and suddenly i hear them.
i've also been really happy the past few months.
or should i say hours.
but it is something that i hear everytime.
and that's how i am when i like someone when i'm with someone when i'm getting with someone.
and it works.
as long as we're happy it's fine.
as long as we're happy it's fine.
they seem to be getting there and it's too much for me.
i dont know why people do this.
but i think it'll be interesting to study this psychologically.
but it's also damn complicated so i dont think anyone can ever figure this out properly.
the sun sets.
Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want.
and then it'll be recess week.
being less restricted in terms of consequences.
and my made up chinese name- li wen.
HAHA dont laugh.
there's this amusement whenever i attempt to converse in any other language apart from english,
so there dont laugh.
and yes i am still in hall.
i shall do this....soon.
feels good like this.
living in hall has also been nothing short of epic awesome.
been spending more nights and early mornings chilling in ahmad's room in hall 11 lately.
re: popcorn, seaweed, seaweed chips, salt and vinegar chips, post cereal, koko krunch, wang wang, sweets, crysanthemum tea
is making me fat.
baddd.
but whatever i guess, as long as i'm <50>
so okay i should shut up.
(: it's all been good as ever
and yeahhh imma be happyyyygirl91 for a longgggg time
this weekend's gonna fly by,
seeing as how it's already sunday tmr (:
kinda looking forward to the next week of school
even though i think choosing 930am chinese classes are a bad idea zzz.
okaaaay i cant wait for the mac to come so i will finally have sufficient scratch disk space to
photoshop all the awesomeness i want :D
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
hi you're awesome
this has got to be the first time that i'm blogging mid week in awhile.
i'm currently in sch, (and by sch i mean wkw)
and attempting to finish more readings.
managed to complete quite a number of readings today,
even after sleeping super late last night
or should i say,
super early this morning.
there really isnt much for me to give details on nowadays.
it all mostly revolves around hall,
the usual waking up,
going for a shower,
packing for sch,
going for lunch
waiting eons for the bus
heading to school
being in school
hanging around school
heading back to hall
(which i like to call home now)
and then slacking with the usuals
and then snacking
sometimes showering then
sleeping.
that's basically my day in a nutshell.
nothing much for me to be blogging aboutttt.
then of course i've established that life's been all awesome
so you can prolly figure i'm leaving out smth on this blog,
hahaha go figure.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
things've been every bit as awesome as in the previous post,
if not more.
last night was wkwsci's d&d
it was pretty awesome.
it was held at oosh at dempsey,
not the usual ballroom kinda d&d,
so it was different from the start,
and it was different-good.
headed to zouk with the girls and the usuals after that (:
it was full of wkw ppl since we had the free pass.
it was a fun night for so many reasons.
it was awesomeee.
will post photos when they're up (:
with that said,
nerdmode is officially on.
i've been feeling like i havent been studying, studying
you cant really study, study per se
it's more like doing readings and being more knowledgeable bout the courses you're taking
so yeah i need to start getting down to that properly.
right now i'm just all attentive in lectures,
but not doing much reading prior to them.
i feel this general unsettling undirected feeling where studying is concerned
and i've been procrastinating finding that proper focused feeling for two weeks now.
but okay, it's the third week and i'm awake.
not gonna be missing classes anymore.
there's something very disjoint about the essence of hall life integrating into my life.
cos every weekend i come home
and it's like
wait arent i living in hall
and it's somewhat a misalign now.
i feel like my room isnt my room at home,
it's my room in hall.
and the only difference is my family.
i'm happy now, no doubt,
but things're different now where school work and studying's concerned and i'm seeing this now.
it's not the same (duh)
and it's going to take some getting used to.
cos i doubt i am used to it already.
for one small thing, choosing what to wear every day is a pain.
okay i dont wanna turn this into a whole rant post.
i just feel so bored at home on weekends now,
most of the time,
all i do is look forward to going back to ntu on sunday night.
and i think i feel weird cos i think there's something wrong with that but i cant seem to pinpoint what it is and at the same time i dont know if it's okay and normal to feel that way,
so it's weird.
it helps to know that things always sort themselves out eventually,
even if not now,
so either way,
i'm getting there and that's fine.
Monday, September 13, 2010
too awesome.
(creds to tumblr)
okay so it has been brought to my attention that i have seriously been neglecting this blog.
it's quite a thing (i'm trying not to use the word phenomenon here)
for me to not blog regularly.
i mean, since A's ended i'd have like up to three posts a day.
i guess you can really see the contrast between me being free and slacking
and uhhhh busy (if i can consider what i'm doing nowadays as busyyyy)
so since the last time i blogged was last monday...
i have a lot to...report?
lol.
i'll just give a brief summary of some eventful stuff
cos i honestly doubt i can recall every single thing that's happened in detail lol.
and i keep giving these generic posts about how life has been awesome sans all the details
(which i bet is really what you want to read but lol sorry nosuchluck)
so yeah last week in a nutshell....
first official proper week of school.
i'm taking some pretty awesome electives that i like
chinese is looking tough.....but i'm sure i'll get by.
which leads me to the next point,
i didnt go for the first two chinese classes cos i couldnt find the venue lol.
apart from that,
i'm doing fineee.
lecture style is pretty alright but i find the pace kinda....slow?
maybe cos it aint very structured as yet.
like i cant see the boundaries of what we're learning per se.
hoping this will take shape soon.
otherwise i'm beginning to feel this whole unfocus-ness
that is very unsettling where being driven and motivated is concerned.
apart from school, school.
life's been awesome (:
(hahaha i should count the number of times i've typed this,
but those who know will know i really mean awesome when i say awesome :))
among other random updates,
i'm running for social sec of the CI club,
and the rally speech is tmr,
i'm getting kinda psyched and stressy over it
which is very much me-ish to do,
but yeah i'll get by.
just woke up brightandearly (okay la not so but yeah effort okay)
to make posterssss.
had quite a bit of fun with these (:
then proceded to put them up in sch with limwoan a bit later on
after late lunch with fuzzy too.
nowwwww it's sixish and it's an hour plus till dinner at canteen2.
i am still stressing over tmr's rally in my subconscious.
i am also stoked about getting a macbook
(yes my dell is dyingggg, really dyingggg)
i am going to make it mine,
like really make it mine
so that when i see it,
i will know, it's mine.
haha okay i think you get the idea.
i dont mean mine in the selfish way,
i mean it in the personalized way heh.
okaaay being in ntu makes me want to freeze all else that's happening outside.
there's still a pseudo disconnect with my family and other friends that i havent really come to terms with yet in terms of striking a balance i suspect.
i guess physical distance does make a whole ton of difference after all.
i have this annoying habit of contemplating possibilities
like thinking of what coulld have been
and honestly right,
it doesnt even bite me at the ankles anymore thinking that i was wrong.
and somedays i feel so ready to take over my own life.
to do all the things that i want to do,
to carry out all my plans and hit my ambitions.
but somedays i feel so tied down to who i am and how it all works
(in the grand scheme of things as it would be)
it's like i cant wait to grow up and do whatever i want.
(i know one day when i'm older i will laugh at myself wanting this)
Monday, September 06, 2010
okaaaay it's my second week in hall and i am still loving it so much :D
heading out to town tonight so i'll blog bout my official first day in school in a short while
(when i get back)
watch this spaceee
SAY HI TO MY ROOMSWEETROOM
Thursday, September 02, 2010
Homecoming was alright. Wasnt feeling too good and didnt eat anything proper so i guess that made things worse for me. Being in and out of air con the whole day didnt really help either.
And i hate to say it
But i think tonight's the one night that I feel that I miss home and I miss the comfort of it.
And my parents and my brother.
And it's just a bit weird to have take five days to feel that, but yeah it did.
Suddenly I feel like this room the dust and the aircon and the bed against the wall is so alien and as much as I love this room (I know when I wake up tmr I'll be like, what were you thinking sam?!)
But yeah. For now it's this alien feeling that makes me want to shift my homesweethome here. And there's just something different bout being here tonight.
I'm beginning to think about what makes this room awesome to me.
The desk or the awesome board where I can pin all my stuff up
The closet, my own closet
A whole stash of food
The thick mattress
The whole notion of freedom and being able to live my life the way I want it now
I guess now I'm beginning to see that coming home to my family and my room and the whole idea of being with the people that you're closest to
The same people who accept you the best for who you are, even when you're damn grumpy and not yourself
Is what I've sacrificed for this.
Good morninggggg
it's 1115am on thurs,
and so it's my fifth night here in hall 14.
it's really been as awesome,
and i think i'mma end up missing this place when i have to go back home tmr (heh)
with that said,
there's some random things i need to get for next week
and now i roughly know what i forgot
and there's also all the sch stuff that i sent to print
not looking forward to having to travel all the way home by bus but yeah
have to lol.
i wonder if my bro will cry when i have to leave on sunday hehe.
okaaay so i went for my first uni lecture ytd,
which was EAR801,
it's natural hazards and society
which is really down my line
what with the insane geog studying for As.
i kinda thrashed that knowledge down some corner of my mind
so this will be refreshing
and i can tell it's from a different level
it's encouraging me to be more inquisitive i feel,
or maybe that's just how the lecturer packaged it ytd.
but either way it's working out
and i am more than keen to start learninggggg.
the lecture style's pretty alright,
but i think this is also because i'm a really light sleeper
and it takes more than the usual drone kinda voice to get me zzz-ing
but yeah (:
the lecture's like 3hours,
but all the breaks they give in btwn amount to like,
more than half and hour i think.
it's pretty free and easy,
where what you wanna do is concerned,
so i'm glad for that.
(:
todayyyy is the wkwsci welcome day.
it's kinda weird being welcomed when i've already been here
but i guess it's like an official thing
to psychologically wake yourself up for sch lol.
then there's homecoming at 7pm
(ooh i can hear the live firing from my room heh)
so yeahhhh.
okay i hope today'll be awesome.
kinda having butterflies in my stomach for some reason that i cant seem to figure out...
i'm going to shower.
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
so it's nearly 3am and i'm alone in my room (:
things've been prettydamnawesome these few days
having my own room is awesome,
esp after having shared one with my sister for the longest time.
it really is every bit as awesome as i imagined it to be.
if not, better :D
been doing some artsy stuff
tried experimenting with watercolourtiedye on paper
and with the new unicorn stamp i got awhile back
finally got down to picking up a stamppad at jurong point ytd so yay.
i've been trigger stamping
will post some shots of the stuff i've been doing SOON
(pfft i realise i left my camera cable at home...)
i've also been meaning to spend some time
to finish up a few random sketches which i've started (:
right now uni's been awesome.
hall's awesome
you're awesome
friends're awesome
and getting mods hasnt been too crazy and mad for me
so it's been good.
i've been getting phonecalls from the parents a lot,
which makes me feel like i'm not missing them enoughhh
since they're the ones calling
but i guess the whole i miss home feeling
will really start to sink in only in a few months when i get sick of food and everything
(this i maybe doubt because the freedom is so awesome)
tmr i've a lecture to attend,
first lecture for sem1
so i hope it's all awesome and nice and i wont be so noob
since i dont intend to bring my laptop there.
(:
i also get this weird feeling like there's FRESHMAN written all over my face.
but i guess that's prolly just be being paranoid (as prettymuch usual)
tomorrow is another day to look forward to cos most of my friends are moving into hall (YAY)
and we'll be visiting and all. (:
today was another awesome day,
though i spent time camping for mods (hehe)
(:
i really cant emphasize more
how awesome it's been so far
and i cant help but smile when i think
how it's only going to get better.
(bigsmileoverhere)
i've also been snacking a lot since i've been lazy to get proper meals heh.
to balance this out i got a weighing scale for the room to maintain my weight
and not let it fluctuate insanely while i'm at hall
(cos i know i am prone to having terrible eating habits)
apart from food,
bathing hasnt been an issue,
the shower's pretty awesome and i havent had to queue or anything so it's fine.
hall's all nice and quiet and it's nice and cooling.
i really am looking forward to spending the rest of the semester here.
(:
okaaaay it's 3am now,
and i gotta wake before 10 so that i can camp for ear801.
blog again tmr perhaps.
