i cant really find a picture that would scream drained and tired out. so i guess i'll settle with this.
to be very frank, my life revolves around school. in nearly every possible way. apart from the fact that i have to sleep in my bed at home, more than half my day is spent in school.
life everyday is about art. is about econs tutorials. its about geog drqs, reading geog slides. its about practising h1 maths. its about council work. its about trying to squeeze time out of you, for me. its about staying back late, late, late to do art.
its about having to forgo consultations for other subjects. its about having smth from the cafe for dinner. and thats it. its about getting more pimples, less sleep, sneezing more, and feeling sick.
basically its about having no time for other things which arent A level related. i'm not complaining really, these are facts, apart from my tone.
life at this point, if i looked at myself, really isnt easy.
then again, no one said it would be. esp not with h2 art.
so i guess i just got to stick with it and remind myself to. just that once in awhile. i just feel like really. just, tired of everything.
maybe i'm just in a bad mood and just FRIGGING TIRED. but yeah i've loaded about all my stress and fogh9u2194-jifvnwaofn-ness here, so i should be able to sleep. now i just need to wait for you.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
this made me cry. and cry and cry.
cos its really touching. and everything. :'( (and i'm a sucker for this kinda thing...)
the best kind of boyfriend, is the kind who youtube's how to be a perfect boyfriend. who always tries. :D
Monday, April 27, 2009
haha its no kick, but i scored a penalty goal today :D
thats about the most happening thing, apart from the party last night :D to which i wore the longsleevedtopshopblueandwhitestripey shirt for the first time lol. my one and only pair of black shorts, the comfy heels and and and- my primary SIX prefects tie (: it was good memory :D photos soon.
tomorrow is tuesday and i am looking forward to school :D cos art is picking up andddddd i have one and a half hours of break from 8-9.30am :D and it just seems more interesting then home :D (though i will prolly regret saying this tmr LOL)
okay its almost 12 ! i should go sleep soon. (:
Saturday, April 25, 2009
today was tiring. in school for almost the whole day.
then Chinatown with mummy later at night to get my material for art (: i also got cute ribbon diamon(d)-y stud earrings and this thingy thing to make rings if i find nice buttons (:
mummy and daddy got me a new mattress- i just changed my mattress and the bedsheet, and now i am sneezing terribly- cos of the dusttttt (must be)
anyways ! its been a week, and i am still thinking of this- so tmr if i feel up to it, i shall go get :D
right now my nose is so sore and i have been sneezing and sneezing :/ okayyyy you should totally see the number of tissues i've used so far hurrr.
okaaaay so i shall go and sleep nowwww. feel damn sian and sick cos of the sneezing and runny nose hurr.
hopefully tomorrow i'll feel better. (:
Friday, April 24, 2009
sr olympics was better than last year i must say (: i was really shagged by the end of the day. tmr i will be back in school for art.
balancing everything is getting to be tiring now. not that i am going to drop any commitments.
i am taking a break by watching 90210 (:
Thursday, April 23, 2009
today was kinda worst than the day before emotionally. it worked out though it was badddd.
art boards are going to be reviewed on saturday, like ahhh.
i am horribly tired. tmr's SR Olympics (please dont let it rain)
and i will spend the better half of the day handing over to the J1s (which is going to be interesting) then doing art :D then dinner :D
and its scary that after tmr, it'll be saturday all over again. (:
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
pick-me-ups.
crying just shows we're human.
i'll be loving you until
today was kinda a bad day. sigh.
you compensated for everything, honestly. council time did too. i'm not really looking forward to stepping down. i'm scared of how the change will be.
council is like, this whole part of my jc life. and without it, i'm afraid of feeling partially empty. thats like, how i honestly honestly feel. its like, been a rough ride, no denying that. most times i cry is cos of stress (presidents are fallible.) -not that i do very often.
but the point is, the times that i do, its more often than not council induced stress.
such that council means smth significant to me.
21st, love.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
rockfest really was the highlight of my day,
and it was rocking.
couldnt hear myself but it was awesome (:
it looks like i am so going to have a sore throat tmr....
but what gives :D
haha when i wore what i wore i kinda figured that rock wasnt me.
lol, though i realised that i'm pretty flexible.
and this week,
i really learnt quite a number of things about myself.
let me share.
(because sharing helps me consolidate everything..)
and anyways,
i think self realisation is a pretty awesome feeling.
sometimes (:
i realised that when i get stressed out,
its the time when i want to really just, rely on myself.
maybe its a fear of things going wrong if i rely on others.
its a tried and tested thing from history i guess?
i realised that sometimes,
i push myself,
just to prove things to myself.
like how i was (honestly) really not so much into the rock thing.
it made me feel awkward to an extent,
and kind of insecure cos i wasnt really confident.
i guess in the end,
forcing myself to face it helped (:
which really draws me the the conclusion-
me, facing things which i choose to face,
gets me through.
and thats enough (:
so anyways,
rockfest was awesome.
but i've got school tmr..
(aha so do you)
so i am going to shower then catch some ZZZs.
Monday, April 20, 2009
its monday and i am really shagged! :/// roughly what happened today - played soccer ! quite funnn! haha, i have to go batheeee soon. art was productive, have to chiong my long overdue essay by tmr :/ i am motivated to do art though (: cos i'm heading somewhere :D excited excited for tmr's rockfest and gaiamania! no doubt i am going to be REALLY tired though :/ not to mention there's that art essay to do :///
okay and as of now, i cant seem to stand girls who act chio.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
today is one of the happiest days of my life. (: so this weekend turned out great (: i have never been happier :D -and i am well aware that i keep saying this lol.
and i'm just reallyreallyreally very glad for today :D love you so much. :D
(: tmr is going to be awesome (:
(eventhough i still have my art essay to complete :X ) today i feel accomplished because- i woke up early for a saturday did some art in school had lunch at pohpoh's went for choir photoshopped the supercomplicated SR olympics logo (:
:D and now i'm waiting (:
feel very happy eventhough i am very tired :D
Friday, April 17, 2009
TMR IS SATURDAY (:
another weekend is here. its really pretty scary and quite intimidating, everything. its really fast.
as much as i want it to be over, i dont want to lose the time now, or use it wrongly.
tmr's saturday, and its packed. school in the morning, lunch at pohpoh's, choir.
i'm just about looking forward to art tmr, and of course choir (:
and not forgetting sunday (: other than that, that's it though. the weekends are seemingly becoming like weekdays, cyclical.
but i guess thats the way it goes, we live life in days, weeks, months and years anyways.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
today i wasnt feeling well. so i took early leave. tmr i will get by, without an MC eventhough i still feel kinda awful :/
dinner was good. tmr'll be good, i hope.
need to finish photoshopping for art, cos i dont like using the MAC.
okaaaay i shall go finish up so that i can sleep early eventhough i slept from 12-3pm and 5-730pm. (:
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
okay so today i am really kinda tired :/ major headache before art, after ecobag sales booth duty. so as usual, my blogging style is resolved to rants, random thoughts and short inklings of happenings(or the lack thereof).
its been an amazingly humid day. learning about winds in geog and everything makes me feel like migrating polewards! eventhough i know i'm just saying (: lol.
so yea, bigggg headache which got better after the bubble tea and panadol :D thanks love. (: had cca, the rehearsal was good (: have things to tie down though :/ damn tiredddd tonight, prolly going to sleep earlyyyy.
didnt do too much work today :X :/ which is bad but sighhh i'm shagged. so i guess i shall go sleep sooon. photoshop gets sian, esp when the magic wand cuts the hues so roughlyyyy.
at least i got photos from chrispy (:
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
(:
today in random order as i recall.
-econs test went well considering i only spent < half an hour of break studying for it :X -painting was good today (: managed to do another dry black acrylic painting which turned out pretty (: -i ate a beef burger at 5pm and it was great (: -i did some retarded stuff with sam and sarah :D haha till i was so tired and cabbed homeeee!
(: thats about it (: haha, dont really feel like blogging in detail... so i shall blog some random stuff now.. lol.
i feel like eating -softshell crab handroll -smoked salmon -shrimply cheese wrap -grandma's fish
:D and i am looking forward to school tmr :D (not because i end at 3.3opm) because i have art tutorial and photos to print and draw yay. and i have someone to look forward to seeing everyday of course ! :)
(: i like how tonight i am really tired ! and i cabbed home from school you know. first time in the yearrrr. but ! i am stilll happy :D
:D like how i'm never going to lose you.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
♥ you're in every corner of my heart.
happy easter (:
today was pretty awesome.
lunch was lovely (: the rare time when i actually want to eat and eat. not like most of the time when i eat cos i have to, apart from eating when i'm hungryyyy. (:
went to borders again ! to enjoy the good discount lol. (: the heels were killing me. the waist belt was bearable though. havent worn a skirt to church in quite awhile..
got a book on the vietnamese language (: which i will learn to destress (: i am pretty inspired by the idea of teaching there someday (:
walked round isetan and then went to grandma's for tea and dinner. *yawn.
felt like sleeeeeeping alot lol. we left laterrrr i didnt eat much at dinner- since at lunch it was concluded that i wasnt going to eat at all lol.
kinda grumpyyy cos we left pretty late and i had practically nothing to do then...
so anyways i am finally homeee now :D (: feeling kinda glad for today :D at the same time, (dreading) tomorrowwww.
its called the sunday night feeling. when the lovely weekend, which gave you two days of escape. -and when i say escape, i mean studying, but at least not in school so i can wear and do whatever i like without worrying much, you get the general idea hurr
i have somemore art to do before i go to bed heh. (then why on earth am i blogging) i need to be more organised and have a proper x 748920473921039 list of things to do. so that i actually do everything, instead of remembering some, forgetting some, remembering some which i initially forgot and thinking of some new ones. i am a sucker for note books. because halfway, i stop using them hurr.
but anyways, an art notebook would do (: (since i have art everyday of the week dots)
anddd my mummy just gave me one :D which motivates me all over again for art :D art itself is a rollercoaster for me yo.
and i just discover lookbook.com, which is amazingly awesome and more awesome (: sarahquekruizhen you should totally check it out (:
okay so anyways, school's tmr. i've got the new jotterbook to do art yay. so i shall go do that right about now.
(: see you and have a surviving week. note to self: MYEs are in a month and a week.
SUPPORT GAIA MANIA (: and the buy the eco bags, friends ! :D
i just took about two hours doing these (: and now i shall go sleep- super tired.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
so today, amidst the stressstressstress of the impending myes -and not to mention A levels, we caught Know1ing (:
which was really pretty good, the suspense built up throughout the movie was good, eventhough towards the end it became kinda cliche. i thought that the blurring of the genre of the movie- between thriller and horror, made it appealing (:
at all the scary-ish parts i couldnt stop myself from covering my face with my fringeee. and i couldnt help but tear at the enddd. lol (apparently it is amusing to see me cry haha)
it was a good movie though. it averted from the cliche happy ending, which was relatively refreshing although subtly devasting to me in particular.. wholly, i think i enjoyed it more than Street Fighter, for sure (: but then again, whats to compare with Street Fighter.
And todayyyy... was the first day of wearing my SUPERPINK adidas sneakers lol. definitely caught some stares haha. and the kindess campaign volunteer guy said they were very bright. LOL. Still ! i like them :D they make me feel like a girly girl (: and they make me feel really bubbly haha, for some weird reason. maybe cos they're so loud? idk lol.
went to borders too (: they had a good discount (: so i got cute wrapping paper and some printed tissue for art, and the latest issue of seventeen.
had a good dinner, and i think i am super super super full now. (: i shall do some art now, then go sleep early (: tmr's easter (: aaand this weekend has been productive art wise (: but other than that :/ welllllll at least i'm not in econs hw deficit :D
i suddenly remembered that there's an econs essay lecture test coming up :X panic.
if i recall correctly, this is the fourth post for today. (: i must be really bored :///
anyways :D to make things more concrete, tmr i shall wake up at 9am, so as to complete my girl on swing exploration! :D aaand then go out :D and i cant wait to go out! (: eventhough i am very annoyed that my nose KEEPS RUNNING :/ and i'm losing my voice thanks to pringles and doritos! aaand i am getting fat- thanks to all the food. and no more napfa to stop me much.
okaaaaay i shall go get ready for bed since it its twelve eighteen, even though i woke up at close to 1pm today, lol.
oh and HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LAURA (: LOVE YOU LOADS.
Friday, April 10, 2009
cant wait for tmr, now :D ♥
Now if only it was my birthday again....
i just found THE Marc Jacobs ring i have been looking for forever since i saw it in teenvogue. the fuchsia is superpretty (: -cos i only saw ivory and orange colours in teenvogue. its really pretty ex though :X lollll. :D talk about the wonders of the internet.
always be my A***
A for pw (: sarah and i were very relieved (:
i'm extremely pleased (: sarah and i got our deserved As. considering how we worked so freaking hard. and how i didnt sleep the ENTIRE night before the submission of the WR. -beams. so i guess thats ten points down (: 70 more to go yo (: looking at As for Geog, GP, H1 math and Art. and hmm, B for Econs?
got a long way to go for econs and maths man. better get working.
for now, the weekend seems almost wasted- at least from today's point of view, since i am stuck at home and sick. i have (almost) no mood to do anything which kind of sums up the no mood part. but oh well? guess i gotta force myself toooooo.
wish you were here.
okay so anyways, i cannot stand my sister. i cant wait till she grows up. otherwise i have never been more sure that i am not going to sit at the same table as her at my wedding.
anyways i think i made a mistake when i left my watercolour paints in school, cos i honestly feel like doing a watercolour painting right about... now. but its in the art room, so heh. looks like i will have to resort to.. sewing.
even 3000 photos of SRGCE@Vietnam2008 wouldnt make me want to go back to Vietnam any less.
i hate my sister.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
so suddenly i thought of you and this song popped into my head. haha i like how its catchy seeing as how it has absolutely no connection to our context lol.
i just watched episode 19 of 90210 (: which is about the only show i follow since grey's anatomy started to get too confusing.. i almost cried when they broke up but sigh...
anyways now that i'm done watching 90210, i only have one thing on my mind, PW RESULTS ARE OUT TMR AT 3.30pm. SHUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKS. dontknowhowtosleeptonightalreadyah....
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
for who i am (:
i still have the show stuck in my head !
anyways! i am on mc today :/ flu and viral infection.. which is really annoying, but oh well. this is kinda a break i guess? though its just a one day thing which really doesnt help much, lol.
being a jc kid really means, not having much of a life, other than studies and in my case, art. so i guess, i just gotta deal with it and look forward to December.
and i am really really looking forward to Dec. you have no idea (:
art is getting to be scary now. in the sense that i still havent got material to present, or a clear idea of what i'm doing. i dont like being unfocused as such, but well, hopefully things will begin to shape up soon?
i think i ought to be resting now, since i still feel so sickly and awful. and i hope that when i wake up, everything will be better (:
(:
Sunday, April 05, 2009
two words, freaking tired.
because i just read someone's i want list, and i feel like doing my own.
i want to be done with jc2 i want to be motivated enough to study damn hard for a levels i want that to pay off i want to go for choir again and yet have time for you, and you, and you i want to be less complainy i want to shop i want to go to vietnam all over again and be happy and peaceful there i want to smile, without the doubt that stress will wipe that away within less than 24hours i want to be free, from work - particularly econs i want to use watercolour, colour pencils, pencils and do art. and do art and do art. i want to stop time so i can sit with you and not have to lose the moment i want to stick with you i want to move out i want to be pretty i want to be as strong as i was before i want to get married and live happily ever after. i want to never disappoint.
there are so many things i want. i know i've got to wait.
90210 talk.
i am in the middle of my collage, done watching episode 17 of 90210.
i wanna see where naomi and liam end up. cos as bad boy-ish as liam is, he's really sweet and protective and that just screams aww so sweet esp for a bad boy type.
i always cant wait for the next episode. i dont really like where silver and dixon are heading. i dont like kelly and matthews and all those extra people lol.
i dont like annie and ethan having broken up. maybe because they were all happy before and i am a sucker for happy endings.
so anwaysy its 1237am :X i think i ought to be sleeping since i'm not doing work. but sighhh, somehow i dont feel satisfied enough to sleep. its like something's missing from today.
and i know what it is ):
Saturday, April 04, 2009
(: bugis street shopping today :D (is kinda giving me a guilty conscience but heck, its the thing to sub for time with y.o.u.)
spent $21! on the following -a grey and black triangle top :D which i later realised would totally match esplanade :D LOL (which is what my bag's called lol) -sugarcane juice -a belt for my sister -a small watch ! haha.
yea thats about it :D kinda happy. have to get sketching for art ! have yet to complete the sketch of the stressed adult. aaand i still have the a4 collage :/
and ah midyears are 46 days away. talk about a wake up call. okay i will start work at 9pm. :D
Friday, April 03, 2009
until you come outside says: just sit next to each other
until you come outside says: and just sit
until you come outside says: yeaaaaaa
until you come outside says: i could do that forever i think
here's a potential awesome weekend :D even though you're missing....
(: looking forward to outing with sarahquekruizhen and photoshoot with fon and athene (: anddd completing that sketch :D aaand completing that collage.
anddd i cannot stand my sister. she needs to stop thinking she's right. and stop being so rude. thats like one of the main reasons why i cant wait to get out of this house.
Thursday, April 02, 2009
thursday was good,
wayyy better than i thought it would be (considering that thursdays are my longest days and i dont like ct very much)
i liked the geog consultation. it was very productive. (: looking forward to thursdays now.
that aside, tmr is FRIDAY :D the last school day of the week yo. :D happiness.
right now i am looking for images of stressed out adults to draw (: have to get that done during art tmr. and ah the collage. this weekend is packed with work, and it aint even here yet.
i have this song stuck in my head hurr. kinda like it. right round by Florida