Tuesday, November 30, 2010
life shouldnt be just about
1) getting what you want
2) not getting what you want
3) getting over not getting what you want
most of the time it's like it's boiled down to that.
so i'm gonna try and keep this in mind.
i gotta be looking at the bigger picture in life.
rather than micro details that dont necessarily make or break
Monday, November 29, 2010
i am going to make this week awesome despite-
1. chinese test on thurs
2. chinese video due on thurs
3. needing to shoot the chinese video that's due on thurs
4.the sucky 201 midterm2 grade
i am also going to-
1. print photos
2. be happy
3. watch harry potter
4. pray for kongkong
5. paint something
6. study my head to a headache
7. make sure i eat
8. send out my christmas cards
so there.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
when someone close to me passes away,
i'm reminded of how fragile life is.
it's really very scary how someone can just be gone like that.
it makes you want to make sure that all your relationships with those around you,
all those relationships,
you make sure you treasure them so much more,
because you simply never know when it's going to be too late.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
it's so fluffy i'm gonna die!
when you feel that nothing can get better
but it does.
so i've been meaning to blog for this week
which has been another fleeting week.
sem1 is going to end pretty soon,
and i must say,
it having been so awesome,
is prolly what made it fly by in such a flurry.
i look forward to every day, every weekend, every week.
and that just makes the days really go by like whooshhhh.
(sound effects included.)
i wonder if i'm losing my stand on the ground with how fluxive things are
but i doubt i really am because i know where i'm headed
and that gives me some sort of comfort knowing.
you also give me this comfort
in ways i never contemplated before.
i'm feeling this sense of satisfaction where happiness is concerned
and i must say i have never felt this happy
and it has never felt this easy being with someone
this is the way it should be
this is the way it is now
and it's awesome.
it's been awesome
and i know it's going to keep on being awesome.
i've been using the word awesome sooo much
but that's really what you are
and you see it's really quite amazing how
this awesome weaves into my life seamlessly
like you never just came into it,
but more like you were always here
and what we have was just waiting to be discovered
like some insanely beautiful crystal amidst a mass of rock.
that's really how i feel about us sometimes.
and every time i look at you
i cant help but think and think of it again
that i want to grow old with you.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
this weekend has been awesome.
as awesome,
if not more awesome than last week's (:
spent friday slacking
then heading to town to develop film w wall
then heading to tm to get stuff for the bbq at suf's.
it was pretty good (:
food was just nice and everything,
and i managed to swimmm (:
yay.
watched the sunrise at ecp the next morning which was insanelyyy awesome.
it was epiccc.
(:
theeen went to fep to collect the scanned images anddd had chicken rice at 11am.
theeen went home to restttttt (:
i'm sure i'm not making it sound as awesome as it really was,
butttt it really was awesome.
;)
Thursday, November 11, 2010
So it's thursday already,
and it means that it's the end of the week for me,
school wise, yay.
esp cos there's no 203 lecture tmr (double yay)
nothing much's been going on,
it's uni and i stay in ntu all the time on weekdays so there really isnt much that i've been up to.
i guess this week i managed to get my squirrel from The Better Toy Store
and also christmas card making stuff from artfriend,
aaand stuff to start on a scrapbook.
i also want to start on another kids book
i've been wanting this since eons ago, lol.
anddd i wanna stick to black and white
but i think i've been having too many diverse ideas that i cant even decide on the storyline.
i've also been drawing a whole ton of random stuff,
mostly cameras and well yeah, more cameras.
there's just smth from balanced and linked about the form which makes it a challenge and yet okay to draw.
i also found a really old Minolta film camera in one of the drawers under my bed
and there's still a roll of film inside.
i'm two or three more shots away from finishing the roll
and then i really cant wait to get it developed to see how it looks (:
the last time i had a roll of film developed was when i was in primary six i think?
so it'll be nice to feel how it feels again (:
okay as i'm typing this, i'm struggling to keep my eyes opennn.
so i'm going to try to take a nap before dinner, which should be soon (:
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
i kinda like this.
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
tuesdayyyy.
there's the ear801 test tmr, like so fast?
and i have to spam content tonight.
this, i am totally nottttt looking forward to.
the rain was epic this morning.
the whole atmosphere was grey and more grey.
and it was awesome cuddle weatherrr.
it's still raining now actually,
i'm so resisting the urge to lounge back into bed....
started this morning by walking some awesomeee to the busstop
then googling crystal bullet necklace online
and finding tons on etsy,
but not quite finding the exaaact one that i want.
i am subconsciously siannn
because i know i have to study for ear801 later,
unless i want to S/U it,
which i dont. so it's all zzz >:(
i also want to go pick up my photossss from fujifilm
and this is in conflict w studying for ear (more sadface)
there is also chinese oral on thursday.
which i dont like, times one million.
this post is turning into a whine-about-tests-and-modules-that-you-dont-like post.
lol.
okaaay so in an attempt to shift it away from that.....
i am going to look out the window and see if it's still raining.
also i am deciding whether i should wear the world's most awesome rainbow wool scarf out todayyyyy.
it's not that cold but it's not that hot
anddd school is always hottt so idk if that's a good idea?
but i guess i should just bring it out?
zzzzz
so many questions,
all not helpinggg haha.
oookay it's 1230,
my group meeting's at 230,
which leaves me with two hours.
i think i will shower and leave,
aaand then get lunch at can A?
mmmm.
Monday, November 08, 2010
this is so pinky and loud and tacky,
but the unicorn neutralises everything for me.
i.need.this.
once in awhile you know you get this unsettling feeling that makes you feel like you're doing something wrong.
i mean, sometimes you really are?
but wrong and right is always a matter of perception
and i'm going to just tell myself that.
i'm not one for regrets,
i mean,
we make conscious choices and so what if they're bad?
what's done is done la,
no point regretting.
apart from this thought that's at the top of my head.
i just feel veryyyy open with this blog unprivate so i might decide to make it private again.
somehow i feel like closing up,
this feeling might go away tmr,
but for now,
it's something that i'm contemplating.
this weekend was awesome.
it was well spent
and i was out most of the time.
Saturday was awesomeeee.
Spent time at the cousin's place,
went swimmingggg
aaand i managed to get a tan (:
yay.
then we headed to townnnn to run errands and check stuff outttt.
couldnt find a mouse that i really liked
(and by mouse i mean computer mouse not squeaksqueak pet mouse)
haha.
then we went to...313 (:
managed to get my headband from forever21 again yay
and then as i was paying
wall and i spotted this awesome rainbow wool scarf
which i ended up getting
yayyyy
i dont care if singapore's average temperature is like more than 26 degrees.
i'm going to find the best excuse to wear it.
(:
it's too happy
and i'm too happy
so it's perfectttttt.
(haha okay so this is the part where you laughatme cos this sounds funny)
i also tried on some awesomestuff at f21
which i resisted spending on.
wall got pants from uniqlo
which need to be collected on tues.
uniqlo was also more crowded than f21
which is weird cos it isnt normally.
(: dinner was awesome,
and so was icecreammmm
and l4d2 with cam and sean.
they kept consoling me though,
i'm not sad cos i suck la zzzz lol.
TODAAAAY
mass as usual.
then headed w the family to wisma for chutneys
but when we reached it was closed cos they're renovating
(SADNESS)
so we settled for carrot cake and hokkien mee.
and then Ion for the awesome takopachi
and Awfully Chocolate
yum
and then i went to liat (LEE-AT, not LEE-ART) starbucks
to meet wall
and bring someeee Awfully Choc Ice-cream goodness
haha.
(: we had coffee toooo (:
toffeenut frap and caramel macciato mmmm.
more fattening stuff
then after doing some work
and by some work i mean catching up on 203 and ear lecture stuff
aaand also
we popped by The Better Toy Store and AnBC and Artfriend (:
and this means all manner of awesome stuff that my cash just disappears too.
zzz.
nightmare for the savings, i knooow.
so anyways
i got stuff for christmas cards
(yaychristmascards)
anddd i couldnt resist getting a squirrel chop to add on to the unicorn chop and the bunny chop
i had to force myself not to get the deer, dog and polar bear chop just yet.
oh they also had a damn cute red riding hood one...
anddd some christmas wrapping paper that was pretty.
got enough cards from art friend and some snowflake sequins. (:
resisted the urge to look at brushes..
(:
the better toy store had a shetland pony figurine
like the ones i like, so i had to resist getting that too,
and they also had a unicorrrrnnnn which i wanted to get too,
but it had a goatee so i didnt really like it.
last time i was there they had a pegasus
but today they didnt :/
i hope it doesnt mean that they dont have anymore stock.
then as we were about to leave the store,
i sawwww....
a squirrel keychain!!
and it's the cutest squirrel keychain ever.
it's light cream orange and it has a long furry tail
and then there's the string that you can pull so that the squirrel can move.
it's sooooo cute
and i wouldve gotten it instantly!
but the string thing was spoilt!
so they're going to call me tmr after they check if they can bring in stock from the warehouse!
yayyy.
i am so waiting for the call from the dude at the store!!! (:
caaant wait for thissss.
haha.
also
i think i kinda OD-ed on sugar today because my stomach is all kinds of wonky now
and the bus ride from bishan to dover
made me feel all nauseous.
havent felt like throwing up cos of a bus ride in a long time
(if ever)
i felt better upon reaching hall though.
so yeah (:
i am going to make pancakes for breakfast tmr! (:
so i guess i shouldnt sleep so late, lol.
(it's like, 320am)
okaaay goodnight y'all (:
pancake photos tmr perhaps.
also there's no 204 this whole week yay
though i'd rather if there was no 203
anddd this week is kinda zzz
cos there's an EAR test on wednesday
aaand chinese oral test on thursday
(this cant be that good so yeah lol)
i am, however, looking forward to:
christmas (haha i just had to put this)
using the rainbow scarffffff (please rain on tuesday?)
the bbq on friday
and getting the squirrel keychain yay
oh and pancakes tmr morning, yummmm.
okaaaaay sleep time.
have a good week y'all
christmas is coming
Friday, November 05, 2010
okay so i havent blogged a proper post in like a million years lol.
somehow i think (or i like to think) that i've reached this whole balanced state now
and there isnt much to talk about because
everything's good like that.
(:
i will admit that being in this state makes me most sensitive
but it's working out fine so far.
it's thursday already (2AM)
so that means this whole week's just passed
(i am sure it's going to be christmas before i know it,
especially with exams coming up in four weeks pfft)
i've been okay in school i guess.
it's not getting boring, i'm getting used to this.
also this whole going home thing
i kinda figured why it's so sian sometimes.
i guess it's better now that i've realised it?
so yeah.
(:
it's all happy really (:
now that the long weekend's here....
i'm going to
-spend time with the cousins
-get some christmas coffee
-replace my f21 headbandddd
-ikea?
-beach?
aaand study for EAR test2 ZZZ.
okaaaay it's 3.30am
i think i ought to zzz soon (:
also i've been pretty active on my tumblr,
so check it outtt
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
it only shows how low one can stoop
that you have to do all that just to make yourself feel better.
get off your high horse.
i have no respect for you.
