that's really just revolving around the whole idea of freedom.
and this is coming from someone who's been sharing a room with her sister for the past 16 years
so yeah it's something (:
i am pretty stoked about moving in for obvious reasons
and i cant wait for sch to start
(though i do realise that i am soon going to be taking this back)
(:
it suddenly hit me that (although i reallycannotwait for school to start)
i am gonna miss my family.
i'm gonna miss my sister annoying me
my parents nagging
my brother's funny-ness
and i know i'm still in sg and all but i guess it'll be different?
and i aint gonna be living with them forever (that's for sure)
so i might as well get used to this (:
(i didnt miss them one bit whilst in vietnam so i guess it wont be so bad since i am still in sg)
i guess there's just something weird about drifting apart from the people i've been seeing every single day for the past 19 plus years
okaaay from here on i think i'm gonna be just rambling so i should stop lol.
today has been normal for a sunday.
spent the morning in church as usual,
lunch was at Anatolia with the family
and then followed by Ion for Daiso and Awfully Chocolate icecream (which is only toooo damn awesome, i think it's my favourite icecream now)
aaand i got this foldable bag-case thing from daiso
heh okay i know it's from daiso and everything but it can be folded in two and there's zippers on both sides so it's really pretty awesome
and so i intend to shamelessly overuse it as a clutch
it's THE carry-everywhere-when-i-am-too-lazy-to-carry-my-entire-handbag clutch
though i'm prolly gonna diy on it alittle before it debuts lol
i'm thinking some studs.
okay yupppp aaaand
then the parents suggested we head to the ntuc at AMK so i could get stuff for hall.
and by stuff i mean food.
i got a ton of stuff like mostly cornflakes biscuits healthbars tea sweets
i also managed to sneak all the jellyheart making ingredients (YAY)
so i'll be trying this out sometime during the week.
okaaaay it is THE last week of the hols
(already, like how on earth did 8months fly by)
(this only means one thing, christmas is coming heh, haha)
there's still stuff i wanna do so i'm surely looking forward to this week :D
everything in between this past week has been only awesome.
(somebody hit pause already pfft)
it can only get more awesome :)
Sunday, August 22, 2010
It's Sunday already! I haven't blogged since Friday, And now it's like 3am So I doubt I'll be able to recall everything (and I do wonder whether and how specificity affects anything but yeah lol) I'll just post briefly what I can recall.
Friday was spent....well, haha. Went for baybeats with the dudes and fuzzy Nothing really awesome music wise Though I must admit, Rudra was pretty decent for a screamo type band that I normally wouldn't listen to.
Todaaay (sat) I woke up late, as usual lol Slacked around, did some stuff And made a number of lists Left the hse by 5 for day 2 of baybeats Dinner was a strawberry Dunkin donut AND two big slices of sarpino's pizza- Which they amazingly have at the esplanade xchange. Quite awesomestuff.
Caught run neon tiger at seven Pretty awesome sound and vocals Caught fireworks again :) third time in two days Pretty sweet, esp when there's the reflection off the marina bay sands archi. (:
I liked the camerawalls though I guess it would be better if I can understand, understand the lyrics, it mostly all sounds all jumbly- all the bands did actually Maybe it's just me lol
King ly chee from hk today were really hardcore. The moshpit was like, whoah It had a life of its on lol
Okaaaaystartingtogetsleepy Headed to rochor for tau huey And now I'm home I'm gna sleep soon! It's Sunday!
Which means!!! This week's the last week of the hols :) Stoked to move to hall mostly And looking forward to getting to work again (I know I am going to regret saying this very soon) Just kinda feeling all bittersweet about it now though. The past few weeks have been awesomeee Imma make sure when sch starts, Everything's just gonna keep getting better :D
Friday, August 20, 2010
when you're this happy, nothing else should matter.
and right now i'm really just drowningfloatingsuspended in this state of happy that i really cant seem to aptly describe.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Didn't get much done today. Woke up late as usual And lazed around the house till just after one Then I headed to ngee ann city to mail out the hall payment This was a veryvery good substitute to going all the way to ntu that's for sure
Of course along the way i popped by f21 There's nothing much though Spotted a top I'd like to have tried but the was a queue for the fitting room ( i know right, even at 2pm on tues?! ) So I didn't Plus, the f21 at wisma would appear to e seriously saving costs on air-conditioning That place, is never cool or even cold hurr
After that I popped by Cotton On but there was nothing much do I headed straight to the post office The service there was really good I mist say The woman there was being so nice Considering I asked quite a number of questions lol I left there pretty satisfied Looks like I ought to send more snail mail out soon (I just remembered that this is one o the things that I said I'd do more of once a levels were over lol)
Then I went on a shorts hunt Since YES I am always wearing the same pair of denim shorts which is two sizes too big for me heh. Mango Zara pull&bear uniqlo Nothing la So oh well I was feeling kinda zzz and not really in the shopping mood (since I am broke anyways right)
Popped by the apple store in ion And yessss they have the screen protector that I want But I didn't get it yet zzz Also saw a pretty awesome hardcase But no way am I paying $69 for a case I can buy a ton of other stuff with that same amount of cash la Insane.
Was supposed to wait for my mum to pass me some $ But I got lazy waiting around And there wasn't much else to see around there Train to Novena for gong cha (awesomeness)
They've seating space there so I chilled there for nearly an hour lol The iphone's good for chilling aha Normally I'd have to bring a book or mag out So this was nice for a change
It was gonna be peak period soon So I left before running into the bulk of the crowd
Tried on light denim and black denim shorts at the Cotton on at j8 Fits pretty alright Though it feels a tad too tight But i guess that's only cos I'm not used to it I kinda want smth a little more distressed though That pair looks too clean
But I guess since shorts have been so hard to find I should prolly just get that pair and distress it on my own or smth
Okaaay Su's leaving for the US at 8am tmr. Gotta be up pretty early to see her off so I won't be staying up too late tonight (this is that I always say lol)
There's also the Kamikaze outing to the beach tmr So I'm hoping the weather forecast for tmr is wrong lol I've really been meaning to soak up some sunshine And I could really do with a tan Mhmm
Okay so here's to hoping it's all sunny tmr! :)
Monday, August 16, 2010
okay for no reason i dont really feel like blogging much
but i do for another unknown reason feel like typing
(i guess this is a break from the touch screen)
so yeah i will blog.
had a pretty awesome day today
great morning
lunch at home
then headed to island creamery: teh tarik+bandung (yesssss finally)
and then starbucks and adam road food centre.
it was a whole day
(or practically a whole day out)
and yeah kinda shagged lol
i'm having some kinda of pseudo tummy ache
(but this is normal at this hour i guess?)
i can no longer tell if it's cos i'm hungry or bloated heh
okay soooo the iphone4's been pretty awesome,
i like the design more,
dont really like how the curve on the iphone 3GS sits on the table
so this one is nice for me
the connectivity doesnt seem to be an issue still,
so it's all good.
i am loving being able to go online wherever, whenever for whatever.
although it eats batt life insanely.
it's a convenience i must say.
the camera is pretty awesome at 5 megapixels
and not forgetting all the apps.
i'm more than happy that i finally got a new phone la,
basically.
all in all today was a great mondayyy
no monday blues whatsoever
this is good.
tmrrrrrr
i gotta head down to make payment for hall
(all the way in ntu)
and i gotta wake up early to catch my mum for this since she's already sleeping
and then i guess i'll go look for a caseeeee for my iphone.
idk if it'll be easy to find since it's the 4 though :S
okaaaaay feeling kinda queasyyyy
i should get a glass of water.
anddd i am having trouble syncing my iphone with my itunes.
my laptop detects my iphone as a digital camera.
i'm beginning to think my iphone as an identity crisis
First post from my iPhone4 I'm really stoked using it, considering I've been stuckkk with my nokia music express phone for the longest time. :) :) :) still getting used to it, but it's pretty awesome And contrary to popular belief, I haven't had any connectivity issues so far with this.
Okay I gotta rmb not to leave it lying around lest I accidentally crush it I don't wanna end up with a cracked screen- Considering how vulnerable this screen is...
Just got home an hour plus ago from su's place :) Mahjong pizza talktalktalk lava cake Pretty awesome as usual
I'm looking forward to tmr And the rest of the week Though there is smth daunting about it being the second last week before sch starts. With that said, I am still immensely STOKED with regard to moving into hall. The f-r-e-e-d-o-m is going to be insane And I'm so looking forward to that :) And school too of course.
Oookay. I don't even have to be on my laptop cos there's everything on here now! This is awesome.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
spent the whole day out today (:
was pretty awesomehappy.
ikea for lunch (:
i could do this every alternate day-
cept perhaps sans the 6 chicken wings, lol.
i had chocolate mousse today which was goooood.
ikea is like home away from home, haha.
what with the bouncy springy soft mattresses
and awesome sofa beds
going to ikea makes me want to hurryupandget my own house
so i can do it up how i like.
(:
left for town after that,
popped by Times at Centrepoint
which is devoid of stuff, seriously.
they're out of stock of the moleskine that i want,
which is like the basic one.
and they only restock in cny next year.
insane much, pfft.
decided to pop by f21
since 313 was just opposite centrepoint
(haha what an excuse)
then after f21 it was uniqlo zara cotton on
and i was about to leave when i rang amanda
and she was at 313 too!
so met her for second round of shopping, lol.
ended up getting a beaded headband from Mphosis for $6
(this was a steal)
and then we went to New Look and there was this pair of sequin+beaded flats
and i ended up getting them since they were twenty on sale.
oh we also got a nutella milkshake from handburger
it's freaking awesome seriouslyyy
now all i need is island creamery to complete the current calorieaccumulating spree hehe.
okaaaay it's the weekend already
(so fast)
and i cant wait for school but
i've been so happysmiley lately a part of me just wants to freeze all of this.
okay i think tonight i shall watch Where The Wild Things Are
Thursday, August 12, 2010
among other thoughts
i needa get a medium-large clutch that will be a substitute for days when i just want to bring my
wallet keys ezlink handphone comb
out.
didnt do much today
but i did-
get my haircut
paint some waffles
so after waking around 12
i headed to the hairdressers
to finally get my hair cut (:
decided (after much deliberation)
to cut it straight instead of layered for a change,
though i still want it looong.
currently it's like mid chest length.
previously it was one or two inches below my elbow.
so it is noticeably shorter
without a doubt
it feels so much lighter fresher bouncier (HAHA)
so yes you can prolly tell by now
that i like it
and i should have made this decision a long time ago (:
(i will post a photo when i take a proper shot)
after getting the haircut,
proceeded to paint some wafflessss.
which turned out pretty alright
considering i havent picked up the brush to paint any substantial subject matter from a reference
and not from imagination
it was also refreshing to paint food since i hadnt done that much before
i think i'm going to try painting icecream or iced cupcakes.
the swirl of cream is challenging where tone is concerned.
and i like the curves more than angles
cos i get to use my favourite brush (lol)
spent the rest of the day browsing for awesome photos
off a reallyawesome blogspot page
tons of great shots
gonna start pen ink-ing some of those
(shall add this to the list)
other things on the list include returning my library books
painting some cats
tidying my room
and getting stuff for hall
i also have this gong cha and island creamery craving that really ought to be satiated soon
(i hope)
and since we're on cravings i havent had a good bak chor mee in damn long
okay i really like how my hair feels cut straight
it's so much easier to manage and i can still do buns and chopsticks and all
:)
anddd i just rmbed that i have to go to times
and make it a point to visit cai guo-qiang's Head On since it's at the national museum
i've been happy lately (:
and it's been pretty awesome.
blog again tonight with some colours
this is damn cute. who doesnt need a giant squid plushie?
After tonight, who knows where we'll be tomorrow what if we're never here again?
managed to get up insanely early at 8am today. it wasnt a very productive morning at my relatives' place. so it was all zzz till i met suf fuzzy ahmad at tamp starbucksss after chilling there for a bit. didnt feel weird being alone so that felt good
among other random stuff, they didnt have my friendship band :( so too badddd.
home sweet home now, but my stomach's being a bitchhh. i feel like i'm having butterflies in my stomach (when i'm not) i think it's just due to my eating habits, though i did have lunch and i did have dinner (just) or pseudo meals at least.
i'm quite sure i've played this song on repeat nearly 20 times today- it's awesome when you blast it.
(it's 3am)
today has been pretty alright. woke up around 11ish headed to school to surprise Sarah at 3 ish (: talked to Mr wong and everything. left for home and spent the evening at the playgroundddd. it's pretty awesome once the lights go out i think so it's not so glare-y.
i also survived the whole of today on a double cheeseburger and a packet of milo. dont get me wrong i'm not out to see how little i can eat in one day (this is just stupid) i'm just out and about so i dont really have time to get smth and i'm not that hungry so yeahhh eat to live i guess.
though there's a ton of awesomestuff i wouldnt mind having right now (weird like that, i know)
okaaay tmr i gotta be at tampines helping my godpa guard things at some void deck while they shift things around. it's gonna be super zzz i'd better bring a book or smth.
shall leave you with what's on replay- Robyn's Hang with me.
Thursday, August 05, 2010
i shall try this when i wake up
It's always around like 2am that i feel damn bloated and fat.
and when i wake up the feeling's gone.
i guess that's okay then.
it's just very sickening at night when i feel like this, hurr.
Robyn's Hang With Me is still playing on repeat.
I just watched The Time Traveler's Wife,
and i think Rachel McAdams really does an awesome job
in these kinda love story type movies
-think, the notebook.
and yeahhh my eyes are so dry from cryinggg.
today was the visit audrey outing with a bunchhhhh from the og.
turned out pretty alright considering what the initial plan was, haha.
dinner was at the rooftop
and i like that rooftop somehow.
it's where i can just sit for hours.
though the patches of water get damn annoying cos you have to walk round and round to get around.
they should prolly just convert it to grass patches with shade like trees or smth.
then it'll be a convenient picnic location
(marina barrage and botanic gardens are outta the way considering i dont drive)
i've been surviving on a meal a day and it feels pretty alright
i guess i'm doing just fine and all's good (:
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
the swan princess has gotta be one of the best cartoon movie love stories ever.
The 30 day Challenge: every day, write a letter to
Day 1 — Your Best Friend Day 2 — Your Crush Day 3 — Your parents Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) Day 5 — Your dreams Day 6 — A stranger Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from Day 15 — The person you miss the most Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country Day 17 — Someone from your childhood Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to Day 23 — The last person you kissed Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day Day 28 — Someone that changed your life Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
i'm gonna start loving the small things in life more.
the simple things that make me smile,
i'm gonna start noticing them more.
and i'm not gonna do the one photo a day thing,
but i figured since i blog every day,
i should at least make it a point to
write down smth that made me smile in the course of the day.
i also want to attempt to make more people happy.
snail mail is the keyyyy
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
i've had robyn's hang with me
stuck in my head for two days now.
might just be the best break up song.
can hearts turn into triangles instead?
please dont let me do this to myself again
set myself up for disappointment.
hi it's already happening.
screw this.
seriously
my head and heart are in sync.
for the life of me i am sick of this. i'm sick of being so happy with someone, only to see it just crash into nothing. and to be the one to build it up, only to be the one to bring it down. because it's just killing me. and fuck do i have to feel like this all the time. do i always have to be the one to end it. it's just so fucked up that it's this way. i want to do the right thing. my head and heart are in sync with this decision. so i guess that's the good thing.
but yeah. everything else just feels awful. i thought i'd be okay, i mean i am. generally i'm happy and all. it's just i cant help but feel like i lost a part of me. i lost the part of me that wanted us to work out. i lost the part of me that thought i could stay happy with you. i lost the part of me that wants to be right about you. i lost the part of me that really loved you to the core. i lost the part of me that thought being with you would be work out despite being well aware of everything that stood ahead of us.
somehow there is this big gap.
like just everything i thought abt you was wrong. what we had. i'm not even sure anymore what is was.
i'm not even sure.
and that's just fucked up i guess. i mean, six months isnt short relatively. and to think it's just the end. it's getting to me now.
i hate to think you're just a rebound.
but sometimes i do think it was a mistake.
and then it's like i've been cheating myself to be happy all this while.
and i cant take it.
i didnt think i'd cry but yeah.
that's one more thing i'm wrong about.
and i'm sorry to do this to you. for what it's worth i really think it's better this way.
i'll be better in the morning.
so this is a new start.
Monday, August 02, 2010
i'm on a rollercoaster and i cant get off.
i'm not the easiest person to love.
to think i have been setting myself up for disappointment
is smth pretty major
and it hurts, yes.
to think that from the start it was already like that (for the lack of another adjective)
and when i think abt the gaps i feel
and the spaces in between us
i cant help but feel this weariness in my heart
and it's not like i'm exaggerating.
but really,
it's there
and i dont know how long more i can take this.
it really isnt easy finding someone who loves you for who you are.
who you can be yourself around.
who you can enjoy silent moments with
just doing nothing.
and i really miss those moments i had.
but it's no use looking back.
and somehow the more you look for someone
the more elusive they get
and thinking abt this makes my stomach lunge for some weird reason
(no kidding)
and yeah,
needless to say,
i havent found that someone to be on the side of me.
& I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind
i've been having this song as my getting dressed song for a few days now
I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight
there's smth pretty awesome about alexa chung
that makes me admire her style.
i'm not into the socks and heels trend
but i could surely do the pullover and high waisted shorts look
i love this dress a lot in particular
i love the styling for this collection it's the: quote- A/W ‘10 from Sretsis, created by Thai designer, Pim Sukhahuta, who is known for quirky yet girlish designs -end quote
and i know i cant pull off pastels for nuts, but this makes me want to even bother trying.