if all the raindrops were sweaters and ear studs, oh what a rain that would be (:
HAHA okay, i just realised that this blog is too, too devoid of nice photos lately hurr. click HERE for some pictures on my tumblr which will make this blog less of a wordyyawn.
todayyyy is sunday :D
nothing much happening today, cos its rest day as usual. still recovering, so it's a yawn still..
though, things are looking brighter (if you know what i mean) so all's good. and i'm pretty happy with how things are now. (: all i need is an iced caramel macciato and a good book oh and you :D
COUNCIL BBQ :D
was pretty awesome despite the small number (: it was fun with those who came (: left me with a more sore throat after all the talking and bbq-ing (: but yeah it was fun.
it was good being at the beach too, gives you the chance to thinkkk about stuff and the waves and the wind're all so awesome (: what singapore beaches could do with though, is clearer waters lol. okaaaay, i shall let the photos do the talking :D
Saturday, February 27, 2010
quick update before i leave for the bbq !
(: went for the ntu talks this morning, was late for the adm talk haha. so we just went for the admissions talk and then we took brochures and all to browse at home. i pretty much have the courses i want in mind, just waiting for the results. the make or break moment lol.
(: saw quite a few srjcians at the ntu talks (:
then headed to ps for lunch at carls' jr with zac and daddy, then i did some speed shopping at the Mphosis sale (: it's not bad, most of the stuff is 50 or 70% off, so it's quite worth it. just that i couldnt find some of the stuff i stalked presale hehe. they must have taken them off the shelves (damn) ended up with two black tops :D (like i dont have enough black in my wardrobe lol.) then i went homeee and here i am.
okay (: there's council bbq and we're supposed to meet at pasir ris at FIVE. now's four thirty, so i think i better chiong. hehe. BEACH :D yay. (:
Friday, February 26, 2010
okay so this is like my sixth post for the day (shows i'm not neglecting my blog for my tumblr)
eventhough they've just been short relatively sian sounding posts hurr. so yeah i've been resting the whole day and i still wake up the next morning feeling sick, sheesh right.
anyways i've been having this thought, (this post has no reference to anyone really lol, its just what i think) its so weird how friends end up liking one another. weird not in the freaky weird way, but more like, the puzzling way. i dont know how it happens.
like what makes you cross the line between friendship, and developing feelings for a person?
i can totally picture a venn diagram, and everything that i've just questioned, falls in the grey area. and yeah in gp it's good to have a grey area, i mean, love's not always black and white.
so yeah. back to the qn, what makes you cross the line between friendship and developing feelings for a person.
i personally think that it's a very very touchy issue, since it has feelings involved, and hurt is prolly one of them. i mean, when you end up having feelings for a friend, you risk something when you let them know. there's so much at stake right ! there's the whole friendship. and stuff. and risking that, has really got to mean that you really think you've got a good chance at getting the other person. otherwise, wouldnt it have been better keeping it to yourself, and just treasuring the friendship, cos it's better than losing it all. thats my take on this at least.
and conversely, (this is like speaking to myself heh cos i've been there) even if you knew there was a chance that the friend may like you too, would you still tell them? would you still confess that you had feelings for them? how would that change your friendship? i mean, you still have to prepare yourself mentally right, like eventhough you know the friend's prolly gonna smile and go, hey i like you too, and then you prolly think it's going to be all fine after that, cos things have their own way of working out right (: well not really i guess.
sometimes, people think differently. so now, in this third case, even if you know the person prolly likes you, there's still some risk involved. i hate this word, RISK. and if you're willing to take that risk, i guess it prolly means that no matter what happens in the end, you're going to tell yourself that it doesnt matter. (haha this is eventhough you know it totally matters right)
so yeah, checking back to the qn again, what makes you cross the line between friendship and developing feelings for a person?
i think the honest answer is, knowing that there's a chance that you may be happy with that person. and you're willing to take the risk, because you know, or should i say, hope, that the happiness will be worth it.
so yeah (:
i'm still so bored, and it's almost ten pm. i literally wasted a whole friday thanks to this stupid tonsil inflammation that is so crippling what i would otherwise be doing pfft. this is what i did today,
i woke up at around 11 plus, took my medicine (yuck) watched CSI. watched another episode of CSI. came online for awhile yawn yawn yawn, went to sleep, woke up, had a bit of dinner (first thing i ate the whole day apart from meds heh) and here i am now.
tell me this is the most boring day ever. if it werent for csi, i had might as well stayed in bed the whole day. i wonder how some hospital patients feel. ):
i'm just looking for more reasons to be happy.
you dont see me like how i want you to.
someone told me that when they hang out with me, and when they read my blog, i'm so different.
and i think it just shows how fluxive feelings can be. i mean yes, i was happy a few days back. and then everything happened and now i'm stuck here. trying to build everything again.
i'm sure everyone knows how this can feel. its not a good feeling.
so its the same today, as yesterday and wednesday. stuck home, doing nothing. i'm really so bored in and over my head ! its bad.
i just want to go out but i dont know what to do and i'm sick so technically i SHOULD be staying in.
i'm totally reaching the lameass pathetic level 15 soon at the rate this virus is getting to me. its making me so sick of everything.
hopefully results next week makes things better. and you, you're not doing anything. which is totally fine by me. i just realise what i do for you more thats all.
soon this is going to turn bad. i just can sense it coming on.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
recently i've been spending tons of time thinking whether i'm good enough. hopefully i am, i really want to be.
i'm officially sick.
38.5 deg fever, tonsil inflammation, migraine inducing coughs and sneezes, never ending phelgm and a running nose.
havent felt so sick in awhile. (though this time it prolly adds to the mood)
i hate how sneezing or coughing just induces this killer migraine and nothing helps to get rid of it. eyelids are burning, and i'm radiating heat like a laptop. i've been drinking tons and tons of water, but the heat aint going off. i've also been popping all sorts of tablets following the doctor's orders. and i think it's too soon before they take effect.
okay before this gets more depressing, i'll check back in later tonight.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
you just killed a part of me.
my brother fb-ed this once, and it makes me smile everytime (: it makes me wonder how often we overlook the joy of a child's innocence.
killing 2 birds with one stone is a weird thing and it is cruelty to birds. it's a bad proverb.
been pretty sick today. havent been online the whole day till now, slept in for like more than 60% of the day, the phlegm and cough sucks. not to mention the on-and-off fever. coming on to see your updates and the work i have is giving me mixed feelings.
1. you keep bringing me on a rollercoaster ride, i think i'm numb. 2. i forgot that the work i do can be used to boost my portfolio lol. (how silly of me.)
I’m the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. I’m the girl who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers. I'm the girl who wouldn’t make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you happy. I’m the girl who would enjoy having a movie night rather than going to some fancy restaurant. I’m the girl who would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. I'm the girl who would get annoyed at all the stupid things you do, but still love you. I’m the girl who won’t make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your hand instead. I’m the girl who will love you more than anyone can possibly dream of. I’m the girl who would give the world to see you smile.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
today.
woke up with a bad cough, no need to guess why, havent been having good zzzs.
slept in, strolled aimlessly around town in an attempt to buy smth which would make me feel less.... sian (for the lack of a better word) the staff at starbucks at ion are pretty smiley, and nice. i also like how people at shops smile and say hi when you enter (: makes me feel happier.
didnt get a thing from ion. was contemplating the glitter nail colour from sephora which ran outta stock the last time i wanted to get it. but i realised i just wanted to get it, so that i would spend heh.
its weird how i draw a link between retail spending and feeling some minute sense of satisfaction lol.
i actually got bored of ion and 313, suffice to say, i know them inside out heh. so i trained to city hall in hopes that accessorize there would have my awesomely cute knitted monkey keychain, and YES they did. so i got that. (HAPPY)
then i did more walking around aimlessly, kate spade had this awesome ribbon keychain in just the kind of pink i like. but i didnt get it lol.
then i was thinking whether i should get my Reef glitter slippers in purple. since they had it at the flash and splash at citylink but i decided i didnt feel like getting them, smth about them isnt right, not just the price hahaha.
yup. then i just trained home, like i never left it. and took a nap.
tmr there's a long meeting in the morning then i'll be heading to a workshop. then yay picnic.
(: my hair is also finally reaching elbow length yay. grow faster. thinking if i should go let them have a one cm trim to speed up growth lol.
the impending results release is giving me paranoia every night before i sleep. and no quotes or any amount of consolation can subdue my fears. as much as i know how misplaced they are. it's only me to be scared of something i can no longer control. it's even scarier knowing that i could have earlier, and i hate that thought. i hate the possibility of having to consolidate the thought that yes, i tried my best, but sometimes, even the best isnt good enough.
okaaay before i reach the paranoia stage, i should stop and look forward to tmr. :D
Monday, February 22, 2010
this is awesome. i think this is better than the original man.
figured that i'd change my tumblr address in an attempt to make it more private. if you want the address just drop me a msg on msn or fb or smth. (:
work today was tiring, but getting off by 3 was good. knocked out after having a quick bite. have to get working on the icip journal soon. dont feel like it but yeah :S
having a really bad cold. sneezing and all. really feeling pretty sick. i just feel like sleeping. but oh well, there's work to be done.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
today was a busy day. church, then home then dani and matteo's birthday party. just got home now. totally shagged. blogging in annoying fragments.. feeling pretty tired.
thinking about a levels is making me ): hope its different this time around. (:
pms is also making me feel so crappy. then there's work tmr at seven am :/ ah okay i better sleep early.
apologies for the lousy update.
here's hoping that next week will fly by, there's only wednesday to look forward to this week.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Did this on fb. it's not a bad view really. (ignore the annoying boxes, lol. lazy to clear them heh) i think the bolded parts are scarily true. i shant be an egotist and bold other stuff lol.
Your view on yourself: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are intelligent Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Honest Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sweet Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are friendly to everybody Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't like conflict Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Because you're so cheerful Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Fun people are naturally attracted to you Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Like to talk to you
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are a true romantic Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : When you are in love Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will do anything Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Everything to keep your love true
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person
The seriousness of your love: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So you will find yourself with plenty of dates
Your views on education: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life
How do you view success: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Success in your career is not the most important thing in life Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are content with what you have Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working
What are you most afraid of: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of things that you cannot control Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel
Friday, February 19, 2010
lit night was pretty good (: i particularly liked The importance of being earnest (: fon was awesome. aaand syed and ezra were impressive (: seasons of love was lovely too. (: it was well worth two dollars! (:
it was nice meeting half of the a4 clique too :D photos are on fb, i'll post them, soon (: weijie looks awesome good now (: and yeah it was nice seeing everyone again (:
lt5 certainly triggered memories of post pre a levels post mortems and essay question analysis though. i could still picture mdm sadiah giving a lecture. kinda nostalgic really.
a reality check also tells me that results'll be out next next week. i am so sure i'll cry, i just want them to be tears of joy.
i really hate how two years boils down to just one day and a set of results, in a way its unfair but that's the way the world rolls i guess. so yeahh, results are coming.
you know how everyone has some preconceived expectations of me, i honestly know that my own expectations of myself exceed theirs. which is why when i dont live up to them, it sucks even more, cos i've fallen short of my own my even more. freak okay i should stop thinking about a level results, it triggers memories of o level results release and that's terrifying enough.
i want so badly to do well, but at this stage, wanting it is nothing but a hope.
(among other things, sigh, up and down. i wonder if things'll ever stay up and i really need to know..)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
todaaaay
peranakan museum (: i must say, it was a really lovely experience, the exhibits at the museum are damnnn awesome. from the beaded works to the intricate jewellery and lovely furniture, everything was very well exhibited (: and its the nicest museum i've seen in sg, apart from SAM which i like most haha. but then again, they're showcasing different stuff so yeah (: enjoyed the trip there (:
headed back to j8, got some stuff from popular then headed to the office. (:
left around 3 plus to get stuff from daiso and other places around town, for work tmr (: workshop at AH (: should be fun! :D though i have to wake up at like, 7am lol.
looking forward to an evening with the girls tmr too :D
okaaay posts are getting more and more boring i suspect heh.
OH i forgot to mention earlier that i went to kino to pick up the book :D (collectors guide to my little pony) next best thing to the actual gen 1 ponies my family is convinced that i'm obsessed, but really i'm not lol. coudnt resist getting the unicorn paperclips from kino though they were steep anddd march's issue of teen vogue was the next best thing to the taiwanese mag that i couldnt find. plus i like the size of teen vogue, makes it so carryable. i think i'm switching over to that from 17. or maybe spend $11 a month and just get both. yeah, prolly gonna subscribe to 17. (DAMN i forgot to check if the paul and joe counter at taka has the alice range -.-") so yay (: MLP book, teen vogue and the unicorn paperclips. HAPPYYYY.
thennnn decided (or more like, couldnt resist) to head to Ion for a bit, since i was at Orchard haha. along the way i found and awesome pair of strappy banadage thick wedges. pretty awesome and on sale. plus in my size, with a nice zipper in front. still thinking about it cos it makes my foot feel so wrapped up compared to the usual heel or slipper cos this is pretty highish. (:
okay so back to Ion headed to Accessorize since it was the FIRST shop (: told myself i'd gotten more than $120 in accessories the past FEW months, so i decided not to get any. slippers looked nice, but i still like the reef ones (which i so want to get) then i saw this awesome cute baby unicorn soft toy! which i was going to get, then i was thinking whether i should get it for baby dani, but decided nuhhh (:
resisted checking out other places for a charm for my bag, i really need to make it me-ish with smth, it looks -in painting terms- very flat. so yeah still working on this. maybe i should check out coach cos their keychains are pretty awesome. not sure abt this season though.
so yeah (: ended up with the baby unicorn (: daiso at ps also managed to replenish the heartshaped baking tin wish was lost somewhere between some xs lol.
(: all in all its been a good day. i'm really liking the freedom i have now, and hoping i'll be able to maintain this space that i have (: i like the feeling of being able to roam around orchard and somerset, taking my own sweet time, shopping for hours, without rushing and worrying about making someone wait.
(: i also need to lose the calories from cny pfft.
so yeah (: looking forward to tmr for sure, and saturday too :D :D
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
work today was alright (:
going to the peranakan museum tmr for site visit, so it should be interesting (: looking forward to that.
and hopefully i can get the afternoon free so that i can drop by kino for my MLP collector's guide :D anddd i also need to check out laptops (i suspect mine is going to die soon) couldnt use my lappy the whole morning cos it was giving off sparks from the charger andd smoke too :S
so yeah (: andddd after tmr it'll be friday (: looking forward to seeing sarah and lh and nad and sam and everyone (: anddd of course saturday (:
okaaaay (: cant wait for tmr :D
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
i'm not a make up person, usually its just concealer and at most,, eyeliner. but after visiting aunty dorine's place today and with her new interest in make up, plus looking at the jill stuart catalogue she has,
i super want that blush lol.
lynette said i should get blush,
since my face is always looking so paleish.
been looking around for one that i like, and i finally found THE one.
its compact and i like the colours.
(:
contemplating whether to get it or not, since its like 60 SGD.
apart from that,
today has been normal,
skipped lunch owing to the previous days overdose of cny goodies and chinese food.
(:
after aunty dorine's place we went to another family friend's place (:
managed to have some moscato (awesomeness)
anddd we watched part of the movie Bewitched andddd Up (:
finally managed to watch it- not without having to hold back tears.
that makes it three movies in two days haha.
(:
My sister's keeper on monday with amanda (:
i didnt like how they changed the ending though..
looking forward to the weekend already (:
haha.
and oh, need to make some date to the barrage with just moscato and maybe some light sandwiches - i'm thinking, O'Brian's (:
i like how things seem happier,
like i've smth new to look forward to (:
and really, everything seems brighter.
i hope it aint delusion.
but really, this time around, its going to be different :D
(dont take too long please haha)
work tmr in the afternoon keeping the morning relatively free,
happy happy happy.
something tells me that i need to supress the periodic insecurity i have and be less, whats the word for it, oh yeah, to be less of a control freak. i still dont like what you're doing. sigh. but i guess, i shouldnt worry.
Monday, February 15, 2010
apologies for the lack of updates ! been home late from all the cny visiting (yes, i'm half chinese) (:
chinese new year has been the same, meeting relatives, hongbaos, yummy food (calories), hot sun. most of my relatives live the the gardens area so we normally walk/get a lift from house to house, so it's really DAMN hot. smth like the urban heat island effect, but on houses instead. gets really annoying. dresses all the way and it's still SO HOT.
nevertheless, the past two days have been a good break from what would have otherwise have been WORK. (: valentines day wasnt how i expected it to be (to start of, i didnt even have any expectations) but it turned out pretty good in any case. (:
today was filled with visiting (what's new) but it was nice (the food i guess?) anddd tmr there's more visiting !!
with only half a family who's chinese, i cant imagine how many houses we'd have to visit if my dad was chinese too! (:
parents're letting us keep a larger share this year, which is pretty awesome (: (not to mention all the blackjack haha)
on a random note, somehow i sense that i'm generally happier, do you feel it too? i mean like, more smilies and all (: it's a good sign, and yes there's a reason :D
should be blogging tmr night (: even thought ahhhhh, there's work the next day lol.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
haha, i've been joining groups on facebook right. and like it's happened more than ten times already, but i click to become a fan of a group, only to be notified that i'm already a fan (: some things never change. lol.
(: caught percy jackson and the lightning thief ytd with sam, at ps. pretty much everyone found the movie pretty awesome but i felt it lacked the emotional development of the characters. like logan lerman couldnt really act, like, upon knowing that his mother died and stuff. so it was kinda weird and incoherent. his cuteness sort of compensated for it though, undeniably. i could tell that columbus was trying not be conventional and cliche- owing to the lack of kissing scenes - like at the end, lol. generally i felt the connection between the characters, apart from between percy, grover and annabeth was very weak. like how percy didnt hug poseidon in his human form and they just shook hands, it was strange. but well, i guess it was okaaaay as a movie, i preferred harry potter and the half blood prince.
in any case (: before the movie we went to the toy collectibles store (i forget the name) andddd headed straight for the My Little Pony box, of course (: ended up with FIVE new babies :D they're so pretty esp the one with the tiara and pink glitter. (i have yet to figure their names) but anyways, my collection has no expanded massively and i need a new shelving system soon :D photos of the individual ponies are still loading, so check back on this space :D
Friday, February 12, 2010
pre valentines day card making spree, only problem, they wont reach by vday. aaand i dont know if you should get one.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Visit to Qian hu today was pretty awesome :D they took us around the place, got to see the packing room, quarantine area, farming ponds, and the fish spa area (: it was niceeeee. they let us have a sample of the fish spa :D loved it haha. though they had really big fishes :S i preferred the smaller ones :D (as you can see in the photo) i'll let the photos do the talking.
farming ponds (: TONS of them.
FISH SPA :D
photogenic koi.
cute orange fish :D
pretty stingray.
apart from the visit to qian hu today, my laptop CRASHED. LUCKILY, daddy managed to help me reboot it just :D happy now.
i also met lynette to get the vday card papers :D happy now hehe. :D yeah.
basically sorted out, but still thinking if i should make you a vday card.
oh, and the hazey stink, which is apparently from some bushfires in singapore, is irritating my nose to the max.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
three random things.
this is my 1099th post, its 1.14am, and i cant sleep.
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
:D ytd was pretty awesome, i shall do a brief summary of the evening, then just spam the photos with sporadic captions hehe.
met gina at sixish at 313 :D zara-ed and then headed to taka for yoshi dinner (: thennnn checked out pull and bear (: headed outside chanel to meet lynette :D and popped by art friend (: haha so art-y right big lol.
when she came we slacked outside Ion till trisno came, then we headed to the superlongqueue taxi stand before deciding to go to the far east plaza queue instead (: reached Timbre at clarke quay just before ten ish (: had fun, as usual, we were full of retardedness and bimboness and bitchy-ness hehe :D i'll let the photos do the talking, havent camwhored so much ever man. lol.
regina and her lemonade, me and lynette's run and raisin gelato.
hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii (: in alot of photos we didnt look like each other, lol.
miss photogenic
(irritating face lol) CLASSIC. like some lost souls on vday kind of photo lol
like i said haha.
yay :D
finally done with all the photos lol (though they're up on fb heh) had an awesome time last night :D we should hang out more often babes :D love much.
(because photos are taking ages to load i can only blog bout last night, tonight (: )
yayyyyyy love much. two of my fav photos from tonight longer post tmr (: time to zzzzzz.
Sunday, February 07, 2010
shopping=happiness.
hehe and i forgot to say that i took my family out for lunch today (: had a sweet lunch at Marche's (: then mummy, tab and i went shopping (at 313) there's smth abt the f21 there that i like, cant really pinpoint what it is.
but between the cropped top, striped midsleeve cardi and long light denim shirt, i ended up getting the niceee purple-blueish-grey cross stitch patterned round the neckline cropped top anddd the denim shirt (:
happy.
(i also decided that i'm not going to spend more on clothes- since i've been buying loadsa clothes since jan hehe) (though i still want a bandage skirt to wear with all my loose tops) (i will be significantly more retail satisfied by then hehe)
the bbq was pretty awesome, playing with dani was, of course, as always, the highlight (:
while walking home, i also came to the realisation that i'll be 29 when she's 10. makes me feel awfully old, somehow.
anyways there's this awful haze-ish smell that the wind is bringing in now. i dont like it, and i'm looking forward to tmr evening with the artbabes. :D (not work though)
Saturday, February 06, 2010
I'm beginning to find work tiring (dont know how i'm going to work in the future, i think i'm not ready for it (and ah its another two months to go)
i dont feel free anymore, and yet i know that without work, i would be so bored. so it's really a love-hate thing.
i think what i really need is some major retail therapy, just that these days, i'm so fussy about getting exactly what i want, in the perfect fit, that i'm finding it so hard to part with $ cos .. you know, this is what usually happens.
1. I see smth i like 2. I get coerced into trying it on (cos i'm so damn lazy to try on clothes heh) 3. It looks nice, but there's always one thing wrong abt it (ie. a) i dont like the buttons b) its a bit too loose c) its too longggggg d) its too short ) 4. the thought pops into my head - what if i see smth else that i like more somewhere and regret getting this. and thats it, with that thought, all other considerations are trumped. that's basically the main reason why i havent been spending on anything major recently :/
haha the only think i want really badly is a Balenciaga and thats gonna cost me over a thousand, so yeah, dream on sam. unless i land like $800 from some randomly mad and impossible means (ie. find it somewhere) i really doubt i'm gonna get what i want. sooooo, yeah lol. shrugs. back to square one.
(i just copied this post from my tumblr so yeah, if you happen to read it twice, uhhhh its like for emphasis or smth hurr)
A CHUNK OF RANT.
for someone who makes last minute plans like free (technically they are free but that's just my way of saying ALOT.) i am hopelessly annoyed that my parents cant even make up their mind wrt where we're going for dinner tonight. i'm so desperate to get out of this house that its making so frustrated at their indecisiveness.
sheesh, seriously.
looks like the goal of the month of being less annoyed is a failure, plus it's only a week into feb.
i also hate the idea of being lonely this vday, i mean, who cares, what's the big deal anyway vday's just a commercial thing but you know, its so pathetic to really bother about it cos it really is no big deal at the very heart of the issue (haha pun intended) so yeah, who cares man. that's the realist not optimist speaking though, i guess.
i've also come to a very lameass decision that the reason why i like bathing more nowadays is because the shower is the best place to go in the house, when i'm just stuck in my room yawning.
okay so now everyone in the house is sleeping (wth) and it's 6pm.
i'm hungry. and they're asleep, best.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
i suspect i have been ignoring my blog thanks to THIS.
anyways (: spent todayyyy working. like really. almost died with the load today. then by 3 plus i was soooo hungry (last meal being dinner the day before) so i headed to ps for justaciaaaa craving. met shawn (:
(: couldnt resist some shopping, but i didnt get anything cept a gold unicorn necklace from f21. for just $5, happy :D then rushed home with the peak period crowd, and made it in home right on time for dinner, though i was too full. so i just had salmon. lol.
okaaay i think i will be updating more on my tumblr (: so check back there yo (:
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
hi i think the more i see you happy without me, the more i think we're not meant to be. and you're thissssssssssss close to never knowing my true feelings. like thats a big thing anyway. its nothing. and i'm actually alright about this now (:
Monday, February 01, 2010
suddenly i want really badly to get into NTU ADM. and i will do what it takes.
i wanna get a pair of harem pants ! not sure if i can pull them off though :/
among other thoughts today, the talk was good (: meeting at work found me forcing to keep my eyes open lol. (: was happy to head home before 6 (:
i also cant wait to go shopping soon :D need to come up with a list and budget :S
-mood change- was helping my brother with his primary six maths (hence the delay in this post) and it's really very tough. took me so long to get a qn done, (dont tell me i'm rusty) the way the qns are phrased and solved are totally different. with that said, i get so agitated when i cant solve them. its also making me very worried for him and i think he can sense the worry i have for him when i scold him cos despite scolding him for not even trying hard enough he still offered to get me a glass of water in a very soft tone.
because of this, i find the level of maths in primary schools getting higher. and its kind of disturbing. anyways this month i'm supposed to get annoyed less and be more tolerant. so yeah, i should give this a break for awhile.
though, its awfully hard to deny that events like these really bring out the sian ness in me.
suddenly several sian realisations have dawned upon me. 1. i have to be at nyjc tmr at 830am. 2. i've been ignoring calls 3. my stomach is hurting 4. you cant even be bothered to bother
so yeah, retail therapy is more of a need now i think.