TODAY WAS GREAT.


shopping with nana at far east was productive (:
i tried on many dresses.
haha, but being the fussy shopper that i am,
i ended up with three dresses (:
and a nice pair of star earrings!


we walked walked walked for three over hours at far east :D
i'm a good shopper :D
haha, had a lot of funny experiences with shop ladies who tried to psycho me into buying the dresses that i tried on (:
hahaha.
i'm slim enough for many dresses apparently (heh.)
LOLLL.


haha.
today made me realise how much i miss shopping (:


(:
my phone battery died halfway (lolll.)


anyways,
uncle herbin picked us up later and we had dinner at the upstairs of molly malone's (:
the ambience was really awesome-
with the star shaped dim glass lights and everything (:
and the food was super yummy (:
and the baileys was sweeeeeeeet ;)



i'm home now (:
going to sleep soon,
cos there's Narnia with the classmates tmr
and i cant wait :D


i'll leave you with a retarded question-
Do i walk like Super Mario ?!

i'm going shopping today.
omgggg.



i am happy!
:D


haha, supposed to meet andrew in the morning,
but we were both lazy and sleeeeeeepy.
lollll.



haha.
i need a name to name my turtle :D
any ideas?


have an awesome weekend everyone (((:
(heh this is such a retarded blogpost :P)


ps. i miss amanda, mel, germaine, wei yang and vibs ):

what does it take to piss me off?


today was good (:
it was about 75% retardedness.


improved on running (:


and i happen to be very bored now.

This is the colour for today (:


school today was pretty normal (:
haha.





continued on with my painting.
it feels pretty frustrating when i'm painting,
but when i finish for the day and look back at my painting,
it's like,
-smiles (:


i'll post a picture of it when it's completed (:



council was productive today (:
both the motto and logo're approved,
so yay (:


i am pretty pleased with everything today (:


there's a gp quiz tmr ! (:
and i'mma run tmr,
and maybe have macs breakfast.



it's beginning to feel like the holidays,
which is bad.
because i want to study and do well.
ah.
but i guess i'll be alright (:



this song is heart melting-y sweet (:
and i'm pretty smiley today (:


waiting for mummy to come home with the yummy donuts (:


oh and andrew is retarded (:


it's two days till saturday yay (:


today was a normal day.




reached school on time,
did my econs tutorial dutifully(what's new, lol)
attempted to do art but didnt feel like finishing the essay,
slacked at the cafe with andrew.


and so i have a pretty large amount of work to do now ):




1. Prepare for the timed practice tmr from the geog tutorial
2. Finish up the art essay (two more pages to go shucks)
3. Prepare for the maths lecture tmr with a few questions from the revision book
(i think i already did this. cept for the qns differentiation)





well, i guess that's not alot (:
i finished my econs online test :D


(:
and i gotta do work now ):

SO MANY THINGS
TO CARRY TO SCHOOL TMR
OH MAN.


WHINING
IS A
BAD HABIT.



Qn: Which points should you note (: ?


a) she is pretty busy NOW. She has to finish some last minute packing for camp, go and shower, finish a three part council proposal, do pw, and starstarstar do her painting. (and she has only done two out of the above mentioned)


b) she is blogging to wind down from her amazing run today
(she ran for FUN)


c) she is stressing cos she needs to finish her painting and that means sleeping after twelve,
which effectively means zombie-mode tmr.


d) She will be away from 3.15 pm tmr until 3pm on Sunday because she has Council Training Camp, during which she will be disciplined and not touch her phone at all (OH MAN but yea, discipline !)


e) She has to miss choir fundraising ):


d) She's looking forward to camp, eventhough it pretty much means byebye work-y weekend and hello rushing-pw-on-sunday-night (:


f) Samantha is sleepy. because as she's lettering the sentences, she typed a, b, c, d, e, d, f.


g) nights in advance gotta chao.


Answer: all of the above.


HEH.


YAY DAVID COOK :D

self-denial ?


and on an emo note,
i was in the gym today when Always be my baby started playing on the radio.
dont know why,
but i had to leave the gym after that.
idkw.
(i dont know why.)


:/
i've let go,
i have.

My busy ness is back.


Mel's post made me really really look forward to my invest (:
i'm keeping this short because i wanna sleep EARLY.


ah, i have econs hw to do ):
and other small things which i can vaguely remember,
need to sleep earlier so i can be awakeeeee.



i just went to check :D
there's only one essay question outline to do for econs yay :D
which means i can go and bathe now,
and sleep early and finish the essay tmr morning :D
i am happy.



ps. i've been in SRJC for 3 months now (:

i'm in a very frustrated mood.



so irritating.
hotmail cant attach files in photoshop format :(
i have gastric.
i am hungry.
i dont want to miss you.
i feel mood swingy.
and i dont care.
oh, and i dont know how i'm going to finish my painting ):
SIGHS.



yea, i'm having a bad day.
oh wells.
the happy thing is that the fundraising went well :D

hahaha.
(too bad.)

busy's my middle name again (:


I have this to do.
1. finish up the first draft of the proposal for council invest stuff
2. prep for morning announcements tmr
3. paint for art !
4. edit the script from daryl and send it to bill.
5. pack for tomorrow
-make sure i have my pe attire, canvas, palette, brushes.
6. Find out what to do about the photoshop thingy.
7. Upload the relevent documents into my thumbdrive in case i need them tomorrow.


today was a b*tchy day.
i like my hair though (:
okay i have to get painting now :D
(:

You'd be lonely.


I guess the one thing i dont like about sharing my feelings with people,
or opening up too much,
is that they'll use it against me.
when my right judgement turns out to be wrong,
that's when i realise my trust has been betrayed and used against me.
and it gets me all angry.
because you know what to say to get me down.
and i will never be able to forget that.


haha i can never imagine not getting married.
i mean,
so what if you have everything you ever want it life to make you 'satisfied' ?
there are somethings that money cant buy or satisfy.
wouldnt life be empty if one didnt have someone to share it with ?
that might be the conventional thinking,
but i think it's very much true-
not because i'm a lovey dovey romantic.


one'd get bored of life,
perhaps you can argue that you'd be happy with everything you had,
you wouldnt wanna risk screwing your life with a wife who's too demanding.
pardon me if i'm wrong about you,
but you wouldnt be complete without love.
and i'm not just saying it.
i think it's true.


anyways (:
it's a holiday today yay (:


:O


i just found out that mummy, daddy and zachary went to ps ):
without me !
and they had macs for breakfast !
shucks.


i'm going swimming later (:
i hope i get a tan !
(:


anyways,
i'm growing to like my hair the way it is now,
it's short, but feels so much lighter and healthier (:
haha.


I'm listening to David Cook,
his voice is lovely (: haha.
have a listen (:








we'll linger on.

Third post for the day,
tell me i'm bored :/




got insight and direction for PESA from mike :D
thanks loads !




(((:
researching for it now (:
i'm going to have a busy afternoon yay (:
i sound like a workafrolic, i am :D





i like printing lotsa research from the internet,
reading through them ,
highlighing stuff and rewriting it out.
but i only like it when it isnt an assignment, heh.
(:
my parents are home (:
and i feel productive because i'm done with researching for PESA (:


I wanted to go for the carnival at sji i ):
oh wells !



and i feel fat.





apparently tmr we're going swimming at aunty bevy's.
but i needa go to bras basah to get the banner printing details :/
not to mention there's the dinner with the aep girls :/
ah shucks!


so many things,
so little time.
at least i have like, no hw (:
cept art.



found this short video on youtube.
found it pretty cute.
it's dedicated to waterMELon (:



think of me.


I woke up at one pm today,
and i am almost convinced that i wont be able to sleep tonight.



every time i past the fourteenth of any month,
due to it's past singnificance,
i find myself dwelling in pathetic theories, wishful thinking and regrets.


So four days after what would have been over a year,
I'm still thinking of Valentines day,
this year,
it was a day that was different for me.
and shucks,
i just realised that i blew on my first valentines day being with someone.
aha.
it's an awkward realisation.


Then i examine myself,
and i wonder why on earth am i thinking that i blew my first valentines day which i could've spent with someone special?
I mean, it's a just a day.
and it's my own perspective of 14th February having to be special and lovey and mushy and thinking that it's supposed to be like that,
that makes me feel that way.


When i come to the bottom of it,
there is no doubt that valentines' day is overrated.
It's become so commercialised !
The whole message of Valentines day seems to be,
Your love is measured by what you buy.


and seriously,
relationships are complicated enough without having to stage a major performance on a designated day.
Valentines' day is supposed to be about love,
haha.


and giving each other stuff,
isnt what love is about.
It's much more complex than chocolates, a romantic date or flowers.
Love is muti-faceted.
To define it, would be only narrowing down it's true meaning i guess?


At the end of the day,
valentines day seems like a fad,
a yearly fad.
If you wish, dote on your love one especially much on valentines day,
but better yet,
show your partner you love him/her all other 364 days of the year.
It will make a greater impact,
than just doing so according to the calendar.


Even as i thought and typed that,
there's still a lovey-dovey romantic in me that swoons at numerous thoughts of hoepful valentines' day dates.
haha, i laugh at myself sometimes cos that seems so dumb.
and airheaded.


and i'm not like that (:
Anyways,
i havent found anything passionate to speak on for the 7min PESA speech.
it's getting me worried :/


any ideas ?
drop me a message thanks (:






remember me once in awhile,
please promise me,
you'll try.

i havent got much homework to do,
only council proposals due (:


and i just found out that the PESA speech for audition has to be SEVEN mins long.
man.

i'm forgetting the things i used to do.
i'm forgetting you.

SAY IT AGAIN.



events management workshop in the morning was alright (:
Econs lecture was pretty BLAH.

(: had bubble tea and bused home after that (:
eating the pearls in the bubble tea from behind school is slowly but surely going to be considered a skill.


had nasi lemak for lunch,
and because i'm auditioning for PESA,
i figured it'd be more apt if i begin to blog bout more in depth stuff once a week.
instead of just rants.
which means i'm going to start carrying around my yakpak tote and broader perspectives :D
shall read them when i'm free and alone,
instead of listening to music.
i'm beginning to think that listening to my ipod and messaging have become my security.
pretty pathetic in my opinion,
so that has got to go.
haha.


i'll start soon.
i cant seem to think of one specific topic which i feel strongly for,
which is bad.
gotta get thinking.



and there's choir in awhile.
gonna go practise songs.
(:
catch you later.
ah, i gotta rush.






and i shocked myself that i almost forgot something.


because today i felt like i made a difference.




this weekend is going to be boring ):
next weekend is going to be fun (:


fundraising efforts paid off pretty well (:
council today was fun (:
dinner with val, chocolate and hafiz.
so funny.
(:
hahaha.


i think i might wanna change my blogskin (:
i dont feel like blogging tonight (:
dont know why, heh.


(:
i have to go to school at 7.30am tmr.
LOL.


(:
but i'm smiling i dont know why heh :/


and the class blog is up!
my retainers hurt ):
and haha, this post is so so SO random.


realistic.



you've made her life kind of turn into a drama serial.
or even some highschool love story.
it's like you're competing or smth?
unconsciously;
she can detect it like a eating ice cream with a spoon that you dropped on the floor.


i dont know anymore.




haha, font asked me to do this.


1) At what age do you wish to be married?
26 and above


2) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you'd take and why?
Amanda
-cos i can talk to her about everything and anything,
we'd have so much to talk about that i prolly wouldnt even mind that we were stranded
Melanie
-talking to her is fun!
i can be random, and retarded and i can be myself (:
hahaha.
Andrew
-talking to him is retarded,
aha, keeps me laughing, so i wont think of all the sad things,
like being stuck on a deserted island.



3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Go to for a visit or what?
TJ (:
if overseas,
LA again, for shopping (:


4) If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
That i everyone has what they personally need to be satisfied in life.


5) Do you believe you can survive without money?
Nuh-uh.


6) What are you afraid to lose the most?
My loved ones.


7) If you win $1 Million, what would you do?
Invest one-third,
and go shopping with the rest.
treat my friends and family to a meal too (:


8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Depends, on the predicted reaction.


9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Opiniated, Interesting, Fun


10) What is your dream GIRL/BOY?
Someone who accepts my flaws and still loves me.


11) What kind of person do you hate the most?
People who give up on themselves.
Because everyone has potential.
It's God given,
and i believe it's a waste to slack it away.


12) If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
YES.


13) Unconditional Love, what does it means to you?
Truly accepting a person's flaws, and being able to care and trust another so much so that you're willing to make sacrifices for him/her.


14) Any wisdom to share with your readers
Everytime you're going through something difficut,
dont give up.
because you will pull through and come out stronger.


15) If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place or fight?
Never really thought about it. hmmm, fight i guess.
I cant leave my friends who have to fight here.


16) If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
The part of my character which thinks alot and starts to make me regret decisions.

17) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
I dont know.
I kinda go to different people for different stuff.
there's no one person i know who'd be able to have the time to listen to all my problems.
I can share my deepest most personal and like the kind of problems that might make you change your impression of me with Amanda, Mel, Zt, Jon, and Mike.


18) What's your weakest point?
Expecting too much from myself.


19) Think of the person who tagged you to do this quiz. What song do you relate him/her to?
Thanks for the memories ?
haha, no idea why, random entirely, but yea (:


20) What is the one thing you regret most?
Not doing enough to prevent myself from being hurt.


21)Name people who you want them to do this question.
Melanie,
and everyone else who feels like it cos i cant think of anyone else who hasnt done it.



(: just got back from dental, blogging from the school library.
AH, i have to do art soon.
Gonna print out some info on Chia Mia Tee's Workers in the canteen.


i sound funny ):




i'm in a snappy-i-dont-like-doing-pw-cos-it's-so-troublesome
why-cant-people-do-what-they're-supposed-to-do
it's-so-annoying-when-i-disappoint-myself
i-know-i-cant-do-everything-and-yet-i-still-try
i-guess-i-cant-make-up-for-other-people's-faults
why-cant-you-just-shut-up stop-thinking-you-re-better i'm-so-pissed-off
wake-up-from-everything-and-get-back-to-reality-dont-let-smth-small-get-to-you-it's-stupid
i-want-caramel-frap-again
i-need-a-break-from-stress-and-expectations
i-wanna-go-back-to-tj-and-be-happy-when-i-see-everyone-even-if-it's-just-for-awhile mood.


GP's starting..
and i'm hungry.

I'm in the school library doing pw now (:
and mr lim said one of our work was spot-on (:
so awesome.


i'm happy,
but snappy.
cos i get irritated everyday by the same annoyance.


lol.

but life still doesnt suck la,
there are so many other things to be smiling about (((:


maths is starting in awhile (:
update again later!

a part of me.


is mean and irrational.
the same part that assumes, complains, refuses to understand.
a part of me that's like a wall,
blocking the sea of reason from being accepted by the sand,
which is like my every thought;
needs sorting out.
but nearly impossible.


the part of me that's happy,
is pretty unstable.
happiness is so undefined,
who can define it for me but myself?


this happy part of me is very much linked to the part of me that is,
confused.
confusion is an obstacle for me.


there's a part of me that expects too much from myself.
that sets expectations to high.
it's like trying to jump over a wall that i can barely see the ledge of.
and yet i push myself.


there's a part of me that hates failing, drowning, falling,
to put it simply,
there's a part of me that hates screwing up.
because disappointing others is far from ideal.


there's a part of me that never stops regretting.
having to accept the very things i hate to even think about,
breaking up,
my o levels.
there's a part of me that never stops regretting.
and i still regret.


no doubt, there is
a part of me that's busy.
being busy keeps my mind focused.
and focus is important.
right?


there surely has to be a part of me that smiles,
like a little girl.
like a girl who's carefree.
free from stress, responsibilities, worries, troubles, confusion.
is there, really?
or do i just wish there was a part of me


that could smile without hiding a concern.


there's a part of me that cries.


but i have to say that the part of me that i like the most is the part of me that stays strong.
the part of me that keeps me going every day
and every time i feel like breaking down.
(and trust me, i do)
it's the part of me that keeps me from drowning.
it pulls my two feet back to ground and embraces me with encouragement and confidence
and love.
it's the same part of me that makes me feel all special inside.
and the same part of me that reads your blog everyday even though i dont know you.


it's the same part of me that makes me cry.
and yet,
it's the part of me that i like the most.


it is the part of me that remembers.


that remembers the happy things that happened.
the times i smiled, cried, talked, complained, stressed out, said goodbye and grew stronger.
those are the times i can cry about and still be happy that they happened.
i wouldnt lose them for the world.


those memories are a part of me that i wont let go.



there're are so so so many parts of me,
i'm not even sure if i myself know them all :/
there's a part of me that doesnt need to.
because,
i gotta keep telling myself,
that life does not suck for me.


the sentimental side of me is stupid.
because she reads old msn convos.
and starts crying.




i'm getting busier.


the highlight of today was PE :)
the girls had a camwhoring session :)



which was fun :D
we ended up with about fifty photos (:
sarah's phone ended up lagging :/
(i think her camera was overworked)


here are a few of the photos which i edited (:
they are also the first photos of me on my blog without braces,
but they arent proper ones of my straaaaight teeth.
(:
i'll post them as soon as i get the mini SD adaptor okay (:


oh, and after pe,
i found out that andrew passed his math test,
lolll.
good job (:
keep it up kay!


and then sam, sarah and i slacked around at the table next to the squashies,
had bubble tea
and took random photos.

sarah changed my hairstyle too,
and i decided i'm going to stick with it for a week and see how it goes.
haha, cos like, i'm totally not used to having a fringe.


and today,
i missed my long hair ):




anyways- this is what i have left to do today;
shower.
study for econs.
do pw.
edit the announcement.
summarize the motto votes.
sleep.


i'm going (:
see ya, have a great week ahead.

Keagan knows that Samantha is a sleep girl, haha.
Goodnight (:


So i'm off to


i. Finish up my econs essays.
ii. Practice sketching eyes.
iii. Take a break.


HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY ! :D
(to all mothers who might read my blog)


edit: my tummy's killing me ):
and i wish i had a lightbox to help me with sketch outlines ):
(i wanna go back to the art studio in ijtp so i can use the light box!!!)
and i feel like eating ice cream with caramel,
cant wait for dessert late late later.

cinnamon sugar pretzel :D


i can describe my day with a number of adjectives,
and accompany the adjs with a short descriptor explaining why they suit.
After which i shall NOT state what happened today chronologically
even though now i am that free.
(ah, i sound so systematic, heh.)



rush-y
i woke up to a phonecall for ten mins,
then i took a long bath,
and by the time i was done, it was 11.45am.
i was supposed to meet andrew at 12pm, lol.
so i rushed to iron my robe and white shirt.
by the time i packed my stuff and left the house,
it was 12.05pm.
(but dont worry, i'm not that mean,
i told andrew not to leave yet too. haha.)
then i had to rush to the busstop, mrt station, dhoby gaut.


SUAY
hahaha, andrew knows why.
and the whole thing that happened is so hilarious in a really omg-no-this-cannot-be-happening-to-me kind of way.
and -.-" andrew tried to be nice by not laughing,
until i was like,
haha i know you're holding back your laughter,
just laugh la.
and he laughed full strength.
haha one word :P
retarded.


sugar-y sweet.
haha, i am almost convinced that i'll get diabetes cos of the
yummy cinnamon sugar pretzel that andrew got.
lol, it was so sugary and cinnamon-y and nice.
i was practically eating all the sugar that dropped.
lolll.


economic-y.
cos i did my econs essay, lol.
(and i just realised that i havent finished it :/)


funny.
hahaha, cos andrew was waiting along the corridor,
and i was waiting way outside.
and we were both waiting for each other,
unaware that we were both waiting for nothing.
lolll.


fun
haha, i laughed aaalot at burger king heh,
even though it was soooo noisy,
haha.
so,
thanks for the afternoon,
andrew ! (:
it was fun (:


yesterday was great (:
the choir concert was lovely,
to keep it short,
it was great seeing everyone again
(it always is)
and it was great seeing amanda and germaine perform (:
:D



cant things be clear?

-smiles
a
big
wide
braces free
smile.


had dental first thing in the morning,
taking my braces off was alright,
scaling made me tear
and the dentist was being VERY reassuring,
i felt like a little girl.
cos it was SO pain.



anyways,
it's over now,
my braces're off yayyyy :D
dropped by a very empty town to get my baggg :D
and it was THE LAST PIECE.
omg, i was like, OMG.
haha.
:D
(okay, i sound like a bimbo)
made me a really happy girl.
my teeth are soooo smooth now,
teehee -grins.


dropped by grandma and poppop's house to visit (:
felt really good after that (:


had rockmelon :D
:D


met mummy to get my edusave form signed,
and she got me honey milk tea :D
from opp her school,
which is my favouriteeee ! (((:


made me a happy girl again.
bused to school and did my econs essay (:
tutored andrew in math, haha.
it was good (:


left school around seven plus,
mr yong wasnt around anymore.
i need to get over my procrastination.
(:


tmr's the dayyyy :D
i cant wait :DDD
tmr's going to be way awesome :D
(eventhough there's a malay karangan test for JCTs and i'm not too confident about it :/)


i'm not going to worry about it,
i'll scrape it,
i will.


aaand the leadership seminar sounds promising (:
not to mention the evening.
I CANNOT WAIT :D
(this week has been awesome.)

what does it mean ?

15.09! :D



Today was good :D
completed my NAPFA with a C for 2.4km,
lolll.
(i cant run long distances, heh)


econs was saaaaaad ):
last lesson with miss tan :/
she made us cheesecake, with yummy strawberries.
SO SWEET.
and i'm pretty sure that 1A04 is going to miss her loads.
i really really hope that we get her back !


shing got a nice nice nice new phone.
5 MEGAPIXELS.
like, wowwwww.
took photos before econs.
haha :D


IT'S MY LAST DAY IN BRACES YAYYYYYYYYY :D


council meeting was funnn (:
i'm glad to be able to work with all the other councilors :D
it's going to be loadsa fun work :D
hahaha,
Ibrahim and I are Ice Creams.
LOL.
(:
it's going to be fun (:
i can tell :D


and haha,
looking at my juniors
-the ones who were in my PSG,
i feel like being in ij was fulfilling.
seeing them so bonded (:
makes me feel like i had a role to play,
as their PSL.
and it's a pretty special kinda feeling.
i miss ij so so much.


i've got a long dental appt tmr and i was thinking whether i should go back to ij,
then sr ?
cos i dont know how to time'll go,
considering that i wanna drop by town to get my BAGGGG :D
(omg i really really hope that they have it still :/)



and yea i'm so so so excited :D
ah :D
tmr's going to be awesome :D
(i really really hope so. lol)



havent got much work to do tonight
(((:
i'm prolly gonna practice sketching :D
but that's later;
my mandarin shower gel calls :D



i wanna be just like you.

Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.



today was good (:


started off the day by knowing that i made it into the council (:
-sigh of relief (:


periods flew by pretty quick nothing pleasant to blog about,
if you catch my drift.


NAPFA was the last period.
aced everything cept the Standing Broad Jump which i missed by 4cm,
pretty annoyed.
pretty pleased with my shuttle run time of 10.2secs,
eventhough i was annoyed cos i couldnt catch a hold of the bean bag properly and lost about 2 secs,
and the teacher wouldnt let me redo,
heh.
but yea, i guess it's satisfying.


ended off the day in school by staying back to MUG with Andrew.
haha, didnt really mug much though.
and we ended up drawing while refering to a nice picture i got from deviantart.
(:



gotta go do my colour schemes (:
and yay,
it's one more day closer to thursday :D


tingyi just sent me photos,
which means,
more photos to edit yay (:

SOMEONE TELL ME.


and i'm going to start planning my dates for the june holidays study break later this evening (:


so i will have time to work and play (:


four posts in a day,
someone tell me i'm bored ):


ps. i like this colour :D
someone tell me why blogger's font colour tab doesnt have PINK?


and i just realised i havent anyone to go tanning at the beach in a bikini with.
heh.
heh.
and heh.


haha, i've received all the scip jts bbq photos from clare and melllll (:
and i've edited them rather nicely (:
and i decided i shant post them all in one post (:
i'll use them to head my posts until i ran out :D


oh oh, this is the heart shaped m&m that mike and i found ! (:







"i'm a visitor."


(:
yesterday was pretty good (:
haha,
i'm kinda lazy to blog about ytd,
lol.


it's called a break-up because it's broken.

okay,
remember that day i went shopping with tingyi?
on thursday-
i had a wishlist (:
because i feel particularly like shopping today,
i shall post it :D


on second thoughts,
i cant really remember what i wanted.
(aha, andrew- your forgetfulness is catching.)
all i know is,
i wanna get my yakpak tote bag,
before someone else buys it,
and just in case it happens to be the last piece!


and yes,
i'm paranoid like that when i want smth real bad :P


it's an awesomely nice and pretty bag la (:
and i know i sound like a b-i-m-b-o but i dont care
(:
i think it's good to have b-i-m-b-o moments once in awhile (:



this week is going to fly by,
i'm sure (:


Monday!
NAPFA i think? omg.
I'll find out whether i made it into the SC.


Tuesday
Econs test back !


Thursday!
BRACES OFF OMG.


Friday (:
CHOIR CONCERT YAYYYY.


i'm waiting for the scip jts photos from mel to finish synchronising, yay (:
then i'll post them HERE :D

today was pretty awesome (:


(this post is going to be brief,
because i'm sleeeeepy.
i'll update properly tmr or smth.


college day musical was a blast,
i didnt eat anything for twenty four hours by the time it was over.
and i had to rush to church for mass,
so i was really hungry.


had dinner alone,
met mel later (:
had a short and sweet session :D



i was happy cos my artwork got presented to the vip as a token of appreciation
(aha, and i just found out today)
and i was happy cos i could see mel (:
i'm also happy because from last night till now,
i realised alot of things about myself (:
i've undoubtedly changed.
i'm letting fo of my insecurities,
gradually.
i mean, i had dinner alone.


the old sam would'nt have eaten.
haha.
(:
caramel frap made me happy (:



nights and sweet dreams (:
and have a sunny sunday (:

well then,
you are lost.


translucent yellow hues through the clouded bus window,
a fountain of cold air;
gushing.
just blowing on streaks of soft and damp dark brown.
white painted on sky blue;
in smooth streaks, not blobs.
gorgeous.
gorgeous?



i cant thrive on ego boosts and reassurance from others.
can i?
but i still do.
what is wrong with me?
i'm lonely,
and confused, confused, confused.



All things work for our good,
though sometimes we don’t see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what best for us
His ways are not our own.
So when your pathway grows dim
and you just don’t see Him
Remember, you're never alone.


God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand
When you don’t see His plan
When you can’t trace his hand trust his heart.

Happiness is not the absence of problems,
but the ability to deal with them.



this is my hundredth post (:
:D
i have to make it special, lolll.


bused to tj and met jon for lunch (:
met sooooo many people (:
before 12.30pm i kinda felt like an animal at the zoo cos of the gate, LOL.


hung around till the guard cutely made me get a visitor pass so i could officially step in tj (:
spoke to mr tong and mr hasim (:
hugged vibs!
and said hi to everyoneeeeee omg :D
so happy seeing them.


spoke to farah and cadence (((:
and said hi to zt (:
haha, saw justin too.


had a good time lazing around,
nice change to my otherwise workafrolic-y lifestyle, heh (:
had waffles and rockmelon, YAY :D
-for lunch, lol.


had trouble leaving tj,
i always somehow find it difficult.
maybe cos i didnt wanna leave alone.
haha, then chester came so i left with him (:
abrasions, heh.


anyways, i'm home and online now (:
waiting for the photos from ytd :D
and i cant wait for my dental appt on thurs
-braces-free smile omg :D
and then there's the choir concert with MELLLL on friday :D
and and and sc results on monday !
(:
i cant wait :D

how wonderful life is,
now you're in the world.


so yesterday was the most awesome day ever.
period.


started off with shopping with tingyi :D
and the sun was so lovely !
we shopped at The Heeren,
and progressed all the way through Taka and then to Far East (:
managed to cover a whole big big big lot of retail space :D
we're effective shoppers :D


taka was having a sale,
made me think of luxury goods- price decrease, Qd increase.
hahaha, i was like shucks, tingyi this reminds me of econs!
and the sale was so crowded.
gives you the omg-everyone-wants-to-buy-the-same-thing-as-me kind of feeling,
which is bad.
haha.


i bought 3 hairclips for The Heeren and a pair of unicorn ear studs from Far East (:
saw nice nice nice ear studs later on,
but aha, budget, budget (:
so i have to comeback to get them another time,
teehee.
i'm a terrible shopper.
see, like, buy.


then tingyi made me eat ):
she wanted to eat some beef hotplate thingy at fareast,
and i couldnt resist it,
cos it was so awesome.
haha.
i also satisfied my rockmelon craving at tangs yay !
time really flew and before long, it was time for me to goooo ):



took a long bus ride to ecp :D (YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!)
SCIP JTS BBQ TIME :D
(:
seeing everyone again was really great (:
i'm not being cheesy or anything-
but i could really really feel the love and happiness.


yesterday made me realize how much i miss everyone.
and its really hard to put down that feeling accurately in words.


bbq-ing the food was fun !
haha, despite the immense heat/smoke/bbq smell.
i guess i sounded like a bimbo saying i smell like a bbq.
ahahaha.
found out that the nicest thing to eat ever is sausage with honey glazing (:
:D
i think i lived on that for the whole dinner..


the food was pretty great (:
good job, sean !
and the company was greaaaaat.


sendy ended up in the water first
(haha, i could've guessed :P)
(:



talked to chester,
caught up quite a bit (:
boosted both our egos (Mine at least, hehe.)
HAHA (: life's been treating me better.
(-prolly cos nothing'd get worst than the last time i felt realy awful)


got to see cadence and ziko again !!!
(: made me smile a whole lot.
haha, they havent changed one bit.
ziko and his lightstick flower, aha (:
managed to get a photo with the both of them (:


it was great seeing evelyn and michael too !
(:
i didnt know they were going !
(:
it was a nice surprise really (:
-hugs.


and jon tried surprising me (:
but it didnt work (:
hahaaa (:
finally got down to talking talking to him.
it was nice.
the lightstick liquid in the sand really looks like STARDUST (:
thanks for listening to what i had to tell you.


the scip exco girls, joscelin and jon were the last few to leave (:
they caught a cab,
jon and i took buses home (:



managed to catch up with mel as the evening slowed down,
i've been missing out on alot (:
but i'm glad to have listened.
i understand (:
i replied your letter on the bus mel (:
cos i couldnt wait :D


and then my phone battery had to die and i took the long bus ride home alone past geylang,
and it was pretty scary.
but then replying mel preoccupied me,
and i felt safe (:


got home, washed up and went to bed (:
i'll post aaaal the pretty pictures from the bbq when people've sent them to me k (:
i'm going to be at tj for lunch today :D
which makes me feel like omg i cannot waittttt :D
(to see everyone again, haha)


And see,
i'm already smiling (:

you're so innocent ah?
obviously those are sperms!


yesterday was pretty awesome (:
stayed back to study,
andrew accompanied (alliteration!lol)
he was chionging some major pi edits,
so funny,
hahaha.


and after school i bused to chompchomp to meet my family for dinner (:
but i fed the mosquitoes for half and hour,
yea, changing into shorts was a bad, bad idea.
i ate stingray, and chicken wings and carrot cake.
i felt like a pig la !
haha.


then Keagan, Fon and some squash people came (:
stayed till late,
they left,
and i had mango and ice (:
then we left too (:


got home around 12am (:
and here i am now (:
my throats pretty hoarse,
no need to guess why.
lol.



i'm meeting tingyi for shopshopshopping around lunch :D
so yay i cant wait !
:D i need to pack for the bbq and stuff :D
(i dont know what to wear :S)
i really cannot wait (:
time really flies!


(: next thursday i'll be braces freeeeeeee (:



and so this is a really happy happy happy samantha blogging today (:

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