris and amin. (:
and because i think the gastric medicine is working and that i just had a late (:X) lunch -its 3.20pm. i shall go do some art prep because i am suddenly all excited for coursework (: (lets hope i can sustain this) so today shall be a gastric+art day. :D
and ah, i have to bring back ALOT of books tmr since i'm not in school today, shucks :/ -sadface. but still cant wait for tmr (:
i miss(ed) youuuu today, and i am so looking forward to tmr :D
I'd leave it all for you.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
i never thought that i'd catch this, lovebug again (:
school has been pretty awesome the past two days (: no need to guess why (: managing to keep up with hw pretty alright. screwed up the econs test today though, ): sigh. oh wells.
(: school's been treating me well so far -cept for some issues which have been giving me headaches, but i cant do much about those..
so yea (: i'll leave you with just two words, very happy.
make that, extremely happy (:
Sunday, January 18, 2009
i am going to be happy and not grumpy this coming week because its my birthday week and i need to compensate for last year's sad birthday. :D
ytd i was happy. i just love the Orientation '09 OGLs and GF. and of course, i love the 21st (:
the ogls were all so enthu (: made me happy and the mass camwhoring was cute lol i'll post photos when i'm done.
and today i'm happy too (: got a new phoneeee(finally) among other happy things that made me SMILE. :D
the only sad things that are frustrating me are the following my superpain, supergross and superbig blisters on my small toes and the three and a half geog essays that i have to do ): ): ): ):
that aside, today's been more happy than sad, and i cant believe that my birthday is coming in five days (: :D
HI YOU THANKS FOR DINNER :D
Friday, January 16, 2009
today i am happy.
found out that i got E for Malay, so i dont needa go for h1 malay. i was SO SO SO HAPPY.
ogl games were a blast! (: pretty glad at how it turned out (:
(: had xian yu chao fan for dinner (: SILLY CHALKKKK TSK (: then popular (:
okay so now i am home, and i think i'm losing my voice :/ so i best go sleep. (looks like i'm gonna CAB tmr :X)
Thursday, January 15, 2009
burnout
school was good. left at nine pm as usual.
things that made me happy today: college was early for assembly again econs class + lecture was v. productive. ipoh hor fan sauce and macaroni was good getting the window cubicle in the art room studying (econs essay! yay)
things that annoyed me today: a generally selfish i-want-to-do-well-in-a-levels-and-thats-my-priority attitude from someone irresponsible people geog essays having to chase people for things they are supposed to give me my battery dying
so today was a 5/10 good day. well, thats not so bad i guess?
i needa be the optimistic me. wellll (: i'm looking forward to next friday. hopefully it'll be different this year. cos the past year it was shit.
i am going off to sleep now, pre orientation training camp is going to tire me out tmr and on saturday.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
i hate this part right here.
school was good. tiring, as always, but it was good.
i dont really like science as a gp topic. but i'm liking the looks of the art room, and council progress. i just hope i dont burn out by friday.
and on the sidelines, i dislike how i think so much :/ it really screws me up inside realising some things. and having a feeling of uncertainty just makes me sad, somehow?
and right now i'm thinking like, bitch.
and and i posted this photo cos it makes me happy. and right now, i need smth happy.
goodnight, frustrations.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
David Dare Me says: what're you doing butterflies in my stomach says: haha printing things at another computer butterflies in my stomach says: transfering info there via my thumb butterflies in my stomach says: checking lists from councillors butterflies in my stomach says: blogging butterflies in my stomach says: talking to four ppl on msn butterflies in my stomach says: sms ing butterflies in my stomach says: and packing my bag for tmr
super chiongxcz.
today i am grateful for-
Delaila, Vivienne, Xiying and Glennard. (in no particular order)
thank you for being so committed and helpful, you just helped relieve my workload. LOVE MUCH.
with the abovementioned help, the following will be completed by tmr morning - POTC detailed prog POTC Games Matrixes Tshirt checklist OGL Attendance OGL Deployment (updated) Detailed Orientation Prog List for day 6-9
i am happy. and i can sleep in peace. (i almost posted rest in peace ...)
school today was alright. didnt do much today in terms of learning. cept for econs lect, which was wah-so-lost-y for me.
met the a4 girls in the beanbag room (my soon to be fav place i think :D) and laughed bout things, set dates and just talked) i miss a4 super much, sigh.
i'm pretty alright with my class though (: collected loadsa stuff from uncle henry (so heavy omg) and i just checked Aspire - need to collect geog book in time for the lecture tmr morning.
and i just rmbed that i have to do art research. which means, no more blogging.
so yea. art research, transfer to thumb to print at the other comp, wash up, SLEEP.
i'm three steps away from sleep (: goodnight, world :D
ps. to assure anyone and everyone that i am still happy-
Sunday, January 11, 2009
butterflies in my stomach says: yea haha and laugh butterflies in my stomach says: and smile butterflies in my stomach says: LOL sigh
(: on a brighter side, i had a good study session today (: i think MOS is my fav fast food now (: and where we studied is my fav study place (: its comfy, not too cold, empty and conducive. i like it there.
oh cept today the sec sch kid who was so annoyingly trying to get an add math tb really was hilarious and amusing and not to mention SO ANNOYING.
met my family for dinner at the soup spoon (: yummyyyyyy (:
and a bit of window retail therapy helped. anyways there's the pink crumpler that i wanna get. and then there's this marcjacobs ring that i wanna get. (and i'm sad i cant find a photo of it online ): ) haha.
yea. (: but i feel better now (: gotta wake up earlyearlyearly for sch tmr (:
YO, GET WELL SOON :D (i'll bring more tissue lol)
OKAY I AM REALLY STRESSED OUT. TMR IS KINDA LIKE THE BIG DAY. AND I KNOW THAT FREAKING OUT IS MY WAY OF PREPARING MYSELF FOR SMTH THAT I KNOW I'M NOT REALLY THAT CLOSE TO SCREWING UP IN THE FIRST PLACE BUT I STILL HAVE BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
superbad headache >:(
Friday, January 09, 2009
today started off stressful, it was a little boring and tiring in the middle, but it ended up cathartic, relieving, and happy (:
special thanks for making my day bearable: de, chris, hafiz, dudley, and glennard (:
things seem clearer with you guys around (:
and omg super much thanks to clifford (: for being the super genius who manage to retrieve all m SIM contacts. :D
and the song of the day is Can i have this dance. (:
okay -yawnssss i am sleeeeepy. school again tmr for 12hours, that makes 25 hours of school for fri and sat.
tell me about it (:
HI CHRIS :D LOLLL.
Thursday, January 08, 2009
today i realised that i need to get a tighter grip on everything. instead of being frustrated over it.
its normal to get less credit.
today i really hate the unfairness of everything.
my younger sister is a nuisance.
thanks to her, there is a friggin cockroach at the side of my bed.
which means no sleeping in my room tonight, as long as its dead body is not cleared out of my room. so yea. like today wasnt unfair enough.
and now my whole room smells like friggin pesticide.
i dont know where to go today :/
i just wanna get out of here and study. i just want to get my mind off things.
i think i cant wait for school to start, cos i'll be too busy to worry. i am looking forward to getting started on coursework.
today.
i woke up to bad news. which leads me to one conclusion, life is unfair.
no matter who you are, or what you do, something unfair that makes you really upset is bound to happen to you.
and its unfair and suck-ish like that, but as i say, the best and most effective thing is to accept it, make it as right as possible and move on.
i guess in this way i'd pretty much make a horrible lawyer, for not arguing my own case.
but yea, i'd much rather use my energy in making it better again, then arguing for smth i might not win. wastes my time.
so yea, shit happens. just deal with it like its ice cream.
i'm pretty ticked off.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
♥ sighhhh.
got a new sim card already (: lost contacts though ):
aaand no sch tmr, means hw&study day. haha sigh.
school was okay today, eventhough i woke up late again and ended up lazycabbing (lazycabbing refers to cabbing to school when you can make it for the bus if you rush but you are lazyyyy so you just cab) - and yes i made that word up lol. oh and after school, i was a farmer for awhile haha. somewhat.
(: i bought new supercute robot earrings today :D not supposed to be shopping but i couldnt help it. i shall wear them out tmr (even if they dont match yay) lol. :D
okay i think i am high and happy for some reason or other..
and the song of the day is still, lovebug. ♥
MY SIMCARD JUST DIED ON ME AT 12PM TODAY. AND I JUST GOT HOME. GOING TO GET A NEW ONE. TILL THEN, I AM LITERALLY UNCONTACTABLE. it feels like i am in vietnam.
I LOST ALL MY CONTACTS ): so yea, if you can guys, i'd really appreciate it if you msg me if i had your number previously (:
thanks.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Why are there so many songs about rainbows and what's on the other side?
today was productive. in a spray paint-y, art-y, shocking-y, study-y, coincidental way.
if you know what i mean :D
Monday, January 05, 2009
tangled. heart. lightning.
this cant be happening.
today's meetings were good. managed to settle things.
got spray paint in silver, black and white. and now i'm confused.
i dont want things to screw up, i'm a control person like that.
(: photoshop doodles and graphic designs for fun, are a.w.e.s.o.m.e.l.y destressing.
Like behaviorist therapists, you don't seem to think that people can change the world around them and so should focus instead on making a difference where they can--in themselves. Instead of advising that friends tell someone off or try to talk through their problems with people, you probably suggest they change their outlook and focus on the important things in their lives. Your counseling motto might be something like this: Who cares what other people think or say? It's how you deal with it that's important.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
i just love jason mraz.
readme.
i think i'm the kinda girl.
who never forgets
and i'm not refering to things like,
remembering what books to bring to school.
i'm talking about things i've shared with people.
be it trust, love, lies.
(and i'm not just putting lies for emphasis or contrast)
its not that i dont want to forget, or that i cant forget.
its that its just hidden subconsciously in my head,
and well,
when i chance upon it, its a sweet memory when its been there long enough
kinda like making wine.
AND
if you draw a parallel between those memories, and the whole winemaking process,
you can infer,
that time heals all.
it might not make much sense to you,
(it could be more of a personal thing)
but on second thought and stricter scrutiny,
(i must argue that-)
its true.
with that said,
i smile at the memories;
the ones i've accepted as over.
but for those which i never really gave proper thought or decision to-
sometimes i still feel the anger
and thats undeniably so.
i guess you can argue that the only reason that happens is that i'm not over it.
but i beg to differ (:
its just the sour before the sweet.
i never thought that i'd catch this lovebug, again.
so after redeploying ogls, and settling tmr's prog, i am done with today's work quota :D i still have prog lists to review. but i'm still waiting for them to get sent to me, so i guess now i have the time to flutter around in my own thoughts (:
its 2009 and i still
get utterly annoyed by people who steal cabs. have a lot of work to do and yet i'm lovin' it -most of the time (: am holding some grudges love the 21st SC totally, despite the stress and frustrations sometimes havent cut my hair since MYEs havent gotten a new watch, specs, socks like horses and unicorns a lot keep falling sick :/ have the same hp as two years ago. want school to start. and cant wait for my birthday (:
past few days have been nothing short of happy, productive to a certain extent. only thing, ): no unicorn. haha sigh oh well.
I have to go out later to get tapeee. lotsa tape.
and right now for some reason or other i am feeling happyyyy :D and i think lovebug is a nice, funloving song. haha. i think the happy vibes could be due to the song. LOLLLL. k i shall stop ranting. :D
Friday, January 02, 2009
awesome like that.
with that said, HELLO 2009 :D
i've already got so much work ahead of me (: (as usual... :D) and i'm set to get started and ready to delve into the year. please treat me well (: i have a pretty shallow weight related new years resolution at thre present moment and i will post a new one as soon as i think of it (:
i think generally, my resolution is - to keep at it. (:
and i am going to stay happy like i am :D and the song in my head is, lovebug. (:
2008 has been amazing, time to reminisce (:
pae at TemasekJC was really memorable. i'll let the photos fo the talking. scip, planning and running orientation was my life then (:
thanks to cadence, ziko, josh, jon, chester, mellll, sendy, wen shin, sean, nivia, huiyi, sin yee and the whole lovely E! Comm for being a part of my experience (:
not to mention the angels and mortals- zhong ting, marcus, eugene, jon (:
andddd pae 30/08! germaine, clare, vibs, weiyang, sonika, chiaps. miss you guys sosupermuchomg.
hi i love you son :D
and then came the blessing in disguise (: SRJC (: love much 1A04. 21st SC love.
aaand singing with the choir (:
and of course, last and certainly not the least, SRGCE VIETNAM. LOVE YOU GUYS WAY MORE THAN LOADS.
and i guess there's no denying that i miss vietnam super alot. and i miss those councillors who cant promote up with us, really alot and i miss 1A04 SUPER MUCH. because you guys were beyond awesome. and i know that i will never find another class i love as much. missing you guys tons and tons. you guys were the people who tolerated my retardedness, workaholic-kiasu-ness, tears, smiles and everything. i will especially miss- fonteyn, sarah and jeremy.
and not forgetting all the other friends i've made in SR (: thank you for a lovely 2008, Nad, Gina, Dudley, Lewis, Nevin, Andrew, Sean, Ratna, Fatin, Natasah, Izza.
i will miss 2008, but i'm looking forward to 2009 (:
Thursday, January 01, 2009
photos from island on new years eve. t
that day was superawesome :D
i dont have time to blog about the new year and resolution and stuff as yet (: guess this is a very apt juxtaposition of the year ahead.